I don't want to be special anymore. I want to be a part of the herd and completely, blissfully ignorant again. Is there anyway that I can go back? I mean, TRULY go back. Not just pretend to believe in God and pretend to not notice the things wrong with this world that I've been looking for and finding for several years now. I'm sick of...THIS. All of what I know and have now.

Don't you ever want to go back? And do you ever question why we seem to think that the way we are is so much better than the way THEY are? They're...happier. And they have so much security. And reality IS real to them, GOD is real, the worst problems they deal with are like emotional/relationship problems. They fuck and love and hate and live in ignorance, and WHAT'S SO WRONG WITH THAT

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