"What are you going to do?" I finally asked. Allison looked at me, dumbstruck.
"What am I going to do? Taylor, it's more like what are we going to do" She cried, her voice tight and shrill. I was afraid that Biannca might hear her so I told her to keep her voice down. "No I wont be quiet Taylor! I'm pregnant and it's yours and we need to talk about this"
"Can't it wait?". I was being selfish. I knew that but I didn't want the baby so why talk about it?
"Fine. Be like that! I should've known you would have done this! I should have. I thought you were different Taylor. I need you now and all you care about is if Biannca might hear me. Who the hell cares if she hears me! You should tell her to leave so we can talk Tay" Allison said, sinking down onto my porch stairs. She burried her face in her hands and her shoulders started to heave up and down. Seeing her like that made me feel sorry for her. I didn't say anything. "You know this baby is yours... you're the only guy I've ever slept with." She said into her hands, but it was clear enough for me to understand. I knew this was true. After a few more minutes of silence between us, I spoke.
"Come on inside Ally... " My voice trailed off. I didn't know what else to say. I was still trying to make this real to me. It felt like a dream... a very bad dream. Allison looked up at me, her eye's were red and puffy but she sort of smiled at me.
"Thankyou" She said quietly, getting up. She wiped her eyes and followed me inside.
"Go wait in my room... I'll be up in a minute" I said, heading towards the living room where I had left Biannca. I turned to watch Allison dissapear up the staircase, her head was down and shoulders were hunched over.
"Tay? Who was it?" Biannca called out, appearing in the doorway. "What's wrong?" She asked after seeing my face.
"Uh, nothing... um, Biannca... I'm sorry but there's something I have to take care of... can I call you tomorrow?" I asked, not looking her in the eye. I could feel Biannca studying me, she knew I wasn't telling the truth.
"What is it Taylor? Who was at the door?" She asked. I didn't answer her. "Taylor... tell me..."
"It was Allison..."
"What did she want?"
"Nothing Biannca.... "
"That's not true.. why are you hiding something from me? Don't you trust me or something?"
"I do trust you. It's nothing-"
"He doesn't want you to know I'm pregnant with his baby" Allison said, walking up behind me. I felt all blood drain from my face and turned around to face her.
"What are you doing downstairs?"
"You're what?" Biannca asked. "Taylor.... what is she talking about?"
"Nothing." I said. "Allison, go back upstairs"
"No Taylor... why lie to her? She'll just find out soon enough anyway." Allison said.
"You're pregnant.... and it's Taylors?" Biannca asked her, not quite believing what she was saying. Allison nodded.
"Yes"
"Are you sure it's his? How do we know you're not just saying this to try and get Taylor back?"
"You know that Taylor is the only guy I've slept with Biannca. We used to tell each other everything remember? Thats what best friends do"
"I didn't do anything to make you hate me Allison"
"Don't you dare say that! You stole my boyfriend!"
"She didn't steal me Allison" I said, I had to stop the fighting between them. Biannca had to go and Allison needed to talk. I went over to Biannca and held her face gently in my hands. "I really need to talk to Allison now babe... I'll call you tonight okay?" I said softly to her. Biannca looked like she was ready to cry as she nodded her head. I kissed her on the mouth and she then walked out my front door. "Get in there now" I snapped at Allison, pointing to the living room.
"Don't talk to me like that Taylor."
"You didn't have to tell Biannca!" I yelled. Allison flinched as if I had hit her and she sat down in an arm chair. I stayed standing. "I can't believe you're pregnant! How did it happen?"
"You know how it happened Taylor"
"I know that... but we used protection... always used condoms and you were on Birth Control!"
"Taylor, I'm two months already... that means that the baby was concieved the first time we slept together. I wasn't on Birth Control then and we didn't have any protection." Allison said, her voice shaking.
"You're not going to keep it are you? I mean, I can give you money for a termination... no one will have to know" I said. Allison looked horrified.
"Are you serious? I'm not getting an abortion! I'm keeping this baby Taylor! It's our child! I can't kill it" She cried.
"You have to Allison! I'm not ready to be a father and I'm not here all the time! I have to tour and record... no Ally, you have to get rid of it"
"I know you're busy right now with the band... that's okay, but I'm not going to get rid of it or give it up. This is my baby and I'm keeping it"
"Why did you even tell me?"
"I had to! It was either I tell you or my mother tell your parents"
"Your mother knows? Fantastic... I suppose she wants to kill me now?"
"No... she wants me to have an abortion to... but I'm not going to Taylor." I could tell by the look in her eyes. She meant it.
"Allison.. you have to.. what the hell are you going to do about school? With me on tour you'll be bringing it up by yourself...no.. I can't have a kid Ally.. and neither can you."
"Taylor! How many times do I have to tell you?.. I'M NOT KILLING MY BABY!" She screamed at me, standing up. I took a step backwards, not expecting the outburst. I thanked God that the rest of my family were all out.
"Ok! Fine.. but tell me just what are you going to do huh? You have no firm proof that this kid is mine... therefore I don't have to give you shit for it... the only money I'll give you for it is if it's for an abortion." I told her. Allison looked at me, her eyes became teary and her face crumpled.
"Don't say that Taylor... you know I haven't slept with anyone other than you... and I wouldn't have if I had known that a week later you were going to leave me for the slut your with now... if anything, she would be the one sleeping around behind your back... "
"Shut the hell up... leave Biannca out of this..." I warned her.
"All I'm saying is that if it had been her who came to you saying she was having your baby... then you would have right to question it... but damn it Tay... you know this child is yours!" I sighed and rolled my eyes, but deep down I knew she was right. This kid was mine. I didn't want it, but it was mine. Allison sat back down in the arm chair and I slumped down on the sofa.
"I can't believe this... I'm not ready... we're not ready to be parents Ally... have you thought about giving it up when it's born?" I asked her. She shook her head no. I felt my anger rise again. "Ally! You can't keep this baby!! It's going to ruin your whole life! You wont be able to do what you want and you'll end up resenting this kid and that isn't fair on you or the baby.."
"I would never resent my child!" Allison gasped, horrified that I would even suggest such a thing.
"You say that now.. but what about a few years from now and you want to pursue your dancing? You can't take a kid to auditions and no one is going to take you on with a kid.. not to mention you have no guarantee that you'll get back into shape after the kid is born." I pointed out. Allison didn't say anything. "We can't be parents... I can't be a father! I'm only eighteen!"
"Well I'm only sixteen Taylor.. whats your point?" Allison snapped. "I can't have an abortion and I can't give the baby up. My Mom was forced into giving my older sister up when she was born and now Mom has no clue where she is or even if she's alive... she has to live with the guilt and I don't want that. I'm not going to let anyone force me into giving away my baby"
"No one's going to force you Ally... but have you really thought about this? What kind of life can you give that baby when you've barely begun to live yourself? You don't know how to take care of an infant... and I wont be around, you know I can't stay home from the tour... I can't and wont let this ruin my career. I've worked to hard for this and I'm not giving it up because you're pregnant."
"I'm not asking you to give up your music Tay. But while you're still here, you can help me... Mom wont have anything to do with me where the baby's concerned... I need someone to take me to doctors appointments and to ultra sounds... I'd take myself but I don't have a car."
"So you want me to take you? Allison, if I did that, it would mean that I'm taking responsibility for this... I don't want to. I don't want my parents knowing about this"
"Taylor! You have to help me! It's not like I forced myself on you. This is as much your fault as it is mine!" Allison said as she started to cry again. As much as I didn't want to admit it, she was right. I sighed and stared at the carpet. I looked up at Allison and saw that she was facing me. Her eyes were red and tears slowly made their way down her cheeks. I got up from the sofa and crouched down infront of her. I took her hands in mine. "I'm so scared Tay... I can't go through this alone" She whispered. I nodded.
"I know you can't. I'll help you, but I'm not happy about this and I still think that an abortion is our best option right now. But I'm only going to drive you places, I'm not going to become emotionally involved with you or the baby. My family can't know. Not even Isaac or Zac." I said, hoping that I could actually keep this from them.
