Letters From Chutney
As Far As I Can Spit
Help me yeah!
How can i trust in anyone
When i can't trust myself
I'm stealing things from ebtter lives
The lives upon the shelf
But i'm not as lonely
As i thought but i know now
That it takes much longer
To be free from me
What used to come so naturally
It seems to go away
You're killing me from inside out
To make me understand
And i can't believe this
And i pray that you find him
Never did understand
How you were and you were
Fight! fight! fight! fight fight!
Fight! fight! fight! fight fight!
Let it go!
Im seeing things in darker lights
Pressed into nicotine
You're never thinking for yourself
You're fastened by you're strings
And i can't believe this
And i pray that you find him
Never did understand
How you were and you were
Fight! fight! fight! fight fight!
Fight! fight! fight! fight fight!
Danananana
No one hates you more than you do
You can't stand what you are
There's nothing I could ever say
To change you change you change you
It's all you are it's all you'll ever be if you don't
Let it go let it go let it go
Turn on yourself turn on yourself
Turn on yourself
Turn on and you'll find what you'll find
It burns so bad inside of you
It's easy for you to look away
You'll find a way to stay away
Hide in it hide in it hide in it
But everything turns into lies
Looking into your untrusting eyes
Turn on yourself turn on yourself
Turn on yourself
Turn on 'till you find what you'll find
You'll learn to smile in blood and pain
You'll learn to hate yourself again
Believe the lies it's easier
Believe in your lies it's easier
Alone away from everything
You get off on the bitterness you bring
And with it fear is there to hold you close
Closer closer closer
Give yourself more than this
You can't live without love
Let your soul breathe again
Free yourself
Turn on yourself turn on yourself
Turn on yourself
Turn on 'till you find what you'll find
Brat
So go as far as you want this to go
I want you to know that i don't care
I'm only laughing at what i'm afraid of
I've never been seen like this before
Am i ashamed
I wonder why am i afraid to die
I kill myself or force myself to fly
I can't hear anything at all
Can't you give me just what i want
This makes it harder to live with
Seems like a burden to me now
I'm only pushing away what i wanted
The more that i need it the more i do without
And the urge will pass
I wonder why am i afraid to die
I kill myself or force myself to fly
I can't hear anything at all
Can't you give me just what i want
I'm a brat now give it
I'm a brat now give it
So go as far as you want this to go
I want you to know that i don't care
I'm only laughing at what i'm afraid of
I've never been seen like this before
Am i ashamed
I wonder why am i afraid to die
I kill myself or force myself to fly
I can't hear anything at all
Can't you give me just what i want
I'm a brat now give it
I'm a brat now give it
Circles
You helped him you laid by his side when he died
He held in his breath and you broke down and cried
You stood there confused you couldn't believe
You're helpless and realize it's better you leave
Now you're walking around in your circles circles
Walking around in your circles yeah
Walking around in your circles circles
Walking around in your circles
Not stronger you're gripping onto the past
Recalling what happened happened too fast
His image is burning into your mind
You know you will never leave this behind
Now you're walking around in your circles circles
Walking around in your circles yeah
Walking around in your circles circles
Walking around in your circles
Walking around in your circles circles
Walking around in your circles yeah
Walking around in your circles circles
Walking around in your circles
You're older and better how do you feel
Distorted uncertain of just what is real
You're stupid you're angry what can you say
If it wasn't for you he'd be alive today
Walking around in your circles circles
Walking around in your circles yeah
Walking around in your circles circles
Walking around in your circles
Spiderprints
Tighten your grip
Your web can't be spun
Without your firming hands upon
The lower you slip
The closer you get
To leaving yourself all alone
Every time i get up to reach you
You'll break your promise again
You're crawling away
You're licking your wounds that have bled
It's surprising me to no end
'Cause what you have said
Makes me see that you can't
Hear the voice in your head
Every time i get up to reach you
You'll break your promise again
You're crawling away
You're licking your wounds that have bled
It's surprising me to no end
'Cause what you have said
Makes me see that you can't
Hear the voice in your head
Tighten your grip
Your web can't be spun
Without your firming hands upon
The lower you slip
The closer you get
To leaving yourself all alone
Every time i get up to reach you
You'll break your promise again
You're crawling away
You're licking your wounds that have bled
It's surprising me to no end
'Cause what you have said
Makes me see that you can't
Hear the voice in your head
Nibber
Don't trust yourself alone with me
Don't think i'll ever set you free
And i've been pushed much harder that you've ever been
So don't expect to see what's underneath my skin
I'd hate to think that you're afraid
It's too late to think about mistakes that you made
And i've been pushed much harder that you've ever been
So don't expect to see what's underneath my skin
Just leave me i'm alright for now
I'll find a way inside some how
I'll keep myself alive today
Can't think about tomorrow
I'm feeling harder than before
But your skin feels colder as it falls to the floor
And i've been pushed much harder that you've ever been
So don't expect to see what's underneath my skin
Just leave me i'm alright for now
I'll find a way inside some how
I'll keep myself alive today
Can't think about tomorrow
And i've been pushed much harder that you've ever been
So don't expect to see what's underneath my skin
Dropping
I'm dropping i'm falling like water like water
I hear it it's calling me over i'm over
Breathing brings me
One step closer
Breathing brings me
One step closer
You scare me with that you're doing you're doing
I'm feeling you pushing me over i'm over
Breathing brings me
One step closer
Breathing brings me
One step closer
I'm only kidding don't believe me
I've never been this unclean
I've been thinking i've been having too much time to myself
I've been looking through the window i kill myself
I've been holding onto nothing overlooking the wall
Give me something that will leave me alone
I'm dropping i'm falling like water like water
I hear it it's calling me over i'm over
Breathing brings me
One step closer
Breathing brings me
One step closer
I'm only kidding don't believe me
I've never been this unclean
I've been thinking i've been having too much time to myself
I've been looking through the window i kill myself
I've been holding onto nothing overlooking the wall
Give me something that will leave me alone
St. Louis
Held it up
You pushed it down
Looked so wicked
Wearing your crown
Of cotton thorns
I guess you fake the pain the pain
But since i can't really afford
To give you what you want what you want
Here i am
Vome and get me
Bundled up
Just like my grandma sent me
Why'd you give it up
It's like you never tried never tried
But if you try for something more
You'll be giving up again up again
Picked up a rock
Wishing it was skin
Never did know
Where to begin
To be more of me
I need to see less of you of you
But since that same old feeling has gone
This won't be near as hard near as hard
But since that same old feeling has gone
This won't be near as hard
Scrumpy
Listen i hear them again they call my name
They understand it all
I believe in the words that they said but i'm so scared
They'll never leave my head
There's no way out of this
You're living through me
But you can't escape yourself
You're everything i need
I try to remember some more the more you give it
The more it ignores
But you're lucky to have something at all to love you
If ever you do fall
There's no way out of this
You're living through me
But you can't escape yourself
You're everything i need
It's wrong to laugh
I hate this place
Why can't you follow
I'm quiet again
Listen i hear them again they call my name
They understand it all
I believe in the words that they said but i'm so scared
They'll never leave my head
There's no way out of this
You're living through me
But you can't escape yourself
You're everything i need
It's wrong to laugh
I hate this place
Why can't you follow
I'm quiet again
Cake
I know you won't forget the days
I know you'll never let them live down the days
When they they make you feel their pain
And you will never never forgive it
It must have been so hard for you
Why make it so hard for me yeah
How can i i learn i learn from you
When you don't yeah don't let me see
It might be how you've come to be
But the more you dream the less you believe
Hide inside inside your walls
'Cause you feel better without feeling at all
It must have been so hard for you
Why make it so hard for me yeah
How can i i learn i learn from you
When you don't yeah don't let me see
Turning in turn is what you know
And what you feel you don't want to show
Don't force yourself to find a way
Don't let them tell you you've got nothing to say
It must have been so hard fro you
Why make it so hard for me yeah
How can i i learn i learn from you
When you don't yeah don't let me see
Cookin' in the Kitchen
I needed you here i wanted you to stay
Was taken with what you took away
I came here alone i'm waiting for you
To give me what you think i should say
Things ain't cookin' in my kitchen
Things ain't the way that i thought they'd be
One thing's for sure as i got my hands steady
I love her i know she loves me
I know she loves me
I don't believe you or in that devil dance you do
Puking up blood laden stew
You never knew me but don't you think that's true
Do you think you know you
Things ain't cookin' in my kitchen
Things ain't the way that i thought they'd be
One thing's for sure as i got my hands steady
I love her i know she loves me yeah
Don't touch me
Go a little faster now
Don't touch me
Choke a little slower now
Don't touch me
Push a little harder now
Don't touch me
Breathe a little softer now
Regret pulls me through for what i did to you
But i didn't think i was wrong
Don't call me weak when you knew all along
I'm tryin' so hard to be strong
Things ain't cookin' in my kitchen
Things ain't the way that i thought they'd be
One thing's for sure as i got my hands steady
I love her i know she loves me yeah
Don't touch me
Go a little faster now
Don't touch me
Push a little harder now
Don't touch me
Choke a little slower now
Don't touch me
Breathe a little softer now
Don't touch me
Don't touch me
Don't touch me
Don't touch me
Lets Pretend
Everybody get up on the dance floor
Everybody get up
Everybody get up on the dance floor
Everybody get up get up
Let's pretend
To hold on to the end
Let's misuse
Baby don't you know i love you
Now baby don't you know i'll always be true
Baby don't you know i love you
Now baby don't you know i've got nothing
Oh no
Let's pretend
That you will get your way
You're not alone
Don't know if i'm gonna stay
Baby don't you know i love you
Now baby don't you know i'll always be true
Now baby don't you know i love you
Now baby don't you know i've got nothing
I've got nothing to lose
I've really got nothing to lose
Got nothing to lose yeah
Let's pretend
To hold on to the end
Let's misuse
Learn to love abuse
Baby don't you know i love you
Now baby don't you know i'll always be true
Now baby don't you know i love you
Now baby don't you know i've got nothing
I've got nothing to lose
I've really got nothing to lose
Got nothing to lose yeah
I've got nothing to lose
I've got nothing to lose
I've got nothing to lose
I've got nothing to lose
I've got nothing to lose