2 days went by, Sidney was sitting in her room, board as hell. The pouring rain was falling outside as she sits next to the window, watching the rain, thinking.
She missed him. So much… it's been a week and usually he came every two days or so but it was a week and a half now.. . And the new about her and AJ not being an item no more was long distributed around the crew, but still…He didn't showed up. Sidney wanted to feel his hands all over her skin again… His kisses, his smell… She was troubled because she didn’t understand what she saw in his eyes. It couldn't be love…Nick doesn’t love her… Does he?!
She sighted and leaned her head against the cold window. She closed her eyes and was so tired of thinking all the time. She wished she could turned that mind of hers to " off " an the only way to do it was sleep… but when ever she tried to sleep… She had dreams.. Of him.
3 knocks on the door made her sight again and she heard the door opened. She smiled as she smell the odor of apple fill the room. She said:
- J, you gotta stop feeding me to get better, I'm gonna become a pig or something…
- Hey, A boy's gotta do what a boy's gotta do!! And besides, food brings a smile to that beautiful face of yours and don't worry about the pig part… You are THA BOMB with that curvy body!! She laughed and turned to come face to face with his happy grinned and a pie.
- Apple pie?!
- Freshly baked for you Milady!!!
- In a hotel?! AJ's grin despaired as he let the pie fall down slowly on the table.
- Ok, so it's not a freshly baked pie.. But it's good anyway… She sat on a chair as AJ pulled forks and plates out of his back.
- I would love to eat it with you but, I gotta go… Mom wants to go shopping with me. She's been wining about not having those " Mother-Son " thingy moments anymore…But I'll be back..
He kissed her on the cheek loudly, making her laughed because his goatee tickled and he left. She walks with him as he leaves.
He's so sweet… Like a true big brother…
She walked to the table again and starts cutting the pie. The door opened again and she smiled and said:
- You came back for your… As she turned around, she stops dead in her tracks.
Nick was standing there, a pair of beige pants; a white shirt and his hair were wet, making her understand he was coming out of a shower. Sidney finished her sentence.
- Share… What are you doing here?! He walks up slowly to her.
- The pie smells good.. Could smell it all the way to my room… Apple, right?!! Sid Nod. Nick looked down and then at her.
- Can I have some?!
Sidney couldn't believe it. He was actually having a conversation with her. He was talking to her like a normal human being since… Since two years… Sidney was so caught on guard that she just manages to say:
- Uhm… Okay.
He sat down at the table as she took one plate and put a piece of pie on it. Nick watches her every move, filling in the sight of her natural ways and loving each moment he laid eyes on her. He handed him the plate and he took it. Their fingers touch but Sidney didn't seem to mind as she cut a piece for herself.
She sat next to him and they ate their pie silently. After a while, Nick pushes his finished plate and leaned his arm on the table and his head on his fist.
- Sid… I have to tell you something…
She looked at him and her heart just melt. He was so…Amazing like that… He reminded her of the first time she saw him, sitting there, waiting for something. He's face light up and they were introduce and they became the best of friends…Until some new years eve.
Sidney finished her plate and asks:
- What's wrong?!
He put his hand over hers. Sidney felt him shaking, knowing he was nervous.
-I'm… I'm sorry about what I said about you and AJ… You guys deserve to be happy.. I was just a…
- Looser, Bastard?!
He looked at her and instinctively, they both laughed. Sidney felt this huge responsibility and pain lift up from her shoulder. Nick said:
- Okay so I was all that but I said I was sorry…
- Maybe but you still were the meanest guy I ever saw…
- Well, I got my lesson believe me…
And he touches his cheek.
- No one ever tolled you had a good right, I'm assuming… ?!
She laughed and he followed. After some, Sidney looked at him and whispered:
- I miss talking with you Niko…
Nick smiled softly at his old nickname she uses to give him. She was the only one who called her like that and it had been so long…He looked at her and squeezed her hand.
- Yeah… Me too Sid…
He smiled softly and she knew she had to tell him the truth…. So she could get her best friend back even if he didn't love her like she did…
- Nick, I…
- Sid, I…
They both looked at each other and laughed softly. Nick came here to talk to her, to tell her the truth and to be forgiven for what he had done. But as he tried to speak she did too. She smiled, warmly and whispered:
- You go first… He straitens up in his chair, not letting go of her hand.
- Look.. I know our friendship became kinda weird on that New Year’s eve and I knew I didn't help out when I came back again but you seemed okay with it after all and… I never understood why but… I wanted to be with you again… To feel you again. I just don't know what happened to our friendship. You seemed to grow further away and I couldn't hold you back…
Sidney looked at the floor. She grew away from him because each time she was with him, she was loving him more and it broke her heart each time. Nick looked at her and said:
- And then, this time of year came… And you decided to try it out with AJ. I didn't know why but when you tolled me you wanted to stop being with me to try it out with him, I became mad… I didn't like the idea of you being with him… IT mad me mad when I thought he was touching you and not me… But I didn't understand why I was being so jealous like that…
Sidney's heart was pounding in her chest, her blood was running fast true her veins and she was nervous as hell. She knew what was coming but she couldn't believe it… That couldn’t be it…
- And then it hit me when I saw Brian and Leigh-Ann together.. I wanted to have what they had.. But with you… I wasn’t jealous because you were with AJ… I would have been if it were any other guy…. I understood everything and I knew… He looks at her and whispers:
- I knew I was in love with you…
Sid closed here eyes, filled with over emotions. For two strait years, every minute she could, Sidney dreamed of this moment, of these words. And now he said them, she heard him so clearly.
Nick was a nerve wreck. He didn't know how she was taking it and her, eyes closed, no expression of emotion on her face, made it more tough for him. He didn't know what to think so he just talk it out.
- Look… I know I don't deserve a chance and I understand perfectly if you don't wanna try and jump the gap. But I felt you had the right to know this.. So that if we ever do " it " again… You'll know how I feel…
He looked at Sidney and wondered what was going true her mind.
- Sid? Are you okay?! She opened her eyes and looked at him:
- Do you know how many times and how long I've been dreaming of hearing you saying this to me?!
Nick couldn't believe what she was saying. She was in love with him too?!
- What do you mean?!
- Since the first day I laid eyes on you, the day I came to work here, you were sitting at a table, waiting for Brian and AJ and the others. I just knew. I knew something good was gonna happened to me and ended up being best friend with you... But it didn't took me long to fall in love with you…
Nick understood everything. Why she was avoiding him after that New Year's eve. Why she was being so distant all the time. That " thing " when they had sex that made her so different then the other girls. It was love… She was making love to him…She had been in love with him all this time… Nick realized what he did was horrible. He fucked around with her, not knowing she was in love. She must of been in so much pain…She must of felt these awful feelings.. They must have cried so many times…
Nick didn't want to hurt her… He wanted to love her. But what he did to her was so cruel… He didn't deserve her love… Nick got up and Sidney looked at him weird.
- Nick, what's wrong?!
- I can't do this to you Sid…
- What?!
- Doing this to you is so wrong!!! I already hurt you so much; I don't want to hurt you again.
-You didn't hurt me…
- Yes, I did… I'm sure you cried yourself to sleep so many times…
Sidney looked to the ground. She couldn't lie to him.
- God!! I just put myself in your place and all I think of is how awful this has been for you.. I was such a selfish Bastard!!!
Sidney got up and said: -
Nick, stop.. You’re not….
- Sid, I'm so sorry for what I've done to you…I really don't deserve you… And especially your love…
Nick walk out of the room, leaving Sidney standing there, alone. Tears fell down her cheeks and she couldn't stand it no more so, she yelled her heart out, cried her pain.
AJ, who was walking down the corridor, going to see her, hear her cries and ran to her room and picked her up.
- BabyGirl!? What happened?! Sidney whispered true her tears.
- Nick… He.. He loves me. But he doesn’t want to hurt me no more. He… He left…
AJ couldn't quit understand what Sidney was saying but she held on so much to him that he didn't ask more and just calm her by rocking her softly whispering caring words to her.