who am i what have i become why am i this way why exist at all could curl up in a ball could just fade away i am fading away help never felt so alone never felt so loved what if what if he what is love have i ever loved truly romantically is this nothingness surrounding me the love that i seek what else is out there there has to be more than this life lingers on me suffocating me like a wet rag and yet i thrive ill but thrive in the way sickness creates me emptiness that holds me captive in a castle of despair happiness surrounding me too often for my liking i like this happiness is bliss but the strangeness of it pulls me under to drown yet again
welcome my unraveling darkened confusion
welcome to the winter of our discontent what is life why must it be so hard to live and cant everyone forfill their dreams before death many dont why not thats not fair the masses live their life of struggled hunger and yet those who have food starve striving to find perfection that has existed within all along nothingness plagues me everything has a reaction a chain reaction events roll together in a mighty waterfall of chaos loneliness is my only friend and yet i love so many nothing makes sense and yet everything is so to forfill its given meaning the neverending journey down a darkened path haunting light expelling a mystery decaying life strengthening life and nothing else matters warped memories fill my miserable mind lets follow this yellow road and see what friends we find i lie in confussion haunted eternally yet happiness lingers i think i think i think i think i think i think too much WHY?! what if......?! i wonder.
*Note: No, this is not an unformatted document... it's a poem. read it.
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Copyright Rebecca Page 1999.
