"Okay, but just so you know, I'm questioning your masculinity here," I
said dropping my hair down and brushing it through. Nick sat me down and got behind me.

He pulled my hair up and kissed my neck.

"Ah, so you're only doing this to get laid," I laughed.

"Hey, I'm smooth. I mean what guy really wants to do hair?" he asked
pulling me down on the bed.

"Yeah, you're smooth. You knew exactly what I wanted," I smiled and
kissed him.

"I did?" he asked slyly.

"Yep, sleep," I said closing my eyes.

"Al," he whispered.

"Yeah," I replied facing and scooting closer to him.

"I love you," he grinned and kissed me.

"Don't say that. you don't, I replied.

"How or what can I say to make you think I do?" he asked.

"Nothing, its just guys don't love. Girls fall in love and get dumped," I
explained.

"Al, listen to me. I love you. I will always love you and there's noway to change that. Even if you don't think that guys can love, I do love you," he
replied.

"Goodnight Nick," I said closing my eyes.

"Night Al," he replied. I soon fell asleep and he did too.

The next morning I got up and ready to go. I woke Nick up.

"I gotta go," I said shaking him.

"Not yet," he whined.

"Yeah, its time. I'll see you tomorrow," I told him softly and kissed his
cheek.

"Okay, I love you," he mumbled and kissed me.

"Bye," I whispered and left. I got on my plane and went back.

My house felt so empty. I immediately went to work and got down to the
nitty-gritty stuff. I stayed all night to catch up on things.

"Al, you stayed all night?" Ashley asked when she saw me the next morning.

"Yeah, I didn't really do anything in New York so I need to get it done now," I replied.

"So, I saw you on the grammies," she chuckled.

"Yeah, Nick bought me that dress! It was like 3000 dollars," I said astonished.

"Jeez!" Ashley gasped. The phone then rang.

"Hello?" I answered.

"Hey babe," I heard Nick's gentile voice.

"Hi hun!" I squealed.

"So, I'm gunna be home in about an hour could you meet me for lunch?" he asked.

"Oh, Nicky, I'm really swamped with work, maybe another time," I said
disappointed.

"Oh, okay, " he replied, "Well, I gotta go," he said and hung up.

* 3 Months Later*

The past 3 months had gone on pretty much the same. Nick always said I
love you and I never replied to that. There wasn't anymore sex since that
one day.

Things just seemed to always be the same. There was no excitement. It was the day before the guys left to go on tour.

"What time are you leaving?" I asked Nick over the phone.

"5 tomorrow night," he replied.

"How about you come over tonight?" I suggested.

"Sure," he said slyly.

"Not that way," I replied.

"I love you," he whispered and hung up. My doorbell rand and on the
outside was a small box. Inside was a small puppy. She looked tired and starved.

"Oh, come on in," I said picking her up. I fed her what I had and made a
small bed for her, "There you go, " I said petting her. The door then rang. The puppy had already fallen asleep.

"Hey Baby," Nick said pulling me to him and kissing me.

"Hey," I said walking away. After all the puppy needed to be attended to.

"So what's going on?" he asked. Nick didn't really care, he just wanted to get in bed.

"You're a father," I said picking up the puppy and placing her in his lap.

"When did you get her?" he asked as she fell asleep.

"Somebody left her on my doorstep," I shrugged, "So, now she's ours."

"But she was left on your doorstep, not mine, she's yours," he said handing her back to me.

"Kinda like how if I got pregnant the baby would be in my uterus and not
yours, therefore its mine?" I asked a little angry.

"Its nothing like that," Nick started when the phone rang.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Al, its Ash. Um, I have to go out of town, do you think you could
watch my kids for me?" she asked sounding rushed.

"Of course, when are you going to bring them over?" I asked.

"Is right now okay?" she asked.

"That's fine Ash," I replied. We both hung up.

"What was that about?" Nick asked.

"I'm taking care of Ash's kids, I have to go make up their rooms," I said
walking out, "Name the puppy will ya?" I yelled as she ran back to him.

Nick picked her up and followed where I went.

"So I guess, we're not going to be alone tonight," he assumed.

"Ash needs my help, okay?" I asked making the bed.

"That's fine, but I'm going to be gone for 5 months you know," he replied.

"I'm sorry, but I care for these kids so much, I started.

"More than me?" he asked. I shot him a disappointed look.

"You can take care of yourself, they can't," I snapped at him. The doorbell then rang.

"Thank you so much Al," Ashley said hugging me.

"Oh, its fine! Go! You're going to miss your plane!" I rushed her.

"Aunt Ali!" Turner ran up and jumped on me.

"Hey Turn!" I said holding him, "Where's Kat?"

"Aunty Al!" she said happily.