His Love Will Carry Me Through Back to Top I saw his name carved into stone
For the very first time today
It read, Victor Allen Hester
Died the Thirty-First of May
As I stood there reading it
Reality set in
I knew right then my heart would ache
Every day of my life for him
It's hard sometime to come to grip
With knowing he isn't here
I turn and look to just make sure
But yet I feel him near
I guess this love I have for him
Is stronger than I knew
Because even though there's memories
It's his love that carries me through.
Dear Lord I knew that heaven was glorious and grand
But I had no idea when you took my hand
That the path I would walk would be covered with gold So true were the stories that I had been told
I can feel no more pain, I am free at last And all the suffering I have left in the past For I am in your house, so glorious and grand I knew I was safe when you took my hand
Our sweet heavenly father, please hear my prayer this morn Mark's dear family has been shattered and torn You see, his dear uncle has just passed away And his precious grandmother fell ill today We know you can hear us & you do what is best But for today sweet Lord, please give Mark's heart a rest Comfort his family in your warm embrace Let him know that it is by your good grace That everything has a purpose, a reason, a rhyme And that his angels are standing by To hold his hand when he needs a friend To share a shoulder or a smile to lend We'll be there for our dear friend
Mom, can you hear me?
Look, the radiant glow, do you see?
Yes son, I hear you!
Oh my precious angel, I feel so much warmth and love surround me.
Mom, I love you!
Do you feel the radiance of the Spiritual Dove?
Oh son, I love you too!
Oh yes, I can see this brilliance all around you son.
Mom, I wanted to talk to you for a spell
There was much I wanted to write, much I wanted to tell.
I've missed you so much son!
I know mom, this is what I am here to talk to you about,
Go ahead son, I am listening
Mom, you've been so sad lately, It breaks my heart to see your tears
All of our time together were the best years
Mom, know I am still with you
Let me see that beautiful smile, no more tears
See Mom, since I am an angel now
An Eternal Dove
I see everything from above,
I can soar through the skies like a pure white dove.
I love the way you hold my picture, and kiss it with your love
The way you hold my memories, inside the palm of your hand,
And close your eyes and say a prayer, oh Mom you are so grand,
Each time in closing, you always end with Amen
Oh son, I do, I do, oh how I sure do love you.
Mom?
Yes son, I'm still listening my angel
Mom, my body is at peace now, I no longer feel the pain
That ugly cancer is gone for good, it was washed away with the rain
The rain that washed it all away came from God himself
I felt it coming, I smelled the sweet aroma, I saw it the day I left
Mom, it's hard for me to explain exactly how I feel
When God reached down and took my hand
My life as I had known it came to an end
And the new life God had promised me was about to begin
Oh my precious baby, I know now, you have no more pain
And that God has washed it all away with his loving rain
I also know his rain was tears that he shed upon the cross
I shed them also for my great loss
But now that I know you are happy and free
Living the life that God intended it to be
I know now without a doubt that you are safe
Without a doubt that you've been cleansed
And that you have no more pain
Because God has washed it all away with his rain
Maybe now, and only now can I find comfort for my weary heart
For all I've been is blue since the day you did part
Now that I know you are at peace and with God above
Soaring among the angels, and now, an Eternal Dove
Now, and only now am I at peace with my heavy heart
Thank you son for lifting this heavy weight from my chest
I will now lay my head on your shoulders for a much needed rest
Yes mom, please rest your head upon my shoulders
Place your hands in mine and close your eyes to dream
And when you awake, know this was all what it seemed
I really did visit and we really did talk
And when God is ready we will both go for a very long walk
My Heart Knows The Answers Back to Top The questions and answers are found in the heart The only place known where we will not part A place of solitude, purity and love Given to us from the great Lord above Treasure it, guard it, respect it utmost For within it lay answers in which we can trust Go with the heart it tells us no lies For outside of it we hear only sighs Sighs of regrets, burdens and woes So go with the heart a place that does know
Once In A Lifetime For All Eternity Back to Top How often does a friend like you come along "Once In A Lifetime" How often does someone touch your heart just as you have touched mine "Once In A Lifetime" The spiritual love we have shared is from above and comes to us "Once In A Lifetime"
All your beautiful words written with me in mind "Once In A Lifetime" Moments that seem to be frozen in time "Once In A Lifetime" How long will our spirits soar together "Once In A Lifetime" ~For All Eternity~
His Dream Back to Top He had dreams of a field full of flowers With birds flying up above Walking around with his family and kids And sharing with us, his love
A place where only happiness blooms In the flowers of the fields And being as free as the birds that fly Where dreams really do become real
Maybe someday we'll find this place Because I'm sure that Victor knew There is a place where happiness blooms And dreams really do become true
A Sister Is Love That You Never Outgrow Back to Top From the very beginning of your newborn life Up until the day you passed I knew my love would only grow That forever would it amass
My love has stood the test of time As your love has for me Sharing thoughts and memories For all eternity
I know I'll see you once again Where you dwell in God's great home Leaving me only temporarily But never to feel alone
For when I have my quiet times
Or lay my head down to sleep Visions of you become so clear Our love, forever to keep
Spread your wings and soar the heavens Light up the midnight sky For this my sister, you so deserve You've waited all your life
Smile that great big smile you do And let those big blue eyes shine through And set the heavens all aglow For this my sister, I truly know
Your happiness was long past due From a world of so much pain
Now finally you have your wings Your tears; no more in vain
Peace In My Heart Back to Top Dear Lord I have that peace in my heart that I waited so long to find I had focused so much on my own pain that I simply lost track of time
The fourty years spent here on earth were too painful for her to go on So you decided that the time had come to call sweet Tracy home
I know in my heart that she's happy now and that she suffers no more pain, it's true Tracy look down every once in a while and you'll see me looking back at you
The tears I cry, I finally see are tears I cry for me Because I miss you so very much but you're as happy as you can be
Not because you left me here to roam this earth alone But because you are at peace in your happy heavenly home
The fourty years you spent here on earth were hell for you I know I finally realize beyond a doubt It was time for you to go
I just had to make myself believe that you're in a better place A place where there is only love and happiness cannot be erased
Happy 39th Birthday Dear Brother Back to Top The smell of turkey baking in the oven fresh corn on the cob and pumpkin pie All the trimmings of a festive Thanksgiving have now just past me by
Another year without you here it gets harder as time goes on but I know you're in a much happier place in your beautiful heavenly home
There's a wintery feeling in the air trees are turning and dropping their leaves Windows are beginning to light up with candles and doors adorn holly filled wreaths
The smell of Christmas is now in the air mistletoe and greenery can be seen everywhere Presents wrapped up in green, gold and red while visions of you fill my sleepy head
As stockings are hung by the chimney with care and snow flakes glisten in the cold night air I can't help but wonder as I so often do what I would say first when I finally see you
Fifteen years have come and gone as though time were standing still That day we said our last good bye I knew my heart would never heal
It would always have a missing piece that piece you took with you And until I see you once again my heart will always be blue
I came here today to throw you a kiss
and to wish you a Happy Birthday To tell you how much that you are loved and how much you are missed since you went away
As you blow out your candles, all thirty-nine
and make a wish, a wish to come true Remember that all your family below will be celebrating this day with you
My Crossing Paths Comfort Quilt Back to Top From tiny pieces of fabric and yards and yards of thread You put together an art piece which I take with me to bed
It comforts me and keeps me warm and helps me fall to sleep And for all my time here on this earth forever will I keep
I even thought of taking it to heaven when I go To comfort me and keep me warm and to set me all aglow
For it was made with lots of love
and patience had to be There in every single stitch for you made it just for me
It's like the coat of many colors Dolly's momma made one day She knew that it would comfort her as she went her merry way
My heart is saying thank you while my head's still in the clouds This treasure that you made for me now gives permission to speak out loud
Thank You, Thank You, Thank You! will never be enough To show you all my gratitude for your kindness and your love
Mom And I Back to Top Mom, you and I, we loved to talk about everything under the sun Childhood memories, I'll never forget, together we had such fun I was blessed to call you mom, when I was growing up And when I turned into a man, I truly understood your love
It was constant in my life, never to falter, nor hesitate I knew the love you had for me would last forever and a day As I watch you from the heavens above, I can still feel you near To see your smile and hear your voice is so precious and so dear
Can you hear me smiling mom, it's a smile that last and last I want to hear you smiling mom, for it's a memory of my past A memory that has stayed with me throughout my time on earth And a memory that is still with me, from the beginning of my birth
I know you gave me everything that a child would ever need
material things and lots of love, comfort and security I love you mom, for being there all those beautiful days with me I love you still for being there now though God has set me free
I'm happy in my heavenly home, you wouldn't believe this place It's filled with love and there's no more pain, and now I can see God's face Mom, I'd draw you a picture if only I could send it down But I was told you have to see it first hand, of this there's no way around
You have to know I am happy now, I know you feel it in your heart The day the angel's came after me, we never were apart Cause all the love I have for you and all your love for me Is safely stored inside our hearts for all eternity
A Reflection Of My Soul Back to Top The day you came into my life was a special day for me I knew that I would be there to meet your every need It may have been as simple as a diaper change back then But as you grew and learned life's ways you soon became a man
Your baby pictures, I treasure them all for they're displayed throughout my home
From when you were young and very small until no more on earth you roamed Presents I buy each and every year for birthdays and Christmas too Are carefully wrapped with tender loving care for they're a gift from me to you
Although your home is heaven now I still feel you here with me I talk to you and share my thoughts of my feelings and my dreams You are a reflection of my soul, a mother's only son You held on for as long as you could and finally the battle of cancer was won
I was there the day you entered this world and I was there the day you left Memories of you always fill my heart, they complete my inner self Rest in everlasting peace my angel Lee for your work on earth is done One day God will call me home then our lives will again be as one
You are a reflection of my soul, a mother's only son
Here on earth a short time with me but in my heart for all eternity
Sixteen Years Back to Top My life has gone on as best it can without you here with me Sixteen years of missing you; my heart can only see
No one really knows the way I feel deep down inside And every year on your ann. date; my heart, it always cries
Some people say, I know how you feel
it must be hard to let him go But unless they've walked inside my shoes they'll never really know
I never let you go my brother for I hold you still in my heart A place so sacred and serene; a place where we will never part
So much has changed since that fateful day I no longer hold a grudge toward the young man that took your life; You said "LET IT GO", with a little nudge
I did my brother, I did it for you because you ask me to It was pulling me down and making me sad my whole life was nothing but blue
I know this day so very well as I do with all the rest for birthday's and anniversaries I'm really not at my best
But I try to be strong just for you
because I know you want me to I hold my head up and get through the day That's all I can really do
I take this day for what it is but I try harder each passing year To look at life in a brighter view to see it as so precious and so dear
It only took a minute for my life to take this turn I value it more than ever before, A life lesson, I have learned
I've become a more caring person now and I look at things more indepth With my life, I go graciously passing through and it's all because of you
As I continue on my journey through this life, I still miss you just as much as I did the day you left. That my dear brother will never change. I know you are safe & happy in your new home, but it doesn't stop me from going through the missing you part. I love you so much...... Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow... Forever & A Day
Don't ever take anything or anyone for granted in your life. You may lose it one day, someone may take it away and you won't hear the words they long to say.......
1/24/2007