1. Sobering
2. Who Am I?
3. Unforgivable
4. Endure
5. Willow Tree
6. Concrete
7. Crazy
8. Pennyless
9. Cure
10. Send Angels
11. Pluto

La dum da da dum
Take the cup of delusion
This empty hole inside
Drinks the wine of remorse
And giving cause to stumble
It's sobering, the changes

Chorus:
Don't turn around
Don't walk away
Don't try to lead
When you don't know

La dum da da dum
Blotting out the stains of nonsense
And drenched in this desire
Spilling from an empty cup
You bury guilt like sin
Hurling smiles and judgments
The blatant tone of your soul
Creates a blackness deep within

Repeat Chorus Twice

Bitterness trickles through
This vein of tenderness

Repeat Chorus Four Times

La dum la da dum
La dum la da dum
La dum la da dum

Who Am I?
A song about people's often self-inflicted pain, and what we can do to help them. It is often hard to understand what they are going through, but we need to be able to listen and comfort them the best that we can. God will use the pain that we have gone through to minister to their life.

You there with your bag of gold
Thought you had it all together
But your hands are empty
Does it matter now
The pain it caused you cannot measure

But who am I?

Chorus:
Who am I to compare my pain to yours?
Suffering is sweet agony
Who am I to compare my pain to yours?
My suffering must mean nothing

So, hey there, quit imagining
That you have left this life
Your eyes are tired and your feet are worn
No, no one seems to hear your desperate cries

But who am I?

Repeat Chorus

If I believe that's the truth
Then I believe you
If that's the way it should be
Then I believe you

Repeat Chorus

Who am I to compare my pain to yours?
Suffering is sweet agony
Who am I to compare my pain to yours?
My suffering must mean something

Must mean somthing to you, to me
It's true
Who am I?

Unforgivable
Portrays a young girl's struggle with her father's verbal abuse and her attempt to convince him that nothing that has happened in his life is unforgivable. Therefore, she forgave him for the way he treated her.

I'm never told that I am pretty
I'm never told that I am kind
And my soul burns now with fire
Deep inside

I want to become brave and courageous
Not buried in self-pity of my own
Ashamed and alone from all
That's been done to me
It's not my fault I remind myself

Chorus:
You say don't be afraid
But I feel afraid
You say don't laugh or cry
But I show emotion
You say food will be on the table
And birds in the sky
But I'm hungry
So hungry
And it's cloudy outside

You never loved me like a daughter
You never even loved yourself
And now you treat me like a burden
Just another object on your shelf

I want you to know now that I love you
And this pain that I carry's not my own
Ashamed and alone
From all that's been done to you
It's not you fault
I remind myself

Repeat Chorus

No matter what I've done
Or is done to me
Nothing's unforgivable
Or unable to be set free

Repeat Chorus Twice

Endure
We won't always know when, where or how God's will for our lives will fall into place, but we must be ready to step out on faith. God told us He would never give a burden or temptation we could not bear, but that He would be there to bear it. He is always faithful in coming through in His perfect timing and with flying colors of a rainbow.

Questions drip from my umbrella
Shadows hang over me

Stand here, waiting
I know the sky will break
And bleed its light
And kiss my face with mercy

Chorus:
I'll endure the rain
I will wait an hour more
Not sure if I'll see anything
Can I wait here anymore
I'll endure the rain
I will wait an hour more
Not sure if I'll see anything
Can I wait here any longer

Teardrops vanish in a moment
Rainbows hang over me
Darkness, fading
I know the sky will break
And bleed its light
And kiss my face with mercy

Repeat Chorus Three Times

Can I wait here any longer
Wait here any longer

Willow Tree
This is a song about one of my extended family members who battled an addiction to alcohol. The song reflects her relationship with her husband, but parallels the love and grace God shows His children. He will never leave us or forsake us. Sometimes it just takes us a while to truly believe and trust this.

It will be great to see you again
Now that the old wounds have mended
I promise I'll be waiting by the door
Unlike so many nights before

That night you found me in the living room
Alone with the bottle I'd just consumed
I cried for hours after you had left
Must be hard to forgive
Even harder to forget

Chorus:
Take the 2nd right at the 2nd light
Pass Cherry Street, go left
It's the second house with the willow tree
I'll be there, waiting

Now that I've watched all the seasons change
I've had time to see where my life had strayed
And through every pain and disbelief
You stood close by
Through my lies, through my deceit

So do you recall
How to get here
You might not recognize
What you see

Repeat Chorus

Through my selfishness
Couldn't see where you were coming from
It took your leaving to see
To see what I'd become
You saw past all the things I'd done

Repeat Chorus

I'll be there, waiting
I'll be there, waiting

You never forgot how to get here
You never forgot how to get here
You never forgot how to get here

Concrete
Being grounded in your faith and believing what you believe because you believe it, not because someone told you to. Respecting the one who gave you the ability to have that choice.

More than a superstition
When put in my position
Temptations and opinions
This heart's not my possession
Hold tight to your convictions
Hypocrites in all directions
Cling to the things your father taught you
Confess your sins to the One who bought you

Do you feel all alone
Faith has alway kept you strong
If you could see my fear
Should I believe or should I doubt

Chorus:
I believe
In the things that you never told me
I believe
In the things that you never showed me
I believe
I know my fears control me
I believe
In the things that you never told me

Aggressive passive inhibitions
Laughs before an indecision
Do I run or do I stay
When all I do may fall away
Lack of faith in what I trust
When all I measure turns to dust
When all I know decays in vain
And I am left alone again

Do you feel all alone
Faith has always kept you strong
If you could see my fear
Should I believe or should I doubt

Repeat Chorus

As I kneel in sanctuary
Crosses all arouned to haunt me
Architecture so divine
Bread, the body
Blood, the wine

Repeat Chorus Three Times

Crazy
A mildly-sarcastic look at people who aren't satisfied with their own life, so they tend to put people they envy on a pedestal. Instead, they need to accept who they are in Christ.

I know that you're on the inside
You know that I'm looking out
For me
You're sitting pretty
As I wallow in self-pity
And there's no coming back for me

Chorus:
You're crazy for thinking I'm above this
You're crazy for believing I don't care
You're crazy for thinking I'm below you
You're crazy, you're crazy

My ambition and every intention
Is to go where I shouldn't go
Pleasing to my eyes
Through a wretched reply
It's soothing to my soul

Repeat Chorus Three Times

Pennyless
A song about searching for what is already there in front of us. It describes a person for whom God has an amazing plan. It was most inspired by my homeless uncle who is proof that being homeless doesn't mean just being financially poor. It can also mean being without hope. You must have hope to truly survive.

Blind soul lost in Chicago
She fell asleep under a bridge
Drowning out the sound of her sorrow
She's finding it hard to exist

Chorus:
She keeps running into herself
Hoping to find sombody else
She keep running into herself
Hoping that she'll get out of wonderland

Fame and fortune didn't become her
So she says pennyless
Needing so much more than tomorrow
As she stares at the scars on her wrist

Repeat Chorus

She keeps running into herself
Hoping to find somebody else
She keeps running into herself
Hoping that she'll find somebody better

Repeat Chorus

Cure
It's about taking for granted what we desire and finally obtain: God - the ultimate cure.

Been there before
Slowly drifting out to sea
Away from the tide
And a darkness surrounds me

I'm out of hope
I'm out of strength this time

Chorus:
I've never seen it
No, I've never heard it
I've never been it
But I'm searching for it
I've never seen it
No, I've never heard it
I've never been it
But I'm searching for it

A breath of air
A calm that surrounds me
But I want to know how
To let it inside

It gives me peace
It frees this pain I hide

Repeat Chorus Three Times

Cure, cure, cure, cure

Send Angels
This deals with the subject of adultery. We tend to leave God out of our situations and end up waiting on Him to send angels to our rescue.

Chorus:
Send angels, send angels, send angels
Show me you love me
Send angels, send angels, send angels
Show me you love me

He felt alone and aging unkind
He knew there was trouble with this war inside
So to feel young he did what he felt best
Emptiness filling every vein
He must be going insane
To leave an entire world behind

Repeat Chorus

Crying the tears he lost as a child
He couldn't even recognize
The frail and injured man that he'd become
Traces of his compromise
Shattering his desperate tries
Everyone makes a mistake now and then

Repeat Chorus

Pluto
A fun way of expressing our curiosity about God's creation on other planets.