In Remeberance
Dear Daddy,
How have you been?
How is your health?
What have you seen?
I know I haven’t written in a while,
Quite a few years since I seen you last.
I can’t help but remember the way it was
Though that is now in the past.
I remember the circus,
I remember the fair,
I remember also, Daddy,
It was you who took me there.
I remember the good times,
I remember the fun,
I remember the times
When together we sung.
But what I remember most,
What sticks out most in my mind,
Is the pain you suffered
And the cures you tried to find.
I remember the despair,
I remember the drugs,
I remember the beer that came
To me in large mugs.
I remember when you found out,
When I thought I was doomed,
But to stoned to care about
My future, that could have bloomed.
I remember mom crying
And the look on you face,
There was revealed
Your pain as you paced.
You thought it was your fault,
Where had you gone wrong?
To put me in the place I was in,
To be singing a druggies song.
I remember your tears,
As they fell to the floor,
I remember feeling nothing
Would be as it had been before.
You tried to get me help,
Best doctors to be found,
While all the time your head
Was spinning round and round.
I remember when I left,
To cold to leave a note,
To cruel to care about you
For my head was afloat.
The drugs ran out,
Left me dry,
Now all I have is my tears
As I cry and cry.
I know I was wrong,
To ever leave home,
To search for the next dealer,
As I roamed.
Getting kind of cold now,
Not feeling so hot,
Just curious, if I appologized,
Would you take me back or not?
I want the doctors,
I want the cure,
I want to be well again
That’s for sure.
Ran out of money,
Been clean for a while,
That kind of stuff
Is no longer my style.
I want the circus,
I want the fair,
But most of all, Daddy,
I want you to take me there.
I want my old bed,
I want my old room,
I want your love, Daddy,
And I want it soon.
I understand if you don’t trust me anymore,
It’s ok if you don’t care,
It’s ok to be that way, because
It was me who got me here.
I take back the harsh words I said,
I take back the disappointments I put your through,
I take back everything I did,
Even that vase that I threw.
I want to come home, Daddy,
I feel kind of down,
I want you to love me again, Daddy,
I want you to be around.
Please take me back, Daddy,
Please trust me once again,
This time it will be different, Daddy,
It won’t be the same.
Feeling a little sick now,
Not sure if I can hold on,
Please come get me, Daddy,
Come undo what I have done.
One last thing, Daddy,
I want to say before I die,
It wasn’t your fault, Daddy,
I love you and Goodbye.
Home | Autobiography | Pictures of me | Pictures drawn by me
Poems
Many Keys and Locks | My Heart's Desire | To Think | There for me
