Nick sat at the back of the bus and glared at Brian who was all over Leighanne. He told everyone, Nick thought, hating the fact that the others knew what he had done.
Brian noticed Nick glaring so he approached him. "Nick what's up?" he asked.
"You told everyone," Nick said angrily.
Brian was confused. "Told everyone what?".
"The night of the VMAs,".
Brian bit his lip. "Yeah," he admitted. "But only cos I was worried. I only told the other three...".
"I'll be keeping myself to myself in future," Nick said, turning away from Brian.
"I'm sorry," Brian said. "Don't be mad at me, please!".
Nick ignored him.
Brian sighed and went back to Leighanne. He told her what Nick had said.
"Don't worry, he won't stay mad for long," she reassured him.
"After all I did for him!" Brian exclaimed. He looked over at Nick to see him sitting gazing out of the window with a frown on his face. "How could he get so sad over a girl?" Brian said. "It's been two months, I thought he'd be over her by now...".
"Give him more time, he'll get over it eventually," Leighanne said.
"I hope so," Brian replied, getting worried for Nick.
The bus stopped at the next venue and everybody went inside. "Sound check time," one of the crew members said.
Brian kissed Leigh and told her he'd see her later. He joined the band on stage for the sound check. Nick was barely concentrating, he stared into space as if in another world.
"You OK Frack?" Howie asked him quietly.
"Yeah, I'm not about to go harm myself if that's what you were wondering!" Nick said angrily.
"I didn't mean it like that, sorry Nick," Howie said, upset.
"Mind your own business. Anyway Brian shouldn't have told you all,". He glared at Brian.
"Nick I said I was sorry," Brian said.
Nick blanked him. "I've had enough of this, sound check over,". He stormed offstage.
The guys looked at each other. "What can we do?" Kevin said. "We're only trying to help,".
"I've had enough of trying to help!" AJ said annoyed. "I give up. He can help himself in future. he won't let us help,".
After that nights show, Nick sat in the hotel room alone again. It was gone midnight yet he could not sleep.
"I can't carry on like this any more," he muttered. "I'll have to do something,".
He sat on his bed and looked around. He saw his razor laying on the side and picked it up. He looked at it for a few seconds, then threw it down. "No, I won't," he told himself.
Nick opened a draw and got out a bag of candy. he stuffed his face and ate every piece of candy in it. Food always helped.
But afterwards he felt guilty and threw up. He looked at himself in the mirror. "Ugly loser," he said to his reflection. "No wonder I can't get a girlfriend,". He started to cry and threw himself on the bed.
I can't go on anymore, he thought, sobbing. He picked up his cell phone and without thinking he dialled Sarah's number.
"Who's this at this time of night?" Sarah said as she answered.
Nick's heart flipped when he heard her voice. He had missed hearing it. But then he remembered the mean things she had said.
"Look what you've turned me into," Nick sobbed. "You've ruined my life! Well, what's left of my life. It won't be much longer...".
"Nick?" Sarah asked. "What the hell?!".
"I bet you're happy now, with your career, your car, your life. But I'm not. But that's OK cos you've won. But don't come to my funeral!".
"Nick you sound so messed up!" Sarah exclaimed. "You're not gonna...".
"Yeah I am! Goodbye bitch! See you in hell,". He hung up and threw the phone across the room. Still crying he opened the medicine cabinet where he had pills stored, due to the headaches he kept getting. He took three boxes and emptied all the contents out. He couldn't think straight as his head was all messed up. Without thinking it over he swallowed all the pills.
Trembling, he crawled into bed and turned out the lights. "Goodbye everyone," he whimpered in fear. It was just sinking in, what he had just done. He tried to get to sleep but he couldn't.
Sarah was panicking. Is he seriously going to do away with himself?! she thought.
She flicked her cell phone back on and searched for numbers. She found Brian's and dialled it. "If the world find out it was because of me that Nick dies then everyone will hate me!" she whispered to herself.
Brian answered sounding tired. "What?" he asked.
"Brian?" she asked.
"Sarah?! Is that you? What do you want?!".
"Nick called me just now. He sounded mixed up. I think he was about to do something stupid...".
"Holy shit!" Brian exclaimed. "Are you serious?".
Sarah nodded, then realised Brian couldn't see her. "Yes," she answered. "Go and check on him before its too late!".
"Thanks for calling," Brian said as they hung up. He was hoping that it was all a big joke; he prayed it wasn't true.
"Bri?" Leighanne said, stirring from her sleep. "What's going on?".
"Can't talk baby, I have to check on Nick!". Brian threw on his bathrobe and grabbed the spare keys to Nick's room. He ran in there and saw Nick in bed. "Nick! What have you done?".
Nick opened his eyes. "Go away," he muttered. "I have to get to sleep,".
Brian put the light on and saw Nick's eyes were red from crying. He then saw the empty pill packets. "You didn't...?" he said, his heart pounding.
Nick didn't answer, he just cried even more.
"You had all of those?" Brian quizzed.
Nick nodded nervously.
"Oh my God. We have to get you to a doctor. I'll call an ambulance,".
"No," Nick protested.
Brian ignored him and got his cell phone out. "Help is coming Nick, hold on," Brian said, sitting beside Nick. "Help is coming...".
Nick sat in a hospital bed the next morning feeling terrible. But he was alive.
He had survived, thanks to Brian's quick actions. Nick was thankful, now his head had cleared he realized that he didn't really want to die.
"I've got to make some positive action to rebuild my life," Nick said to himself. "But what?".
Should I take Sarah back? he asked himself. After all, she was worried about me. Maybe she's changed...
He thought it over. In some ways it made sense. He missed her, maybe she missed him too.
But she might hurt me again, he thought. I don't know what to do!