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Chapter 9

*Nat*
The next morning, was valentines day. I woke up to the phone ringing which, Nick decided not to pick it up so I did.
“Hello?” I said into the phone. “Natalie, I’m not going to make the dinner tonight, but I’ll see you on Friday. Okay?” Joel said.
“Fine.” I said. He hung up after that. He never called me Nat, which was driving me insane. Then the phone rang again and I picked it up.
“Hello?” I said.
“Hi sweetie.” My mom said.
“Hey mom.” I said.

*Nick*
I was walking past Nat’s room when I heard her on the phone. “No... it’s not a good day mom.....me and Nick are fighting......fighting about the bills......mom don’t say that.......why?........cuz, I still love him.....mom I can say it.......the marriage to Joel means nothing to me........I don’t like being forced into doing things that aren’t true to my heart. You and dad got a divorce, you had the same thing that I did with these stupid fucking arranged marriages. I don’t care mom, I’ll even say it to Joel’s face... fine. Happy Valentines day to you... love you. Bye.” She said and hung it up. I quickly walked fast past her room and into mine. Did she just say what I thought she said? I mean I love her, but I mean wait... why am I thinking like this?? She didn’t decide to do that. She loves me, oh lord, why did I just yell at her yesterday? I did cuz she was pissing me off. But she loves me, I love her too. Right now I want to do something with her, but what?

*Nat*
I got out of bed and looked out my window and sat on that seat on it. I loved that room just for that, probably the one thing when we first moved in that we fought about.

~~Flash back~~~~
Nick and I were just moving into our apartment, both 18 years old, graduated, and ready to move into where we were going to live, before we got married, and even started to do that stuff. I was looking at the rooms and trying to decide which one I wanted, not like I would sleep there or Nick would sleep in his, but that was not the point. I walked into the kitchen where Nick was standing looking out. “Hey, I think I like this one room.” I said putting my arms around his waist.
“Which one?” He asked turning around and looking at me.
“The one with the seat on the window and a nice view of the water.”
“Oh do you now? I was thinking that one could be for me, ya know how I like the water.” he said with a smirk.
“Race you?” I said.
“Your on.” He said and went off.
We raced into the room, I jumped on the bed and Nick stood there in the doorway. I smiled at him as he jumped on me and started to tickle me.
“Come on Nick.... STOP!....PLEASE!” I said between tickles. He stopped and looked at me. “Fine you win it. But if I sleep in here, it’s not cuz I want to be with you it’s cuz I want to see the nice view you have in here.” he said getting off of me.
“Fine.” I said and pouted. He smiled and we started to kiss.

~~End of flashback~~~
I looked down and noticed that I was holding the teddy bear that Nick gave me last year on Valentines day. I looked back out the window, when someone said something.
“I thought when you said you liked that bear you were joking.” I turned around and saw Nick standing there, clad in his flannel pants and a white wife beater, god take me now.
“Oh. Ummm...” I said and he sat down across from me.
“Gee, I do know how to pick out ugly looking bears don’t I?” He asked. Taking it away from me. The bear was a strange looking bear, White, with hearts all over it, and a few green patches all over it.
“No, it’s a cute bear.”
“Liar.” he said.
“I’m not lying Nick, it’s cute bear.”
“Whatever, so why were you crying?” he asked. With a look of concern in his face. And throwing the bear at me.
“I was crying?” I asked him feeling my face, no tears.
“Not yet, but your eyes are all red, and puffy. Looking as if you were going to cry.”
“Oh. Alright.” I said looking out the window again.
“What happened to the Nat that could tell me anything? Did she go away because she is going to have to get married to someone else? Or did she just get scared of me because we got into a fight about nothing?” Nick said trying to get me to look at him.
“I don’t know.” I said while my tears just flew out of my eyes.
Nick then pulled me into a huge and rubbed my back.
“Come on Nat... shh... I’m sorry for anything that I did to you.” he said. I just started to let out more tears on his shirt as he hugged me trying to keep me calm.
After I finally stopped, I pulled away and looked at his tank. “I ruined it..” I said. He looked down at me, and smiled, trying to hide the tears that I could see in his eyes. “I don’t care. You needed someone, and lately I haven’t been that person...” he said and started to cry. He pulled me closer and cried into my hair. I began to cry also.
“Baby, I should of been there, to try to stop it... but I couldn’t something about... your dad... scared me.. I’m still scared.” he said between sobs. I pulled away from him and said. “I’m so...” then Nick butted in. “Don’t... you have no reason to say that.” he said. He then pulled me down on the bed and laid down next to me. We both sat there for a good hour crying, and looking out the window, not saying anything just trying to be there for each other.
Then Nick broke the silence. “What are you doing today?” he asked.
I turned around and looked at him. I sighed and said. “Nothing.”
He smiled and took some hair that had fallen from my face and pushed it behind my ear. “Good, cuz now your stuck with me today, get ready, nothing fancy. Okay?” he said and started to get up.
“Alright.” I said. He left and I got ready for whatever he was about to take me on.