"...The person who is most special to me who holds all my most precious moments and childhood memories is the boy down the block ... Nick Carter. I felt the burn on my cheeks and the tears in my eyes. Saying his name again hurt.. a lot.

I took my seat and left everyone in silence. The bell rang and school was out for the summer, I walked down he hall searching for Dustin and Crystal. Crystal has been my best friend for 4 years since we started 8 grade and Dustin has been my best friend since second grade, but Crystal has told me over and over the Dustin had a crush on me since last year even though he never shows it.

A tear rolled down my cheek thinking about the last summer... "Hey Babe what's up? What are we doing this summer?"

A jumped to the sound of Crystal voice scared me.

"God you scared me." I clenched my shirt.

"Sorry anyways Dustin had to pick up his brother but he said he'd drop by later."

We started walking out of the school and a great rush came over me I would graduate next year and going to college pretty soon it felt great to know I'd be out of High School soon. I walked to my car and Crystal went to hers and we drove back to my house.

We raided the kitchen.

"Food, food, food, I want to eat some food,food, it taste real great to eat..." Crystal continued singing her song as she went through the refrigeraator.

We settled on Oeros and Peanut butter our favorite snack and went up to my room and sat out on my balcony.

"So how did that speech go about the special person or whatever?" Crumbs spattered from Crystal's mouth as she talked and shoved another cookie in her mouth.

"It went ok I guess I guess..." I stuck another Oero into the jar.

"Did you do it on me?"

"No you weird not special." I laughed and so did she

"So who? Dustin?"

"No"

"Than who I give up."

"You've met Nick before right?" she bit into her cookie and nodded her head

"Backstreet Boy right?"

"Yeah that's him."

"Why him?"

"He's been my best friend since forever and when we started leaving it was hard getting used to. But he wrote long letters sending stuff back and phone calls we kept in tough but I still miss him..." I bit down into a cookie

"That it?"

I nodded. "No, when he came back last summer I felt ya know towards him and we spent every breathing second together. And I knew he felt the same way he never asked me out or anything like that but I knew. So one night before he left again we sat on the beach and he kissed he said he loved me and than he was gone...again.

"Wow you should write a book."

"Shut up, but I dont know when he'll be back or anything."

"So why don't you call?"

"I don't know." I pulled my knees up to my chin.

"I guess I would feel weird you know?" I stared down at my feet thinking about what to do.

"You'll never beat me face it! I'm King of the Tour bus if I win deal?"

A.J nodded. "Fine let's just see who's king."

I grinned and held down the B button and tried to ruin A J's concentration

"I can't wait to get home."

"NICK! Shut up."

I Shook my head and stared at the screen.

"Oh yeah who won!? I won I am the King!" I jumped up and down and rubbed it in A.J's face.

"Well we are going to be off this thing pretty soon anyways, then we'll hafta rematch."

"Good point." I sat down on the couch and leaned back smiling.

"What are you thinking about Fracky boy?"

"Oh Hey Bri nothing just..nothing."

"Ok. So your smiling this silly ass grin and your staring off into space thinking about nothing?"

Brian sat down next to me.

"It's a girl isn't it?"

I smiled. "Maybe."

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