sit in my chair elbows hurting tears drying fingering and dripping plastic and chocolate what do i have to look at? nothing there to see just another bum.

guilt and self hatred for leaving you my doll

If I could dive my head into oceans i would lift up in a panic cold sweat from a nightmare my breath digging betwen my fingernails.

pain and intrusion you've been in my dream and you've poked in my eye

and dream and morning again relaxed sunny beautiful morning smiles at me and I love you with every one of my throats and your claws my beautiful isabella my hand that holds me above the waves your veins beating to the rhythm of my pulse/

no more time now the guards will soon be here and my stomach is starting to turn greenly twitching for you I am sunk in you like an ocean, sit in my chair.

-27.10.00