Over the next week or so Taylor, Tara, Julie and Isaac went to more parties than I can count, but Zac and I never went to another one again.
Julie spent all her time with Isaac and Taylor spent all his time with Tara. As a matter of fact I didn't really see Taylor at all until about a week after the first party, when he showed up outside my window one night....
*flashback*
Ping
I sat straight up in bed at the sound. It must be the rain, I told myself and layed back down.
Ping
This time the sound was louder and I jumped out of bed to see what it was. I pulled up the blinds to see Taylor standing in the rain with his arm raised, ready to throw another pebble at my window.
We stood staring at each for a few seconds until I dropped the blinds and went downstairs to let him him.
He was soaking wet and shivering so I grabbed a towel from the bathroom, put it on his head and started to dry his hair with it.
While I was running the towel over his wet hair he broke down in tears.
I was stunned. Seeing Taylor cry was something I'd never seen before. He was always so brave, even if he was physically hurt he didn't cry.
"I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" Taylor started saying over and over again and rocking back and forth. He was almost hysterical.
"Shh! It's ok." I gently led him over to my bed and he layed down. I layed down behind him, and let him cry.
After he'd calmed down just a little, I asked him what was wrong and he answered, "I did it, Allie! I always said I wouldn't until I was married, but Tara wanted to and I felt stupid saying 'no' so I said 'yes'."
I gasped realizing what he had done. He continued, "Everyone's going to be so ashamed of me. You probably are."
"No, I'm not Tay. I'll never be ashamed of you. I can't say that what you guys did is right, because it isn't, but I could never be ashamed of you. And you don't have to tell anyone else if you don't want to. It can be our secret."
I knew how much he wanted everyone else to be proud of him. Plus, in this small town just the idea of teenagers having sex is enough to give someone a heart attack.
"I can't believe I did it!" He exclaimed, "I just gave up on everything I believed in!"
He started to cry again and I didn't know what to say so I just stroked his hair and let him cry himself to sleep.
"Allie, wake up." a voice called softly.
I opened my eyes to see Taylor laying beside me. I almost jumped out of the bed in surprise then remembered what had happened last night.
"Good-morning Tay." I said looking up at him.
"Thanks for being there for me last night. I really appreciate it." He said.
"Just being your friend." I said, 'and wishing i was girlfriend' I thought to myself, "Are you ok now? I mean if I ask you something will you be alright?"
He nodded, "Sure, I guess."
"I just wanted to know what exactly happened between you and Tara."
He took a deep breath in and then said, "Well, I went over to her house for a while just to watch some movies or something but when I got there I realized her parents weren't home. Anyway, while watching the movie things got kind of crazy and she just asked me if I wanted to. I didn't want to look like an idiot so I said yes. But now I hate myself for it."
"It'll be ok though because no one has to know." I said trying to reassure him.
"I still have to live with it."
*end flashback*
We thought we were safe because we'd both agreed not to tell anyone, but it turned out we were wrong.
Once Taylor got home from my house he had a long conversation on the phone with Tara in which he broke it off with her saying that he wasn't ready for what she wanted to do. Tara in turn got so pissed off that she started telling everyone she knew that she'd slept with Taylor and that he was horrible in bed.
Even though Tara only knew a few people in town, those people told their friends, and their friends told their friends until finally almost everyone knew, including some of Tay's family members.....
*flashback*
"What did Taylor do last night?" Zac demanded coming into my room.
"What do you mean?" I asked innocently.
"I heard that Taylor slept with Tara last night and I figured since you and Taylor are pretty good friends, he would have told you already."
"Who did you hear that from?" I asked.
"Cody down the street. Everyone knows, Allie! Tara's telling people that he sucked in bed."
"That little slut!" I exclaimed getting up and running from the room.
