Sidney was a simple girl. Not the kind of girl that gets all the guys to turn around, not the kind of girl who had a lot of friends…. No, Sidney was the kind of girl who was always lonely but never seemed to mind. She was sweet, soft and lived her life as if it was a song.
She lived in Vancouver before finding this job in The Backstreet Boys Staff at around 16 years of age. She was waiting for her friend Suzy to show up at this coffee shop. She was putting on some make up when this man came up to her and tolled her she looked really beautiful and he ask her what she did in life. She tolled him she was working at her mom's beauty salon as a make up artist. They chatted for some and then the men offered her a job as a make up artist for this new band he was working for. She was trilled about the idea and accepted the offer.
She left her old life, leaving everything behind her and climb up the plane to head out to Orlando. It took three full days before she meet the lead make up artist Linda, and they got along together very well. And then she met the Boys.
At first, shy and timid, they all became good friends. She got along pretty well with the younger ones, AJ and Brian but mostly she got along great with Nick who was the same age as her.
They were inseparable; always pulling pranks on other and on themselves. They would play on Nick's Play Station or Nintendo for hours and hours. They tolled each other everything and along the way, Sidney realized she had those feelings for Nick she never felt for anyone.
Nick was her first everything. Her first kiss, her first love but she wasn’t his first everything. He didn't even know she loved him, she never tolled him, ever.
They grew up together, along the way and then something happened…
Nick was the first guy Sidney ever had sex with. It was a silly thing but they both got drunk on one New Year eve and ended up in his room and well, had sex for the first time for the both of them. When she woke up the next morning Sidney, realize what had happened and cried her heart out after getting out of his room. She was so mad at herself for doing her first with someone she wasn’t even sure that loved her. She wanted that moment to be special and a good memory but now her wish was scattered.
They never really talk about it after that night but somehow ended up doing it again and again and again… They grew apart and always tried to not be together in the presence of the others. Nick finally found a bond with Brian and Sidney began talking with AJ, found a listener and a friend in him.
It was now two years later and Nick still came to her all the time, somehow getting her into a spell and having sex again. No one knew about those two, not even Brian or AJ. AJ was Sidney's hang around pal loads of time and she would tell him everything but this was way out of line to be tolled so Sidney shut her mouth and enjoyed each moment she spend with Nick but her heart was getting broken each time he came to her… Just for sex…
She was working; cleaning up the mess Linda left her to clean after making up the Boys and then running on stage. They were in New York City now and the tour was a blast. Sidney was now a grown woman at 20 and was having a good time except the fact that she never really found true love. She had some Boyfriends, 2 or three along the way but they never could put up with her hectic life. When she was with them, she never let Nick come to her, being loyal to her relationship but it somehow never work and the minute the news spread out that she drop a boyfriend… He was there…
Nick had Girlfriends also and when it happened, Sidney was left alone and didn't see a sign of him but his relationships seemed to never work too and when the news came to Sidney's ears that he drop a girl, she knew she was gonna see him that night. She was about finished when she felt two hands slid on her waist and a soft pair of lips touching her shoulders. She smiled slightly, knowing who it was. She put her hands on his and said:
- Nick… What are you doing here?! You're suppose to be at the meet-and-greet…
- I'd rather meet you again…
She smiled and laughed softly. He kisses her skin, sending shiver all over her spine he put his hand under her tank top and caress the skin around her belly button. Sidney breathed faster tried talking but his lips on her skin were making her temperature rise.
- Nick.. We can't do this here… It's not right…
- I'd rather have you do me right…
She turned around and looked him in the eyes. He was so grown since she first met him. His eyes were blue, deep and she could see this hunger to get her, to feel her. He pulled her shirt off and put both his hands under her tank top, caressing her back, kissing her neck.
- Nick, stop we can't do this here…
- Come on Sid, I really wanna do it…Look what you do to me…
He takes her hand and places it between his legs. Sidney felt him getting hard and she blushed slightly. She never could get use to the fact that she was an attractive girl. She never was the kind of girl who was making head turn. He put his hand under her chin and looked into her eyes and whispered:
- Don't tell me after all this time, you still blush around me… Is that all I do to you? He leans in to kiss her but she turns her head and his lips end on her cheek. Nick doesn’t react to that, being use to never kiss Sidney on the lips. She never let him do that because it was way to personal and the reason she give him each time he talk about it is " I'll only kiss someone I'm deeply in love with and will always love…Forever "
Sidney always believes everyone had a one true love, the one person that you spend your life with, the one person that was mad for you. And Her last experience kissing a guy was the guy turning her around by saying she was " The worst kiss " he ever had. Sidney was a person who believes everything so she got hurt and swore to herself that she would never kiss again unless she really loved and was really loved.
- Nick… Someone's gonna come.. He smiled at her remark and she said:
- Nick Carter ! You are such a big pervert…
- Big? No, Pervert? Maybe…
He grinned and continued kissing Sidney all over her body. She began becoming less nervous and more into his kissing but as he came back up to kiss her neck she whispered:
- We can't do this here… Anywhere but not here…
As he understood he had won, Nick grabs her hand and leaded her into another room and closed the door behind them. He push Sidney against the wall and started kissing her body all over again, caress her skin with his hands, under her tank top that he soon took off, revealing her breast that he took in his mouth and embrace lightly making Sidney moan, making him go on even more…
As they came out of the little room, Nick pulled Sidney close to him and softly kisses her on the forehead. He looked into her green eyes and then walk away. Each time was the same, he would just give her a smooch on the cheek or the forehead and smile to her and leave. They would never spend time talking or just doing stuff together, not anymore. When they were both 16, they always were together but now, everything changed. It made Sidney mad and sad at the same time and she got so use to the hurt feeling that she stopped crying about it but every time she found herself alone, she would let it all out. It was so thought no being able to tell him she loved him and hearing those words from his lips.
Sidney watches him walk away and turned around. She walks away, going to find where ever AJ is to spend some time with him. She knew he was somewhere in the Stadium, waiting for her to show up. She connected with AJ after that " mistake " with Nick. He came up to her the next morning and found her crying her heart out. He just took her in his arms and comforted her without saying a word, just by being there. She talks about her " friend " and tolled him he just tolled her nasty thing and hurt her. She never mentioned his name. And then things leaded to another and they spend more time together, mostly talking and keeping each other company. AJ came to her when he broke up with Marisa and when he got a new girlfriend for advice or suggestions for gift or ideas for dates. She affections him dearly and was her best of friends.
AJ adored Sidney and always tried to have time with her. She was so easy to talk to, so caring and so, simple. She had this way of being that was easy to love and to enjoy. She was a sweet girl and AJ always felt as if she needed to be protected somehow. But mostly, he could talk to her and that was what he enjoyed the most.
AJ was on the stage as everyone was working around him, cleaning up the stage. He was siting on the piano bench, hitting some notes, doing a weird song. Sidney walks toward him and sat down on the bench with him.
- Hey J… Forget the piano, you’re no good on it… He turned his head and smiled softly.
- Hey Sid…. Wassup?! Thanks for the compliment by the way…
She leaned on his shoulder and whispered:
- You're welcome…. He saw in her eyes she wasn’t feeling good and he turned to her and asks: - Are you okay ?! - Just down a bit…. - It's your " friend " again ?! - Yeah, my " Friend "…. He makes me so mad sometime J, You can't imagine how… - I tolled you Girl, a friend like that doesn’t deserve to be your friend… - You don't understand… - I would if you would tell me the right stuff… She looked at him. His eyes were so comforting. She sighted and said: - Let's just say that we're more then friends now and…. I wish we could be more then that but… it can't happen Alex and that's what's making me mad…
AJ put his arms around her, hugging her tight. He didn't have to speak just giving her some affection was enough to heal her pain. Sidney put her arms around his too, holding on to him. She smiled softly and whispered: - Thanks J…
Sidney was the only one who called AJ like that and he never minds because AJ like Sidney…. A lot… He discovered through the time he had a crush but never really talked about it.