It's been a few days since I last talked to Nick. In fact, I haven't talked to him since he dropped me off at home from our date. Everytime I went online, Nick wasn't on. And I go online a lot. I save the conversations we have when we talk online. I put them in between the pages in my diary where I also write about our dates. That is the only place where I can say what I feel about Nick. I can't talk to Heather about him, she only thinks she is puppy love. I really think I am falling head over heals in love with Nick. I just wonder how he feels about me. My parents told me that he seemed like a nice boy, but they didn't like that he was 2 years older. I mean, come on, 2 years is not the end of the world. My parents were 4 years apart when the started dating. My Mom was 17 and he was 21. And she's complaining about me? Ha! Parents. She said that I should find someone who is my age. I just wanted to say Whatever Mom! She doesn't know that I met him online and I never will tell her either. That's just between me and Nick, not her or my Dad. They just don't understand me. I wish I could talk to Nick right now. I really miss him. I wonder where he is. Oh well. I'll just go finish my book that I started awhile ago.
I haven't talked to Lisa for a couple of days now. She's never online when I am. I've e-mailed her a few times but she's never returned any of them. I check my mail every few hours hoping from a response from her. Maybe I shoud go over there and see if she's home. I'd call but I never did get her phone number from her. That was dumb. It's about 3 now, so maybe I should go now. I told my Mom where I was going and with that I left.
I was almost done with my book when the doorbell rang. I figured that my Mom would get it since she was downstairs. I wonder who it is? Probably some Girl Scout selling cookies. I decided to go downstairs and check, but before I could there was a knock at my door.
"Come in."
My door opened and in stepped my Mom.
"Honey, Nick is downstairs," she said.
Nick is here?!! Yes.
"Ok. Tell him I'll be down in a second."
"All right."
I ran into my bathroom and brushed my hair. I set my book down and ran downstairs.
"Nick, Hi!"
"Hey Lisa."
"What are you doing here?"
"Came to see you."
"You wanna go outside?"
"Sure."
Nick and I stepped outside and I closed the door behind me.
"So....what brings you here Nick?"
"Well, I haven't seen or talked to you for a few days. I wanted to see you."
"I've missed you too."
"You want to go down to the beach?"
"Sure Nick."
Nick and I walked along the the beach hand in hand talking.
"So, your parents still don't know that you met me online?"
"Nope, and if they did I would not be walking with you at this very moment."
"Do you ever plan on telling them?"
"Yeah, when I'm not 15."
"Oh."
"I want to tell them about you Nick, about how sweet you are, and caring, and that I'm falling in love with you...."
"Your falling in love with me?"
"I didn't mean to tell you that...but...yeah I am," I said sort of embarrassed.
"Well, can I tell you something Angel?"
"Yeah."
"I think I'm falling in love with you too."
I just looked at him. He said he's falling in love with me too. This is the best day of my life I would think. I can't believe this. I never would of thought that a guy like Nick would ever say that to me. Wow. I guess I was so shocked and happy that I didn't realize that Nick was calling my name.
"Lisa......Lisa...Earth to Lisa," he said while waving his hand in front of my face.
"Oh. I'm sorry, I guess I was shocked that you said that."
"Why?"
"Because I never thought that someone would say that to me..ever."
Nick laughed. We continued walking down the beach for a little while longer before deciding to go back to my house. Nick came in and we went up to my room to watch some TV. My Mom was actually cool about that. I'm surprised. What I didn't know as we were watching TV what was in store for me when Nick left that night. He left around 6 o'clock. He finally asked for my phone number. That was funny. We said goodnight and I shut the door. I watched him pull out of our driveway and leave. I went upstairs to my room and sat on my bed. What I didn't know was that while I was downstairs my brother Rick came up to my room and went through my stuff till my Mom called me to come downstairs.
"What do you want Mom," I asked.
"What is this!?" she exclaimed.
She was holding mine and Nick's AOL conversations. Oh my god. My brother had went through my diary.
"Nothing Mom," I said.
"Nothing?! Is this the same Nick you went out with?"
"Yes."
"You met him online and you went out with him? Are you crazy?"
"It's no big deal," I said.
"Yes it is. He could be some psycho crazed killer for all you know."
"Mom, your are taking this too far. Nick is a sweet guy and I love him!!!!!"
"You love him? You don't even know what love is!"
"Yes I do and it's what I feel for Nick."
"You are not seeing this boy again Lisa. I forbid you to."
"What?! You can't do that."
"Yes I can and I just did. As soon as your father comes home I am having him unplug your phone line to your Internet. You are no longer aloud to use it if you are doing this."
"That's not fair. Just kill me why don't you!" I screamed.
I grabbed my papers from my Mom and ran upstairs crying. No longer aloud to see Nick or talk to him. She can't do that. I am going to see him if I want to and she or my Dad can't stop me. I love him and they can't do anything about it. I sat there and cried the whole night. I didn't go down for dinner, I wouldn't talk to my Mom, and I hated my brother right now. He's such a jerk! Ah! That night I cried myself to sleep.
The next few days I didn't eat or go downstairs. I slept most of the day and when my Mom came up to try and talk to me I would just ignore her or tell her to leave me alone. I finally got sick of staying in my house. I took a walk along the beach and thought of Nick. This is where we said we were falling in love with each other. I was just so happy till that night. It has been four days since I last talked to Nick. I missed him like crazy. I had to get away from my Mom so I called up Heather and she came and picked me up. We went over to her house and I told her what happened.
"I'm so sorry Lisa," she said.
"I'm going to see Nick. She can't stop me. Can I please use your phone and call him Heather?"
"Yeah, sure."
I dialed up Nick's number and his brother answered the phone.
"Hello?"
"Hi. Is Nick there?"
"Yeah, hold on."
"Ok."
"Hello?" It was Nick.
"Hi Nick."
"Oh hey Angel. Where have you been? I call up your house and your Mom says that yur not home. You're never online anymore."
I started crying.
"Lisa, what's wrong?"
"My Mom found out about you."
"She did? What happened?"
"I can't see you anymore Nick. She won't let me talk to you or see you. That's why she says I'm never home," I said crying.
"No don't cry Lisa. Please."
"I'm at Heather's right now. That's why I'm talking to you. They took away my Internet. I miss you so much Nick."
"Lisa.... I have to see you. I can't end it like this. I love you."
"I love you too Nick. And they aren't going to stop me from seeing you. Can we meet tomorrow somewhere?"
"Yeah of course. How about the park?"
"Yeah. 5 o'clock Nick. I can get a ride from Heather if she doesn't mind. I just have to see you."
"Yeah. Well , I have to go now Lisa. My Mom needs to use the phone. I love you."
"Okay. I love you too. Bye."
"Bye."
Nick and I hung up. I told Heather about tomorrow and she said she would drive me. I stayed there for a few more hours and then I went home. I went straight up to my room and went to sleep. I was so tired and I knew the faster today ender the sooner I could see Nick.
The next day I met Nick and we spent a lot of time together.We met at the park and talked for a dew hours and then we went to the beach. We sat there and he held me for a long time. I didn't want to leave him. I had told my Dad that I was sleeping over at Heather's that night. Which wasn't a lie. About 11 o'clock Nick drove me over there and I spent the night. So it wasn't actually a lie. After that I didn't see or hear from Nick in a week. At that time I stayed in my room and would only talk to Dad and Heather. I was too upset with my Mom. She was ruining my life. My Dad didn't like the idea of me going out with a guy I met on the Net, but he was much nicer about it then my Mom was.
Over the summer I had to either sneak out or say I was going somewhere with friends, but when school time came, I didn't see Nick as much. Some days he would pick me up from school and we would hang out. I hated lying to my parents. I finally forgave my Mom. I got my Internet back and I talked to Nick on there. Over the year it was the same. I would sneak out and come home late. No one ever found out about it. I was sixteen now and I was turning seventeen in a few months. Next year I would be graduating and I knew I would be able to spend more time with Nick. I was going to go to U OF F where Nick is going next year.We talk like once a week online and that's all. I would try and call him from a pay phone down the street just to hear his voice. I missed him a lot. I still cry myself to sleep sometimes. I just can't help it. I love him and I hardly see him. I'm living a lie in my house. I feel bad for what I'm doing. But I guess it's the price I pay for falling in love.
