"You know what guy's? I think we should stop now! We've had enough" I said to Kimberly and Kaara. Kimberly raised her eyebrows.
"What are you talking about? We've hardly had any! See?" She said, holding up a now empty bottle. She looked at it and giggled. "Ok.. so we've had a bit... but we're not drunk!" She added, giggling some more. It was two hours later and the three of us were totally drunk. Yet, I was the only one who knew it.
"I need a refill" Kaara said, holding up her glass. When no one answered her, she tried again. "Heeellllooooo.... guys, I need some more!"
"Get it yourself" I said. Kaara nodded.
"Ok.. sounds good to me". Kaara then got up from her position on the floor and stumbled towards the cabnet. Suddenly the phone rang. Kimberly got up and answered it.
"Hello?" She asked, listening for the voice on the other end. "ISAAC!" She squealed happily. "Hang on and I'll put you on speaker phone!"
"Hi Kim... are you busy?"
"Nope.. I've just got Jaida and Kaara over.... and we're just enjoying ourselves.. doing nothing out of the ordinary.. yep.. just three girls having some fun..."
"Kim, are you drunk?"
"Huh? Me? noooooo... well... maybe...... "
"You want me to come over?"
"YEAH! Ike, that'd be great! but bring Tay and Zac to"
"No! Don't bring Tay!" I cried. Kimberly turned to face me.
"Why not?"
"And have him see me smashed? I don't think so" I said. Kimberly made a face at me.
"Don't worry Jaida... Tay wont care..." Isaac said.
"Yeah.. he wont give two fifths of fuck all" Kimberly said. That made Kaara crack up. She rolled around on the floor, laughing hysterically.
"Two fifths of fuck all... ohmigod thats so funny!" She cried.
"No it's not... it's not that funny" Kimberly said. Kaara didn't answer her, she was to busy laughing.
"Kim?? you still there?" Issac asked.
"Oh, shit, yeah... so, you'll be right over? With Zac and Tay?"
"Yeah, but that's only if they want to come"
"Alrighty then.. see ya!" Kimberly said.
"Bye" Isaac said and hung up the phone. Kimberly instantly got a worried look on her face.
"Oh no.. he's mad at me" She said as she hung up her phone.
"Why?" I asked.
"I dunno... but he didn't tell me he loved me" Kimberly said, bursting into tears. Kaara stopped laughing and the two of us tried to comfort Kimberly. She was still crying when the boy's arrived. Kaara was just finishing another drink, I had lost count of how many she had drank.
"Kim? what's wrong?" Isaac asked once he had seen the state Kimberly was in.
"Nothing" She snapped. Kimberly then got up and headed for the kitchen. Isaac followed her. I hadn't said one word to Taylor except Hi. I hated for him to see me like this. Zac and Kaara were chatting away, well, it was mostly Kaara talking.
"Jaida.... anything wrong? you haven't spoken to me yet" Taylor asked quietly. We were sitting on the couch, his arm around my shoulders. I had my eyes on the ground. I raised them and as I did so, the room began to spin. I knew I had drank to much. I didn't like feeling this way and I didn't like Taylor seeing me. "Jaida?"
"What?" I asked
"Anything wrong?" Taylor asked again. I looked over to where Kaara and Zac were... they had now gone outside and I could hear Kaara laughing. Taylor and I were alone. I shrugged. "Jaida, talk to me... have I done anything?" Now he sounded worried. I shook my head.
"I'm drunk" I pointed out. Taylor smiled.
"I know that. Isaac told me that you girls have been drinking.... "
"But I'm drunk!" I cried
"Well, Jaida, you can't drink a lot of alcohol without getting drunk"
"Do you even care that your girlfriend is drunk?" I asked. Taylor was quiet.
"Well, yeah... of course I care... no one likes seeing someone they love drunk"
"You love me? I mean, you still love me?"
"It would take a lot for me to stop loving you. Even though we're still getting to know each other, I love you... I can't help it"
"I love you to Tay" I said. Taylor smiled. He then lowered his head to kiss me. The kiss got more deeper and passionate by the second and soon, I was lying on my back on the couch with the top half of Taylor on me. His legs were entwined with mine. I felt Taylor's hand slowly slide under my top and he traced circles around my belly button. It tickled so I had to laugh. Taylor and I stopped kissing and stared into each others eyes. "That tickles" I said quietly. Taylor laughed.
"Sorry... you want me to stop?" He asked, I knew he didn't want to so I shook my head. I started to kiss Taylor again and got up enough courage to slip my had just below the waistline of his jeans, but that's as far as I went. I could feel the elastic waistline of his boxers. Taylor's hand was now on my left breast, but still outside my bra. His other hand was going inside the waistline of my jeans. Alarm bells rang in my head. I moved my face away from Taylor. "What's wrong?" He asked softly as he started to kiss my neck.
"I- we have to stop" I said. I don't know why but I started to cry. Tears streamed down my cheeks as Taylor lifted himself off of me and helped me sit up.
"Jaida, I'm sorry! If I went to far, I'm so sorry, you should have told me to stop earlier if you didn't like it.. please don't cry, you know I'd never hurt you" Taylor said, wrapping me up in his arms.
"No! Taylor, I don't like you seeing me like this.... I'm drunk and easy right now. I'm the one who's sorry... cause if we don't stop then we'll probably end up doing it then you'd lose all respect for me and you wouldn't love me anymore and I don't want that to haaaapenn" I cried, still sobbing. Taylor hugged me tighter and sighed.
"Don't be stupid. We wouldn't have gone much further than we did now... I'm still sober remember? And I wont ever lost my respect for you. I promise" Taylor tried to comfort me. It wasn't working.
"I'm so ashamed. I didn't mean to drink Tay... please don't hate me" I cried.
"I don't hate you Jaida." Taylor said, sighing. I was quiet. The room was spinning and suddenly I didn't feel very good.
"Tay?"
"Yeah?"
"I don't feel so-" I didn't get to finish. I clapped my hand over my mouth and dashed to the nearest bathroom.
