I was relived when school started up again. The more time away from home I spent the less I thought about Callista and my mom. Although, everything had changed, I no longer had anyone to talk to while walking to school. And everyone looked at me differently. It was weird. Zeke was the only one acting the same. But he was getting the weird looks also. I walked through the hallway to my forth-period class, avoiding everyone. Finally I noticed someone falling to step with me.

“You alright Aly?” Zeke asked, looking at me with questioning eyes.

“ Yeah. I just need to get used to it. Or I guess I am going to have to.” I said looking up at him. He gave me a hug and kissed the top of my head.

“Yeah, yeah we all do. See ya after school.” He said turning in the direction of his own class.

After school I rushed to my locker and met Zeke at his rent-a-car. His was in the garage, because of the accident. That made me think back to my sister. I felt the tears come before anyone would see them. I didn’t want anyone to know I missed her. I jumped into Zeke’s car before he even had the time to say hello. In the time it took him to get in the car and shut the door I already had many tears running down my cheeks.

“ Oh sweetie.” He started.

“Don’t cry” I pressed my face into his shoulder as he leaned over to hug me. I couldn’t help it. She was my sister, More part of me then anyone else. No one knew how much I loved her. When I regained composure I wiped the tears from my face.

“ I want to go” I said looking forward and buckling my seat belt.

“ok where do you want to go?” Zeke asked.

“No,” I said as if he didn’t understand. But he didn’t at all.

“I want to go, like move away. I want to go live with my dad” I regretted what I said the minute the words left my mouth. I hadn’t seen my father since I was seven and talked to him in a year or so. But I didn’t want to be here anymore. Not with Callista gone. I was strong but not strong enough. I couldn’t handle school, the kids, the looks the stares, Or my mother. It was hard enough to deal with her when Lissy was around. I wasn’t sure I would live to see my 18th birthday if I stayed with her.

“Babe, you hardly know your father. Just give it time. Everything would be ok” I don’t think he understood. But if I was him I would try and make me stay. Zeke had been my boyfriend since I was a freshman. The only guy I had ever loved. And I knew he wanted me to stay. I mean with our relationship going so well. I mean it would kinda be throwing away my whole High School career. I just didn’t want to be there. In a way it disgusted me. And it scared me.

“No, you don’t understand, I can’t handle it Zeke. I can’t live with my mom. I can’t stay there. Just for a little while I just want to leave. I will come back. I just can’t stay here. Not With Lis gone. She was everything to me.”

“Yeah I know she was your sister Aly, but I mean, moving to some state in the south with a father who wont bother to even pick up a phone and call you. I mean it is unrealistic to even think he would let you stay. Also even less unlikely for your mom to let you. “

“I don’t give a shit anymore Zeke. Take me home” I said. I know it sounded demanding and rude. But I had to do this. When I got home I was calling my father and asking for a one way ticket to wherever the hell he was and I was staying. It sounded easy enough. But I had to get through my mother first. Knowing her she would jump at any chance to get rid of me. I was to set on this idea to let my mother ruin it. After Zeke brought me home I rushed into the house and sat at my table and awaited my mother’s arrival home. She came home about 20 minutes after I did.

“Mom” I said when she walked in.

“I can’t talk right now” she said brushing past me. I got up in followed her.

“Mom I need to talk to you.” I followed her out of the kitchen

“ Alyssa..” she started

“Mom I want to go live with dad.” I cut her off.

“ You what?” She asked in awe.

“I want to go live with dad, I don’t want to live here anymore, I don’t like it here.” She actually looked hurt that I wanted to leave.

“But you don’t even know your father and he doesn’t know how to raise I kid.” She said

“ I am 17 I am not a kid, I can handle it. I can’t the people staring at me and talking about me because I am Lissy’s sister, I am sick of it and I want to leave.” I stated. Once I had my mind set I wouldn’t let the idea go and my mother of all people knows that, I mean I got it from her. She looked hesitant at first but then gave in.

"I’ll make the call, if this is what you want to do” She said walking into her office.

“Yeah this is what I want” I sounded like I was telling myself that more then her, but this is what I was going to do no matter what, no one was going to stop me.

My mother had made the flight for this weekend. And I actually talked to my dad. It seemed weird calling someone dad. I had some of my furniture shipped to my father’s house by Thursday so my room was a mattress and my desk. I was actually living out of a suitcase at home. It was weird. By Friday I was apprehensive about moving. I mean new school new house new parent new state. It was a lot to handle.

“So, Tomorrow at 1 you are really leaving?” Zeke asked during our lunch outing on school Friday.

“Yeah I am. You have to understand why I am doing this Zeke. I think it is what is best for me.”

“What about me, what about us? I mean I want to stay with you forever, I mean even though you aren’t gunna be here I want to still be with you.” He said taking my hand.

“Well, I mean I don’t want to hold you back, it is totally your decision. I said.

“No, like I’ want to stay together for as long as possible. I’m up for the long distance thing if you are.”

“Yeah, we’ll do that.” I smiled. At that moment I felt bad about my decision. Should I really be going? I didn’t want to hurt him, but I knew I had to go, for a little while. I just needed to get away.

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