Tell me now,
although i already know,
confirm suspisions,
let it all show,
let it all hang out,
funny how now,
i can see it in your eyes,
written on your soul,
and burning in your lies..
I thought this was all true,
until i heard from her,
and then i knew the other side of you,
the other side,
the one with all the lies,
with all the tears,
the shallowness,
the man who never realized,
realized what a good thing he had,
what a life he could have led..
My life is frowning at me,
and it follows me where ever i go,
it laughs at my mistakes,
my sorrows, and my goals,
I sit here crying my life away,
as it continues to boo and hiss,
i lie here alone,
wasting my life away,
trying not to press too hard,
trying not to do as he did,
trying to contain myself from the death i know lies within these pills,
I try to hold myself back,
when my brother dearest beats on me,
i try not to cry,
when my brother dearest sends me to the hospital,
I try not to die,
when my brother dearest slices at me,
i try not to,
but i know one day i'll let go,
my life frowns at me,
as i withhold myself,
my life wishes i would die,
and escape the tortures,
my life glares at me,
and hopes i'll one day give in,
but life doesn't know this one secret weapon,
IM Loved.
Tears of frustration,
landing on my pillow,
as a sob escapes my lips,
i lie there and wonder why,
all this shit is happening to me,
i never get the one thing i want,
and i'm left alone with my thoughts,
thoughts of suicide, and death,
and the ones i care about,
but i try not to cry in front of them,
i don't need them to see my pain,
i don't want them to know anything but the happy me,
the me who is naive and vain,
but no one knows the real me,
the me behind the mask,
the one that no one knows about,
the one that no one cares about,
the me behind the mask.
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