Tie dyed shirts are my favorite. New Kids on the Block ones are a close second though. Being myself is important to me, I figure, who else can do a better job then I can? I obsese easily, but believe I can do anything I really want to, and usually do. I am a strong person who has been through more then enough pain and is now looking forward to more happiness. Oringia needs to be more widely available. I like my room messy, cleanness in it makes me feel confined. I have over 300 things on my walls and celing, everything means something to me. My two best friends ever are Dan and Bridget. WHy they put up with me I don't know. There are people online, like Lisa, JD, Aaron, Erynn, Katey, Lucinda, and Mike, who I could not live without. I believe in god, but which one I'm not sure. Old spice is the best deoderant. Matthew Lillard should be in more movies and John Travolta should have a son my age! :o) Jim Morrison was a saint, not a siner. What do you want to be in your next life? I've seen our lady peace twice in concert. I've seen a lot of others once. I will see Cake before I die. I try to appreciate myself. I like onion dip. I hate water, but plan to spend next april vacation on a boat. I will go on a boat with dan this summer. I used ot be bitter, but i've decided its just not worth it. UNH hockey is amazing. Two words, Mike Souza. People have left me behind, but it doesn't bother me as long as they are completeyl happy! Just because I'm on the pill doesn't mean I'm a whore. Sometimes, I wish it didn't hurt to feel. I rather enjoy butternut dougnuts from Dunkin' Dougnuts! I didn't cheat on my french, so kiss my arse! I wish everyday was saturday. I wish picking a college was easier. Pajamas are ok to wear to school, as long as yer comfy. James Dean was attractive. Even though we aren't speaking, Todd's friendship is very important to me. When you gossip, think of how you'd feel if YOU were the rumor. Drugs are fun at first, the disease you could get isn't. Even though they are silly, i have 11 beanie babies, none of which i have bought. Camp is important. Chris saved me this summer. I know a scary guy who people call jesus. I often get the wrong impression, or the completely right one. I am afriad of senior year. I wish people cared about each other more. Oh yea. The end for today. Sign the book? please...
well well well... it has indeed been awhile. today is january 14 of the year 2000. i suppose you would all like to be updated with my life. my mom and i are getting along much better, and even though we fight once and while, things, in general, are wonderous. i still work at the indoor soccer place. but here's the deal, jeffrey is rad, i adore him to pieces, colin is an ass and is going to hell whether he wants to or not. i worked there all summer and had a glourious time in the process. my "best friends" have rather changed. i still love bridget, but she has moved on and i understand. pretty much now i talk to dan and lauren and derek and brian. i love the four of them incredibly... and i actually talk to sean again. he is the man. my people online have increased... now i must mention brian s. and jen too, because i love them a lot and i didn't know them last march! :) I have now seen Cake. I can die a happy girl! They were amazing! everything i expected and more!!! unh hockey is not so supurb this year. souza is lazy. enough about that. my new favorite thing from dunkin' donuts are the ham egg and cheese breakfast sandwiches on plain bagels. yum. i want, actually, i need to go to the university of vermont. everyone keep your fingers crossed for me! Todd loses more points in my book everyday, and it's really too bad. i did not go to camp this year. now... onto the other things...
i'm a senior now. it's been a random semi-difficult year. i've lost some friends, but gained some other wonderful ones. many people comment on how quickly my friends change, but look at people, we are constantly chaging. i've become more independant. i like going to movies by myself, if you've never done it before, go, now! it's liberating. it makes you realize your oneness. john irving writes incredible books. read them, i dare you! my phone is going to ring any minute, i'm excited. don't ask why, find your own answers. chai is also an amazing beverage. good will is an amazing store. lauren's cousin andy is an amazing piece of ass. i love my dog. he's getting old. people say i wear too much jewlery, i say too bad. i'm going to major in communications. i'm going to write a book. i'm going to find some piece of mind. i'm going to get some action, tender satisfaction, oops, i did not mean that. i appologize profusley. i haven't started my senior project. i wonder what nude volley ball is like with a boy named caleb. i hope this is enough for now, and if it isn't, go here
wow, today is thurday january 27, of the slendid year 2000. this is amazing to me, i didn't write a lot for a long time, and here i am again. writing. adding. it makes me happy to go back and read this, because, well i couldn't tell you. i'm stressing out. over something utterly too trivial and dumb. semi-formal. i'm going with someone this year, and that alone is nerve wracking. BUT, i need to out do my dress from last year. it was pretty, i looked crazy. i need to scan a picture because i can't even begin to describe it. but, tommorow i am going to good will in hopes of finding another diamond in the rough. i know i can, it's just a matter of if i will. "i've been down so god damn long, that it all looks up to me" ~jim morrison. that's been in my head for days, i just needed to vent it a little bit.
i realized last night that sometimes i put too much basis on my friends opinions of other people. there is this completely fabulous person my best friend hates. a lot. well, not hates, but, they don't exactly like each other, at all. and, well, i met him in a different light last evening, and he made me laugh. and i fogot that i wasn't supposed to like him, that liking this perfectly normal human being may be a sin in my best friends eyes. but, it made me happy. this once stranger that i put in a box of hate is now considerably rad in my opinion. amazing. sometimes, i am too trusting of others opinions. that was my realization.
do you realize how hard it is to take a compliment??? i can't do it, at all. it's too god damn hard. like, as of late, someone has been complimenting me and i don't know what to say, all i do is blush and think, what kind of hard narcotics is this boy on!? but that was dumb, so i will stop there.
there is this girl in my school who believes that EVERYTHING she believes in is right. and she gets upset when anyone else has an opinion. it is nice to have strong beliefs, but she pushes it to the extreme and pretty much makes me hate her a tad. not hate, that is too strong a word. she tries to hard to be radical. she fails. how can she consider herself a vegan when she wears leather shoes?? if she wants so desperately to be this "different" "Liberal" type of person, rock on, but do it 100%, not half assed like she is. It bothers me. My opinion counts too, even if she doesn't agree with it. And i LIKE to hear other's opinions. Otherwise, I can never grow in MY opinion. She is just stuck, and she calls me, and the rest of the world close minded. It's really realy too bad.
i hope everyone who reads this is happy, and realzies that someone out there cares about them. sometimes i forget, this is why i remind you. and, if you can't think of anyone who cares, you should, above all. we should all care about ourselves a little bit more and about what other people think a little bit less. have a day.
wowie. the date is august 14 of the year 2001. i guess i tend to forget about my piece of the web when things get crazy. for all of you that crossed your fingers so i would get into UVM, thank you because i did. in 12 days i will be headed back for my second year in fabulous burlington... and out of this hell hole. my mom got married a month or so ago to shawn. he's a nice guy, but whatever. he doesn't talk to me and nothing in his life is very exciting if you were to ask me. he likes dead animals though and he likes to hang them up in our, well my mom's house. i don't exactly live at that afore mentioned house anymore. i moved back in with my grandparents this summer because things just got too out of control here i suppose you could say. oh, and my mom is with child. she's due december 24th. BAH! i will be 19 years old with a wee baby sibling, my first. and everytime i go out with it it will be assumed that it is MY child, woo hoo. anywho.
college is great! i get to sleep in and be lazy and no one is the wiser. it's also nice to be able to make my own rules and deal with their consequences. i still do not drink, in case any of you were wondering. after the wonderful accident last summer that my mom had, i don't think i can even look at alcohol. but i made some amazing friends up at school: lizzy, manda, megs, sarah, sara, dave, matt, jason, gr, lindsay, gina, michelle, danielle, and others. um... i've seen OLP (our lady peace) 5 times now. I have a drumstick!! AND! i have a pick that mike turner handed me cos i had a sign. i wear it around my neck because it is forever my goodluck charm now. i also saw everclear this summer! yay! they were fabulous. american hi-fi opened, and did once for OLP as well and they kick some serious booty. i dunno what else to write about. i am kinda pathetic. i do have an amazing boyfriend now though that loves and cares about me very much. yay andy! ;) oh, and todd has decided to shack up with ANOTHER one of my friends, even though he promised never to do such a thing again. nice boy eh? oh well. hopefully this page will be updated semi regularily. good day.
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