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Title: Oh Dear Lord! 2/2 "I'm afraid there isn't much vampire activity here in Bath," Giles apologized. "You won't get much of a workout here." "That's okay," Buffy assured him. "It was sort of more of a way to get that big talk in without having the whole gang there. But I'm guessing you already knew that." Giles smiled. "Yes, I did think that might be the reason. So what changes have you been experiencing?" "Way to go with the blunt. Okay, so you know what a screwed up mess I was when you left?" "Yes." "Well, it went seriously downhill from there." Buffy stopped and sat on a headstone. "I shut down totally. I wasn't there for Dawn or Willow, or Xand, or even me. I was totally zombified. And - and there was Spike." "Spi - oh Buffy, you didn't..." "I did. You'd think I'd have learned after my last attempt to play house with the undead. At least he didn't have a soul to lose. Anyway, it was a really, really, really bad idea but it was the only thing that made me feel..." "Feel what?" "Anything. At all. And it was ugly and it was manipulative - and not all on his side either - and just plain wrong. I just...I couldn't seem to help myself. But that's over." "Are you sure, Buffy?" "I know, I'm the queen of temporary good intentions sometimes, aren't I? But this is real. It's over." "What happened?" "Well, you probably won't believe this, but it was getting turned invisible that did it." "Turned - Buffy what on earth...?" "See there's this bunch of freaks and geeks that have been making my life miserable for a while now. Jonathan and Warren and some guy who said something about flying monkeys and the school play. Did we even do The Wizard of Oz?" "Not that I recall, but I tended to avoid campus show business after the talent show." "Anyway, they made this invisibility raygun and turned it on me. I spent most of the day being invisible Buffy." "That must have been an interesting experience. What did you do?" Buffy stared off into the distance and flipped her stake. "Went nuts. Turned into a total idiot. You'd have been ashamed of me, Giles." "No, I wouldn't." "Yes you would. Allow me to know this. You left so I'd be more responsible, well, when I was invisible I was total Id girl. It was all about what was dumb and selfish and irresponsible. I was more together when I was a kid than I am now." "Buffy, while I'm certainly not pleased with all of this, I'm not angry with you, either. You've faced so much in your life - things most people never have to. You've willingly sacrificed your life twice now. It's not surprising you'd want a few hours to be...just a girl with no cares or worries." "Giles, I made a social worker's boss think she was about to pull a Shining on the office. They probably gave her like forty million mental health days because of me." "Why did you do that?" Buffy shrugged. "She threatened to take Dawn away. I couldn't let her do that. I had to get another chance. Plus, it was funny at the time." "At least part of your motivation was to help your sister." "Not as much as it should have been. And when I caught Dawn sneaking in late did I yell at her? Did I ground her like Mom would have done with me? No. I floated a pizza box at her. Beyond lame. Even my sense of humor used to be more sophisticated." "So what changed?" Buffy smiled slightly and looked at her shoes. "You just knew this was the big turning point, didn't you? You always do that." "And you always stall on telling me." "Okay, okay. Big lightning rod moment of truth. Xander called. He and Anya figured out there was a side effect to the ray. If it didn't get reversed in time I was gonna melt into a big puddle of tapioca." And?" "And...I was scared. For the first time since I got back, I didn't want to be gone again. I actually wanted to live. I didn't care when I thought I might be Marcy for the rest of my life, but when I found out it might be a really short time to deal, I wanted to be better." "I'm sorry it took that." "Yeah. You and me both. And I figured out I did things all backwards." "Backwards?" "Yeah. I drove you off and had sex with Spike. If I'd done it the other way around, maybe I'd have gotten straightened out faster." "I - I beg your pardon?" "No, I mean it. I kept running to Spike because what my heart was trying to feel for you was too scary. That's sad. I turned to someone who has no soul, no heartbeat, and no body heat; a guy who told me I was sick and that nobody cared about me. And why did I do that? Because you were right there offering me everything I've ever wanted and I was too scared to take it. I thought if I took it, I'd lose you, so I got really smart and pushed you away instead. I even told Spike it was because of you. He did it anyway." "Buffy...I...I don't know what to say." "Well, you can start by telling me if I read the signs right. I mean, before you left you were total touchy-feely guy, which is so unGiles it made me sort of freak. And you kept looking at me like I was...I dunno, something special." "You are something special. Very special." "To you, maybe, but I wasn't to me. I wasn't ready to be loved. I didn't even like me." "And now?" "Now, I sort of like me again. I mean, I know I screwed up totally, but I'm okay company for me. I broke it off with Spike - for good - and I started paying more attention to Dawn, and life is...maybe not always good, but it doesn't always suck, either. There's just one thing that does suck twenty four seven: you're here and I'm there...except right now when we're both here, but you know what I mean." "Yes, I do. And I agree that being apart does...suck. I've missed you, Buffy. I want to be with you. I just need to know that you're ready; that I won't do more harm than good." "Believe me, I did just about all the harm that can be done. If there's a way to do more, I don't want to know about it." "Is this because you need me?" Buffy considered her words carefully. "I guess in the long run, I really don't. I can get along without you. The past few weeks I've done pretty okay. I keep up my training on my own, Xander and Anya and Will do most of the research, and Tara's done a mojo guest spot a couple times. I even know what some of this stuff is without the books now because we've come across so many things that go bump in the night. I'm handling Dawn - maybe not always the best possible way, but we're making it and she's going to school and everything. So no. I don't need you, Giles. It's not about need anymore. It's about want. I want you in my life. I want you to be with me." "And I want to be with you, too, Buffy." He held out his hand to her. She looked at it, then into his eyes. Her fingers entwined themselves with his. "Then let's both have what we want," she said. As one they leaned in and shared their first kiss. It was sweet and gentle. Giles brushed the backs of his fingers down her cheek and smiled. "You know, I rather like this getting what I want business." "Same here." "Come on, then. While it may be strangely appropriate that our first kiss was in a graveyard, I think I'd like the next to be someplace less...dead." "I guess we should get back anyway." Giles rose and took Buffy's hand as she stood. "Come with me." "Where are we going?" "My place. There's a guest house out the back. We can leave the others at the flat and sneak off to be alone." "Sneak, huh? I thought you were supposed to be a good influence on me." "I am a good influence. If we stay in my room tonight, Dawn will get far too explicit an education in sexual matters." "What makes you say that?" "I'm afraid I'm a bit...vocal in bed, and I seem to have a tendency to bring that out in my partners." "And you're absolutely sure I'm going to bed with you?" In lieu of a verbal answer, Giles bent his head and kissed Buffy passionately. She opened herself to him eagerly. His tongue swept her mouth possessively. Long before he was finished making love to her with his lips, Buffy was making soft moaning sounds and clutching his lapels desperately. At long last, he gave her a final soft kiss and pulled back to look at her. Her green eyes were dazed and blurred when she opened them. "Okay, you can be sure," she panted. "And I thought that raygun was gonna turn me to tapioca!" ***** By the time they got back to the guest house behind Giles' building, they were kissing hungrily with nearly every step. As he fumbled with the key to open the door, he stopped and turned to Buffy. "You're sure about this?" he asked. She plucked the key from his hand and inserted it in the lock. "Way sure." ***** Dawn sighed as she looked out the window again. "Shouldn't they be back by now?" "I'm sure it's okay, Dawn Juan. This is Buffy and Giles," Xander assured her. "Meaning?" "Meaning, they're probably off in some secret place so they can have sex in private," Anya told her. "Anya!" Willow reproved her. "It's not...I don't think...okay, maybe that's it, but we don't know that for sure." "But if they're not, then they could be in some kind of trouble. We should go look for them." Dawn grabbed her coat and had it halfway on when Xander called the others to the rear window. "Uh, guys? I think the nookie theory is about to be proved." The others raced to join him. They found themselves with a clear view of Buffy and Giles kissing wildly as Giles opened the door to the guest house. Willow took Dawn firmly by the shoulders and led her back to the sitting room. "How's about a rousing game of chess?" ***** "Mmmmm, oh, oh Giles, ah!" "Buffy, darling, you're so beautiful. So sweet. Oh...oh...oh dear lord! Mmmm, yes!" "Oh God! Kiss me there, Giles, please." "Rupert." "Huh?" "My name. It's Rupert. It's a bit strange hearing you say 'Giles' when we're...well...naked." "Rupert. Okay. I can call you that. Unless you've got a neat middle name?" Giles laughed silently. "I'm not sure Crispin is a neat name." "Y'know, suddenly Rupert doesn't sound so bad." "Ready to try it again?" He returned to his nibbling. "Oh G - Ru - uh! Ohmigod, yes, right there!" "You like that?" "Don't stop, please don't stop!" "Mmmmm, you taste so good. I - oh dear lord! Buffy!" "You stop and I'll stop, buddy." "S - sorry. It's just...no, don't stop! Mmmm." "Oh! Yes! Yesyesyesyesyes ohmigod!" ***** Anya sat next to Xander with a thump. "I can hear them all the way out there." "You and me both, honey." "Buffy sounds like she's enjoying the experience." "So does Giles." "Do you think they'll still be orgasm friends when he comes back to Sunnydale?" "I think I'll be looking into a good price on soundproofing their bedroom before he gets back. Maybe Joe could help me out there." Anya lay her head contentedly on her fiancé's shoulder. "You have connections. That's good. They'll save money on the job." "And just think of the savings in therapy bills for the Dawnster." ***** "It's your move, Dawnie." Dawn started. "Huh? Oh. Right. My move." She studied the board for a moment. "Do you think it's normal?" "What? Do I think what's normal?" "I thought she got loud with Riley because sometimes I could hear through the walls and stuff. This is like down the street." "Well...I think maybe it's...different with different people and I think maybe we shouldn't be talking about this at all. It's a sort of private thing." "Not the way they're doing it." ***** "Please, Gi - Rupert, now. Do it, please." "Just a minute, love. Damn packet...ahh!" Rip. Roll. Position. "I love you, Rupert." "I love you, too, Buffy." "Oh God, it's so good! So big." "Ahhhh, Buffy. I've loved you for so long; wanted you so." "Mmmmm, you feel so good inside me." "Oh lord, but you're wonderful!" "Harder, please! Yes! Like that." "Is it good? Do you like having me inside you?" "I love it. Oh, I never want to stop!" ***** "So how much longer do you think they'll be over there?" "I dunno, Dawn," Xander shrugged. "I'm not sure they're coming back here tonight." "We won't see them until breakfast time," Anya predicted. "Maybe even lunch," Willow agreed. "No way," Dawn protested. "Nobody can do it that long." "Well," Anya mused, "Buffy is the Slayer..." "And that means she'll have to go out and hunt vampires soon," Xander interrupted. "Good point, An." ***** "Can't...last...much...longer." "Come for me, Rupert! I want it." "Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh DEAR LORD!" "Ahhhhyes! Oh God! Ah, oh, ohhhhh..." "Mmmmm, oh Buffy..." "Oh, that was wonderful." "I love you so, darling." "I love you, too, studmuffin." ***** The next day dawned bright but cold. Buffy snuggled more deeply into the blankets. She slowly became aware of the fact that she wasn't alone in bed. And that she was naked. Giles pulled her closer. "Good morning," he said, his voice still husky from sleep. "Mmmmorning," she purred as she nestled her cheek against his bare chest. "We'd best get up and go back to the flat soon." "Why?" "The others will be wondering where we are. They may already have sent a search party out to look for us." Buffy sighed. "I hate it when you're right." "Besides, there's nothing to eat here. If you want breakfast, we'll have to go back." "You expect me to get dressed and walk all the way over there without any coffee? Sadist." Giles chuckled at Buffy's half hearted complaints and dropped a kiss on her head. "Come on then, love. Best get started." Buffy blew a raspberry at him as he practically leapt from under the covers. "Can't you go and bring me coffee? Isn't that what good boyfriends do? And what's your hurry getting out of bed. I was all warm and snuggly, here." "Buffy, your sister needs to know you're all right. And if I stayed, we'd simply repeat last night all over again and we'd never get back to Dawn." "All over again? Like all three times again?" "Well, I'm not certain I'm up to that...and I seem to have developed a form of hoof in mouth disease." "At least it's cute on you." "Thank you, I think. Look, Buffy, we really do have to get back." "I know. I just...last night was so great. I don't want it to be over." He sat on the bed and brushed his fingers over her cheek. "Last night was just the beginning." He leaned down to kiss her. As the kiss grew exponentially, they were interrupted by a knock on the door. "Hey guys," Came Xanders' voice, "don't bother answering the door, but I'm leaving some coffee for the Buffster and a cuppa for Big G. Oh, and some jelly donuts. We'll entertain Dawn today if you want some private time." A set of footsteps began to recede. A moment later, they were back. "Oh, and guys? I can get you a deal on soundproofing. Just a suggestion." The footsteps retreated once again. Buffy and Giles looked at one another and spoke as one: "Oh dear lord!"
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