Chapter Three
I should have known that when I got back everything wouldn't be the same as it always was. Most of my friends had gone off to college and my younger brother basically had the run of the house since I was gone. My parents were waiting for me at the airport when I came in. I found out that they had been in Honolulu until the day before and that was why no one had answered when I called."We were so surprised when you called and said that you were coming home," said Mom, as we walked to the car, "I thought you were happy on the mainland with Nick.""I thought I was too," I said, "But I just kept thinking that I wanted to come back here."Of course on the ride home, my parents wanted to know every little thing that had gone one the road. I didn't know what to tell them. There was a lot that we had all agreed not to tell...even to our parents. As I told them about different things that happened, I began to realize that it hadn't been as bad as I had thought it was. I had actually had a pretty good time."Are you back for good or only for a break?" Dad asked, snapping me out of my thoughts."I don't know," I said, "I know that I'm going to miss the guys, but when I'm there, I'd rather be here and I don't know what I want to do.""Okay," said Mom, "Just let us know if you want to go back.""I know," I said, "Don't worry."As anyone would have guessed, as soon as I called Nick and he came on the phone, I instantly wanted to be back there with him. Nick sounded so sad and lonely, even if I could hear the other guys langing and yelling in the background."I wish you were still here," Nick said."Did you read the letter?" I asked him."Yeah," said Nick, "But...I don't know. Maybe I'm being selfish. I know that you missed your family and everyone, but I wanted you here with me.""I know you do," I said, "But I think I need to be here for a while, just until I decide where I really want to be.""Okay," said Nick, "But you're not breaking up with me, are you?""Of course not," I said, "I love you more than anything, but you know I can't be there right now.""Yeah, I know," Nick said.We talked for a while more and then finally got off. Nick was more reluctant than I was to hang up the phone, but we both knew that we couldn't run up the phone bill anymore.Within a week, I had run out of things to do. There was nothing for me to do in Hawaii without all of my friends around. I would talk to Nick every day for at least and hour and the rest of the day would be spent either thinking about him or reading. Things really weren't going as well as I thought they were going to. Part of me wanted to go back to the mainland, but another part of me knew that I would want to come back again.Around the middle of June, I found out that most of my friends were going to be coming back from the mainland for summer vacation. I couldn't wait to see them again. But...of course...that didn't turn out as planned either. Most of my high school friends had brought people back with them from the mainland and didn't have time to spend with someone who wasn't even going to college. I found myself spending more and more time wishing I was back on the mainland."So you want to come back?" Nick asked one night while we had out nightly phone conversation. I could tell that he was trying not to sound too excited."Yeah," I said, "I finally realized that things aren't going to always be the same wherever I go.""When are you coming back?" asked Nick."I think my flight leaves here tomorrow afternoon," I said, "And I should be in Florida in a couple of days."Nick and the guys were finally taking a break and were home in Florida."I'll come and pick you up at the airport," said Nick, "Just tell me what time you're coming in."I gave him all the information I could about my flight times and everything."So I'll see you in a few days," I said to Nick."Yeah," he said."I should go," I said, "I'll talk to you later.""Bye," said Nick, "I love you.""I love you too," I said.I hung up the phone and decided to start packing. I was surprised to realize that I was so excited to be going back to the mainland. As I was packing, I thought about how crazy I had been to think that coming back would fix everything. Things had changed and there was no way to change them back. I knew that I was going to miss being in Hawaii when I got back to the mainland, but there was nothing I could do about it.Chapter FourBack to Babylove's Stories
