Worries found their way into Nick's head as he lay there staring at the ceiling. He suddenly realized the situation he and Angela where in... they where very much in love. But he knew as good as any other that their love could never be... Every other showbiz-couple he had heard about, spilt up in less than a year. Would the same thing happen to them? As he thought of the possibilities of them staying together... a song forced it's way into his head...

I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips
A thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, Is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted
And my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much
I love you

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again
How much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know!
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely
Or is someone loving you
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying
I love you?

Hello, Is it me you're looking for
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely
Or is someone loving you
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying
I love you!

Nick realized that it was the wrong song at the wrong time... just like his love for Angela. It was the wrong feeling at the wrong time. They could never be together... Angela would understand...

He picked up an piece of paper, a pen and wrote down his feelings and thoughts. When he was finished he called someone to deliver a rose. He placed the rose along with the note on her pillow.

Nick sighed, looked around for the last time and walked out. Closing a door he knew, he'd probably never be opening again.

When Angela came out of the showers she walked into an empty hotel room. Nick had left. 'Where did he go?' she asked herself. She was about to pick up the phone when she noticed a red rose and a note on the pillow. Angela walked over to the bed and picked up the note.

Angela

I really want us to be together,
Even thou I know our love could never be.
We'd never get to see each other,
And those thoughts will torture me.
Therefor I'm leaving without saying,
I can and will not say goodbye.
We'll meet again, someday, wherever,
Maybe then we can be together...

I hope you can forgive me,
For not being able to stay.
You really must believe me,
That I don't want to leave this way.
But I have no choice...
I hope you can understand.

You'll be in my heart forever,
As I hope to be in yours...

Love Always,
Nickolas Gene Carter

Angela read the note over and over again until tears came down her face. If only I was there... I could have stopped him... if only I knew how he really felt, I'd never let him get out of my sight... Oh God... I'm gonna lose him...and I'll never see him again...

Angela left Hawaii straight after she found the note. She left Kyle a message saying she had to leave and that she apologized for not showing up at their date.

It was late in the afternoon when Angela arrived at her house. Her parents where out, Jamie was at her friends house and Scott was nowhere to be found. Angela strolled into the empty house and fell down on the couch, crying.

On the coffee table lay a videocassette labeled: MTV Awards 2001. To light up her mood, Angela decided to watch the tape. She watched it with tears in her eyes. She smiled every time her face showed up on the camera. Tears filled her eyes when she saw herself hugging Nick... him kissing her on the cheek after she handed him the award. She closed her eyes and forced herself back to that night... she could feel his warmth, smells his cologne and hear his voice whispering in her ear. She loved him so much she couldn't even begin to think of a life without him... even more tears fell when she realized that she never had him in her life... realizing nothing changed, she calmed down.

'Stop feeling sorry for yourself.' She said to herself. 'You'll get over this one. Just as you've gotten over the others that came before him. He's just a guy... useless and meaningless.'

RING RING

'Hello.' Angela said.

'Hi, this is Alexis Twinbird from "Rolling Stone Magazine".' The woman on the other end said.

'What can I do for you?' Angela asked.

'Is miss Claiborne home?' Alexis asked.

'What do you want with her?'

'I was wondering if I could interview her. She won her first award and I was curious about the impact it had on her life.' Alexis explained.

'Oh... I ehm...' Angela mumbled.

'When are you free Angela?' Alexis asked, figuring she was talking to the person she was looking for.

'I don't know. I just got back from Hawaii.' She replied. 'I really need my rest. At least for a few days.'

'I understand. It doesn't have to be tomorrow. Somewhere next week would be perfect.' Alexis said.

'Alright. When?'

Angela made an appointment with Alexis for next Thursday, today being Saturday, she had enough time to rest and regain her strength.

'I'm looking forward to meeting you Angela.' Alexis said.

'Yes, me too. I've never been interview for Rolling Stone Magazine before. I'm honored.' Angela said.

'You should be. I'll see next week then.' Alexis said. 'Goodbye.'

'Goodbye.' Angela said and hung up. She went straight to her room.

If only I was there when you left... I could have stopped you...
If only I knew how you really felt... I could have told you I felt the same...
If only I knew what to say... you'd never have left me...
If only... I'd never be this lonely

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