"Alright." I smiled she smiled back I stepped in the elevator I hate them by the way. I stopped on the 10th floor and stepped out I walked down a long corridor which was interrupted by small offices along te corridor. People rushing in out, phones ringing, fax machines going on and off, people talking softly and some taking loudly as I reached the end there was a large door. I pushed it open slowly and noticed that Paul was sitting at his desk on the phone. his chair was facing his window, which was huge and had a beautiful view of the entire beach. I quietly walked over to one of the 'clients chairs' and sat down. After 20 minutes of total bordism he finally shouted something in french to the person on the other line and I heard a button beep and he turned his chair round.

"Jesus Christ Sam you nearly gave me a heart attack!" He grinned slyly.

"So what have you been up to?"

"Same old Same old Painting hanging paintings organzing parties and the works. Auctions the whole bit but look at you, you look wonderful!"

"Thank you. Well I just got off tour about 2 weeks ago. I get a short break and then sometime either this week or next week I'm off again."

"Where are you going now?"

"Actually to be perfectly honest with you I don't know. But I think Eric said something about France so I will be sure to stop by the museums and send you postcards."

"Would you be so kind. So what brings you here? Shouldn't you be off partying or something?"

"I just got back from Nick's and had nothing better to do with myself so I figured I should stop by before I leave again."

"Oh that was sweet dear."

"How's Ricky?"

"He's doing wonderful. The wedding date is set and we are ready for it to I think."

"That's great."

"As a matter of fact I was wondering if the wedding isn't in the way if you could come maybe even sing our wedding song for us."

"I would absolutely love to! I wouldn't miss it for the world." He smiled at me and I smiled back just like anyone would do and just what everyone does. Smile. I was starting to think that maybe a smile is just a cover up to what you are really feeling. This whole Break Nick did nothing but smile, but if there was something else on his mind he would just cover it up until the time being and I think that is what he might have done.

"Sam?"

"Oh I'm so sorry what were you saying?"

"I asked if you wanted something? Water?soda?Tea?Coffe?Esspresso?"

"No thank you."

"OK dear, well I need to go make a trip down to the gallery would you like to join me?"

"Of course." we took the elevator down to the first floor walked into the gallery and I had to admire all the fine work that was put into here. it wasn't only a painting gallery, there were sculptures and pieces of pottery, all different things. When I was 14 I would come here by myself to look at this stuff to fit each peice to each of my moods and than I would feel better. I did it only because when I was 14 it was the most difficult time for me. singing started, boys, family, different things. Even when I was 12, I would come too. When I was 12 I was always different form all the others. I was more developt. And I was bigger than everyone else. Always teased, but Nick was there for me, that was before tour of course. When I was 14 he could only talk for like a minute on the phone. Lisa wasn't always there either I went on tour with them for 2 years but Lisa was with them from the very begining. When she was gone I would stay with the Carters. My parents, they where bad parents, Lisa didn't adopt, but I lived with her. Life was always hard come to think of it. Then Nick came along to brighten up my day and now, now it's all crashing down. BAM!

"Nick, can I talk to you for a second?" Nick looked up from Brian (which he had him in a headlock)

"Sure." he let go of Brian.

"Whats up?" we walked back inside.

"It's just I want you to be honest with me for a moment ok?"

"Yeah what is it?"

"Do you love Sam?"

"What kinda of question is that?"

"You can't answer a question in a question."

"Why not you just did!"

"Ugh! Fine."

"Do you love Sam?" Nick looked at me with a 'Yeah but I can't say it' look on his face and then turned towards the door.

"Wait I have another one."

"Come on Lisa." he turned around to look at me.

"Do you still want to be with her?"

"Lisa please!"

"Oh and does it matter to you that she went home because of you or were you just total'y not paying any attention to her at all?"

"Lisa I do to all of them, it's just that, well I don't know how much longer I can take."

"I don't understand."

"Neither does Sam, only I know."

"So than explain it to me."

"No."

"No?"

"Yeah no I can't explain it I don't wanna. All I know is that I can just see that she's going to go on tour by herself. It's going to fall apart. And well I don't want it to be hard to say good-bye."

"I don't get it. You wanna be with her but you don't?"

"No I wanna be with her but i CAN'T."

"Well that's a bunch of bullshit."

"Why? We have been together for a year already."

"So what's your point?"

"I think it just might be best if we're just friends."

"Why?"

"Because when I leave, I don't want her not to have me. When she leaves I don't not wanna have her. I don't want either of us to get hurt while the other is away."

"You mean you think she might cheat on you?"

"I dunno maybe. I meen Sam's always been loyal to me and what not, but anything can happen."

"There's only one thing that your right about. She is a loyal friend, and girlfriend. You I don't know what you are." I turned away and walked out of the house. It was annoying me, I wanted to cry for Sam. He isn't even going to say anything to her. He's not going to and than before he gets a chance to she'll be gone. And at that point he won't deserve her, and hopefully she won't be hurt enough to see the light and hopefully move on. Which would probably be best for her and him but than again they've been inseperable since they met.

I got home and packed my stuff, the mall was total chaos, but I wanted to get it done after I left the gallery. Lisa called saying she would be home in 10 mintues I was looking foward to having someone else in the house, plus I wanted to get the 411 on what was up Nick's ass. The door opened and it was Lisa (who else would it be?)

"SAM!"

"Up here." she climbed the stairs and entered my room.

"Hey what are you doing?"

"Packing."

"Why?"

"I told you I'm leaving I just got back from the mall and now I'm packing."

"But I thought.."

"Yeah me too oh well I'm leaving day after tommorow, in the afternoon round 3 I think."

"Uh...but.." I stared at her "what?"

"What about everyone aren't you going to tell them??"

"Why should I tell anyone no one else cares whether I go or not it's not a big deal they'lll find out sooner or later that I'm not around."

"Sam that's not fair."

"You're right." I picked the phone up and called Nick's.

"Hello?"

"Hi is Brian there?"

"Uh Yeah Sam?"

"Yeah Nick it's me is Brian there?"

"Uh...yeah hold on."

"Hello?"

"Brian?"

"Yeah Sam whats up?"

"OH ok um Lisa told me that I should tell you that I'm leaving the day after tommorow but don't tell anyone else ok?"

"Wait a second stop and back up what did you say?"

"I'm-Leaving-The-Day-After-Tommorow-Do-Not-Tell-anyone-!!!"

"Why and Where?"

"I'm going on tour silly and I think I might be going to France first."

"France!"

"Could you keep it down, I don't need the whole world knowing even though

Nick probably doesn't care right now..."

"What are you talking about you're not going to tell him?"

"NO! And neither are you, so I'm trusting you." I'll call you when I get to the airport but if he finds out before I leave I'll kill you when I get back."

"OK fine I swear I won't tell, but you know it's gonna hurt him."

"Not as much as he's hurt me the past few days." I slammed the phone down blinking back all my tears.

"OK Lisa I told Brian and if I let the rest of them know Nick is sure to find out so I think I am going to go on the treadmill for a couple of hours to burn off some steam so if you need me I'll be in the gym."

"Hey Bri, is Sam still on the phone?" he put the phone down and shook his head.

"Nah she said she needed to go out for awhile." He started walking past me but i didn't move.

"What did she say?"

"Nothing she just told me to tell you that she wasn't feeling well...and that's why she left.....and she wants to know why you've been acting strange, but listen I'm going to get going ok?"

"Yeah but wait a second. She wants to know why I've been acting strange?"

"Yeah today you kinda ignored her Nick."

"I did??"

"Well you always ignore her around us but I dont know about when you 2 are alone."

"So you're saying I ignore her?"

"Yeah I think I said it twice but it's your deal so I'll see you later." He walked past me and left the house. After awhile everyone else left too and I was by myself. I was still tired and decided to catch some shut eye. I dozed off on the couch watching the X-files movie which was on HBO.

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