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Chapter 15

*nat*

“Please wake up, Please Nick wake up.” I said holding on to Nicks hand in the hospital. I talked to the doctors before, he had a concussion from falling from having alcohol poisoning. He was pumped with all the alcohol in his body a few hours ago, and they told me that if he doesn’t come to in a few days they didn’t know if he was going to make it. Brian came in with two cups of coffee and gave me one.

“Thanks.” I said.

“No problem. I should of came by and saw how he was.” he said sitting down next to me.

“You didn’t know.” I said.

“But Nat, you should of seen him when you left a day ahead of time, sleeping in your bed, and then when I came over he started to talk to me about what you guys did in there a few months ago. I felt so bad for him when I had to leave to be with my girlfriend.”

“But you didn’t know that he was drinking. Don’t blame this on yourself Bri, it was my fault, I should of somehow stopped it all but I didn’t.”

“Nat, I think maybe Nick handled this the wrong way we couldn’t help him, and I’m praying that now that we can, we do.” he said holding on to my hand.

“I love him.” I said bluntly.

“I know you do. But there’s nothing you can do about that your..” Brian started to say but stopped.

“I don’t love Joel, he doesn’t love me. He’s getting married to his girlfriend in a couple of weeks.”

I said looking at Nick, laying there breathing on his own, just not up yet.

“Nat?” Brian said.

“Yeah.” I said looking at him.

“Called a divorce.”

“I know, I’m thinking about that.” I said.

“I have to get going, things to do, are you going to sit here?” he asked.

“Yeah, until his family comes I’ll stay but when they come I’ll leave for awhile.”

“Nat, let me tell you something.” Brian said putting his hands on my shoulders and looked at Nick. “Nicks my best friend, and I’ve never seen him like this. He wants you, he doesn’t want anyone but you. So I think the first thing when he wakes up is you. You treat him like he wants to be treated he found you and lost you. Don’t make that happen again.” he said and walked out.

I sat there and looked at Nick. He was sleeping, well they told me that he was out of it. But I could tell he was sleeping, and fighting with himself to not wake up. I walked around his bed and sat on the side of it. He was facing the window, and I touched his face. “Nicky, I promise you if you wake up, I’ll be with you. I’m going to get out of everything that I got into. Please. Wake up.” I moved a piece of his hair away from his eyes and he started to stir. His eyes slowly opened as he fixed them to look at the light. He slowly looked at me. “Hey..” he said.

“Hi, how do you feel?” I asked.

He moaned and looked at the ceiling. “Like I was just shot in the back.” he said.

“That could of been better.” I said. He looked at me.

“Nat?” he asked.

“Yeah, who did you think I was?” I smiled at him.

“How did I? Where did I?” he said.

I sighed and held on to his hand. “Nicky, you drank to much, and I found you laying there with no movement...” I started to say and I ended up breaking down crying.

Nick quickly sat up and took me into his arms. “I’m so sorry, I didn’t know, I was scared of losing you. And now I don’t know what to do with my life. Your gone.” he said and started to cry.

“I’m not gone.” I said. I stopped crying and looked at him.

“Your married to him.”

“I’m going to get out of it. I want you. I need you Nick. You wonder why I sat here watching you for the past few hours hoping and praying that you would get up.”

He smiled at me, and then took his hand and wiped away a tear on my face. “I love you. So much more than you can think.” and then we both leaned in and kissed a real slow and romantic type of kiss.

“Ahem.” we both heard after awhile of kissing. We both turned around and saw Brian standing there.

“I see someone’s up.” he said and walked to the bed.

I put my head on Nick’s shoulder, and Nick started to rub my back.

“Don’t be embarrassed Nat, you both deserve that.” Brian said and sat next to me.

“Thanks.” I said and Nick started to slowly let go of me and fall back on the pillow.

“NICK!” I yelled. As he fell back and I saw his eyes roll back into his head.