guilt and self hatred for leaving you my doll
If I could dive my head into oceans i would lift up in a panic cold sweat from a nightmare my breath digging betwen my fingernails.
pain and intrusion you've been in my dream and you've poked in my eye
and dream and morning again relaxed sunny beautiful morning smiles at me and I love you with every one of my throats and your claws my beautiful isabella my hand that holds me above the waves your veins beating to the rhythm of my pulse/
no more time now the guards will soon be here and my stomach is starting to turn greenly twitching for you I am sunk in you like an ocean, sit in my chair.
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