FOR MY ANGEL LEE THEN AND NOW October 17/1974 Lee Henry Aguilera was born Never to know then 25 Years later My Heart would be Ripped out and Torn Those Baby years went by so fast Something different and new every day I use to look forward to so much To the way we use to play New Teeth, Words and Steps For Both of Us a Brand New Task Everything Was So Perfect Then What More Could I Have Asked Before I Looked Around Lee Was A Little Man I Keep Every Memory In My Heart WHY? Because I Can From A Little Man He Grew Into A Teen So Often I Have Said This, But So True I Never Ever Saw Him Mean Then Came His Adult Years Very, Very Hard To Believe Through All The Heartache In His Life There Was One Thing He Had To Achieve It Started Out With Drawings From The Age Of Around Three When People were Saying How Good He Was Of Course I Had To Agree His Work Kept Getting Better Over the Next Few Years Not Achieving What He Really Wanted It Bought Us All So Many Tears Eventually The Tears Turned To Talent I Kept Telling Him To Keep On Going As Well As Drawings, Came Poetry And Short Stories Then His Talent Really Started Showing All The Work He Achieved I Knew That He Could Do I'll Always Be The Proudest Mom WHY? Because The Work All Came FROM YOU Eventually We Got The News That He Was Very Ill I Still Think About It Every Day It Cuts My Insides Still Months Into His Illness I Didn't Know What I Was Going To Do I Knew I Had To Stay Strong Though So I Could Be There Just For You The Chemotherapy, The Treatments He Had To Have Each Day The Only Thing That I Could Do Was To Get Down On My Knees AND PRAY Always Praying For A Miracle That His Life Would Turn Around But GOD Already Had Plans For Him For My Lee To Be HEAVEN BOUND I Have And Never Will Get Over The Passing Of My Son As A Mother Who Now Lives With Grief Knows It Wasn't The Way It Should HAVE BEEN DONE By Done I Mean Taken Away At Lee's Age Of 25 I Have To Believe Lee Was A Gift From GOD But GOD Knew I Couldn't Keep Lee Alive To Say Goodbye Has Been One Of The Hardest Things I Have Ever Had To Do On This Earth But Memories, Good Times Even Pain Nothing, No One Can Take Away From Me On That Wonderful Day I Gave Birth As Much As I Tried My Hardest I Thought I Was Doing My Best I Even Went As Far As Wanting To Give Up My Life Until GOD Said It's Time To Lay Lee To Rest GOD Was Trying To Tell Me HIMSELF I Was Going To Have To Let Lee Go All The Time I didn't Know What He Meant When I Think Back On It Now, Now I Know Knowing GOD Was Going To Take Lee But Not Away From Me All GOD Was Trying To Tell Me That He Was Going To Set Lee Free Try And Set Lee Free From All The Heartache In His Life When I Think Back On What Lee Went Through It Still Cuts Me Just Like A Knife When I Knew That Lee Was Leaving Me I Was Trying To Tell Him Why He Couldn't Stay But Being So Angry, And So Agitated He Wouldn't Have Understood A Word I Had To Say What I Was Trying To Tell Lee Was To Close His Eyes And Rest Mommy Is Right Here With You It Will Be For The Best As Hard As It Was To Say That Although I Knew Lee Couldn't Hear But To Let Him Know I Was It May Have Taken Away His Fear A Fear Of What Was Going To Happen I Knew But Did Lee That GOD Was Coming To Take Him Home At Last To Set Him Free Free From All The Pain The Anger, And The Strife With All He Had To Deal With In His 25 Years Of Life When GOD Came That Night To Give Lee His Wings To Try Lee Had Always Wanted A Pair To Be A Bird And Fly I Have To Believe Lee Got His Wish And Flew Straight To HEAVEN ABOVE There Hasn't Been One Day That Has Gone By I Don't Look Up And Send Lee All My Love Why Did This All Have To Happen To My Lee My Best Friend I Am Left With So Much Pain Pain That Will Never Ever End Where Do All The Answers Lie The Ones We Are Looking For We All Have So Many Questions Especially For The Ones That We ADORE I Just Have To Believe One Day I Will Be Reunited With GOD Above To Get All My Answers I Have Been Looking For But Most Of All, Be With My Lee Again To Give Him All Of My Love Revised And © 2006 By Sue-Anne Aguilera Lee Henry Aguilera's Mama