Chapter 18 - Revealed

I quickly put down the book when Nick entered the room. He was holding a plate of tuna sandwiched and a glass of milk.

I startled.

"You're okay?" he asked, in between his slurps.
"Yeah... just a bit shocked... your room is like hell," I lied.
Nick laughed. "That's the way I like it!" Nick sung.

I forced a laughed my throat. But it sounded so cold, so expressionless. Nick didn't notice though.

"Can I play your Nintendo?" I asked Nick, trying to change the subject.
"Uh, sure," he said.
"Just make sure I don't break it, right? So I don't have to get into any trouble," I said meaningfully, knowing how obsessed Nick is on Nintendo.
"You cost more than a cheap Nintendo. It can't break my love for you," he muttered his sweet words.
I kissed him. "You are the sweetest thing."

He blushed.

The Nintendo made a sound when I started to play Ninja Turtles. I smiled when I remembered how cruel Nick was when he broke Aaron's Ninja Turtle doll. He's the same old immature Nick.

But the fear of Brian was still haunting me. I was so shocked to know Brian - the saint - would do such a terrible thing like that!

Brian, Brian. Why did you do such an idiotic thing? I - I never wanted a day like this.

I stopped playing when I realized that my face was wet. I was crying continuously. Nick saw me.

"You're alright?" he asked, a concern expression on his face.
"Can you please excuse me... I need to go back to my room," I said.

Without hearing further words from Nick, I quickly departured the room and rushed into my bedroom.

How am I going to tell Nick it was Brian?
How am I going to tell Brian I knew he did it?

These sort of questions repeated over and over again in my mind. I washed my face to help me calm down.

I went out from the bathroom, reaching the towel and wiped my face. There was knock. I calmed myself and opened the door, taking a deep breath.

"Are you sure you're alright? Did I say something wrong?" Nick asked, worried.
"Yeah, I'm fine... I was just... having a terrible stomachache," I lied.
"But stomachache don't make your eyes watery like that," Nick teased.
"My eyes are a bit sensitive... since I was baby," I said, which was the truth. People used to call me 'Princess of tears.'
"Oh."
"I don't mean to be rude.. but could you leave me alone for a mo'? I need some times alone," I told him.
"Sure," he agreed.

I closed the door after he left the room - with his heavy footsteps dragging along. I felt so bad to lie about what had happened - but I did I have a choice? No!

I walked tensely towards a sofa nearby and sat down. What do I have to do now? I clicked on the radio just to make me feel better.

"My head spining
Boy, I'm in a daze
Feel isolated..."

All-Saints' Never Ever was playing. The lyrics was completely true. I was so confused. I juest kept listening.

"Cause I heard that this feeling won't last that long..."

The something snapped in my mind. Maybe the hatred of Nick had left Brian. Who knows? But I still have to figure out how to tell them what I knew.

"I'll keep searching deep within my soul..."

That's right! I must search for the end of all this. I can't let this thing ruining my life. I will regret it forever!

My head spinned around as I searched for the conclusion. I couldn't come up with any idea. But I have to, I forced myself.

God, help me here!

The DJ played another song after Never Ever, which is Step To Me by the Spice Girls. As I like the song, I increased the volume.

"Shame the devil tell the truth..."

Hm, perfect identity for Brian. That thought made me smile, even though it stabbed and hurt me.

I formed a wide smile as my mind came up with a crazy idea but it worth a try!