After a rough start, he finally latched on. Pumping sure is hard on a woman's body after a prolonged period of time. I remember the first time he latched on like it was yesterday. It was the most fulfilling moment in my life. I finally felt complete. I was nourishing my baby with my body & my body only. It still took a couple more months for us to be able to nurse comfortably. It's important to find a comfortable position, so that you can relax to help your milk let down. He was about 4 months old when we found that relaxing position. We are able to nurse with ease just about anywhere, but it took a lot of practice & determination. I feel that if anything is important to you , you can do it!

I had decided to breastfeed Ethan until he is a year old until I stumbled on La Leche League's web site. I found a lot of stories on breastfeeding toddlers & letting the child decide when to wean. I went through a couple months of contemplating what I should do. I was afraid of having a 5 year old who was still breastfeeding & worrying what people would think. I also felt uneasy about forcing my son to do anything he wasn't ready for. I talked to my husband about it & he said whatever I decided, he'd support me. I talked to friends that breastfed. I tried to find as much information as possible to help me to decide what to do. When it came right down to it, all of that didn't really matter. What matters is how breastfeeding has made both Ethan I feel. How it has brought us so close. When he is nursing, we are "one." What is the only thing that makes it different if he were a toddler? Society! I've decided that I'm not going to let society (people that are not even a part of my life) ruin what I have with my son. I want to always be here for him if he needs me. I will let no one disrupt our nursing relationship.

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