"Liz... are you okay?" Jenna asked me a little later. After what had happened, I'd gotten up and walked inside. Jenna had followed me and coaxed me outside again, not asking about Taylor and I, which was good because I didn't want to talk about it. I nooded.

"I'm fine." I said.

"No you're not. Don't worry about Zac, he say's stuff he's not supposed to all the time. It's just him"

"Do you hate me for not telling you about what happend with Taylor?" I asked. Jenna laughed.

"Are you nuts? Of course I don't hate you! You're such a dork" She said, giving me a hug. By now, everyone was outside, dinner was over and done with. The guy's were telling their Aunt and Uncle about stardom, leaving Jenna and I to talk. Derek was due to arrive soon and I knew that having him here would either cause things to get worse between Taylor and I, or he'd completely relax me.

"Thanks... I just... I hadn't spoken to Taylor for that long, and I didn't know he was your cousin, I didn't see the point in telling you." I said.

"Liiiiiiz, it's okay! Really" She said. We were sitting on the grass, away from the back patio. Taylor had been keeping his distance from me, speaking to me only when he had to.

"Okay, I believe you!" I replied, finally smiling. My gaze turned to Taylor. He was still as gorgeous as ever. He was laughing at something his Uncle had said and I just wanted to melt. Hurry up and get here Derek... get me out of here! Being around Taylor was beginning to be to much. I turned my head away and tried to ignore the feelings that were starting to surface again. I heard Derek before I saw him. I heard him laughing at something. I turned around again and rose to my feet. He was walking through Jenna's side gate, Will (Jenna's boyfriend) was right behind him. I breathed a sigh of relief and my heart swelled up at the sight of him. He was tall, tanned, strong. His eyes met mine and I smiled. He grinned and opened his arms out to me. I walked quickly over to him and felt his strong hold on me. I knew Taylor would be watching and I wanted him to. I wanted him to know that I was with Derek and I loved Derek. Derek bent his head and kissed my mouth.

"Hey babe. Sorry we're late.." Derek shot an annoyed glance at Will. "We had car trouble."

"Hey man, I didn't leave the door open all night... not my fault the battery was flat." Will said in his defence. Derek rolled his eyes.

"Whatever man, I'm here now with my baby and that's all that matters." He smiled down at me.

"Hey you two, come meet my cousins!" Jenna spoke up. I tensed up. I couldn't help it. Derek felt this and looked at me questionly. I smiled at him, re assuring him I was ok. I looked over at Taylor, he was glaring at Derek. Jenna lead the rest of us over to the boys and introduced Will and Derek. Isaac and Zac talked with the two of them. Taylor, however, barely said a word. After half an hour, I excused myself to go to the bathroom. Taylor was waiting for me outside the door when I walked out.

"What?" I asked, wanting to get back to Derek. Back to where there were lots of people and there was no chance of me forgetting everything for just a moment and giving into my feelings for Taylor again. No, that couldn't happen. I wouldn't do that to Derek.

"So... he's who you really want?"

"Yep."

"He seems like a decent guy."

"He is. He's more than decent."

"Do you love him?"

"Taylor!"

"Well do you?"

"You mean like I do you?"

"Yes. Thats exactly what I mean."

"Yes. Maybe even more so... I don't know. Taylor, you'll always have a place in my heart... I'll always think of how it could have been if everything hadn't happened. I'm with Derek now. I love Derek now. I've been with him for a long time."

"Liz... I'm sorry for everything... I think about you everyday.. I'm so sorry for what I did to you and Danielle but I did it because I wanted to be with you. I couldn't believe it when you broke all contact with me. I never actally thought you would do it."

"Don't you even dare!" I said, angry. "You told me that it was the only choice I had-"

"No Liz, you had two choices! You had the choice to fuck everyone and give into love. We would have been happy together, each other was all we needed!" Taylor cried.

"And I wouldn't have had you for very long. You went all around the world for nearly a year. I would have been left here by myself. You should have stuck to your end of the deal Taylor" I said, crossing my arms and leaning against the wall across from him.

"It was to hard. It drove me crazy not having any contact at all with you. I thought it would've worked but it didn't-"

"You made sure of that. You went back on your word and told Danielle everything" I said, glaring at him. "I don't even know why I'm having this conversation with you! There's nothing between us anymore so why bring up the past?"

"Are you sure about that?"

"About what?"

"Nothing between us? Liz, the sexual tension between us is so thick you could cut through it with a knife"

"No it's not. You might be fusterated but I do just fine thankyou" I said as Taylor crossed the hall in one step and stood directly infront of me. I put my hands up on his chest to stop him from coming closer. "No." I said through clenched teeth. I couldn't let this happen. It wouldn't happen.

"You'd do even better with me" Taylor said, ignoring my protest. My mouth opened to say something but no sound came out as I stared into Taylor's eyes. It was hard not to. He brought his hands up and covered mine. My eyes flickered from his eyes to his mouth then back up to his eyes again. Suddenly it was to much. I couldn't stop myself even though everything in me was screaming no, my body was calling out for Taylor, for his hands and mouth. I curled my fingers in and clutched his shirt, jerking him forward so my lips could reach his. He kissed me back straight away, and pushed his body against mine. One hand came up to cup my face, the other went straight to my right breast. I let out a moan at his touch. Taylor brought his mouth away from mine and started on my neck, I let out another moan.

"We have to stop!" I said but Taylor ignored me. "I mean it... we need to stop before someone comes" I tried again.

"Too late"