I am never alone
Even when I am all by myself
I always have you
You are always there
Through the good times
And through the bad I know you will always be there
I want to believe you are my friend and
That you are good for me
And I keep tricking myself into believing it
So why do you do this to me?
Destroy everything that is good in me
Make a liar out of me
I spend all my time trying to hide you
And all my money trying to keep you happy
And I don’t know why
All you do is hurt me
Over and over it’s the same thing
You leave me hurt
And I don’t understand why I let you do this to me
What is this hold you got over me?
Why do you control everything that is me?
How do I escape your evil clutches?
I’ve tried in the past
I have gotten away from you
Or at least I thought so
Then you come back out of nowhere
Smiling at me
Telling me everything is gonna be o.k.
Telling me things are gonna be different
That you won’t control me
That this is just a one-time deal
That you aren’t gonna stick around
Just for good old time sakes
But you are a liar
Or am I lying to myself when I believe you
So I take a chance
And then I am back where I started
With you at my side
Pushing me, taunting me
Eating my life away
Making me do things I wouldn’t normally do
Or has the not normal become normal
Is this really me
Is this the way I am gonna be ‘til I die
Is this the fate I have made for myself?
Are you gonna be with me forever
And if so can I control you
I need to take charge
I need to be strong
I want my life back
