Let's continue the journey...



Knock Knock
Are you there?
Cant you see me standing here?
Cant you feel my sweat floating in the air?
The breath falling out of my mouth in clumps.
Damn I keep calling out to you.
All I get back is the echo of despair and a growl full of anguish.
As I stand back and compose myself for a second,
I feel my body warm with salty poisons
traveling down empty lifeless fleshhills
Oh, it burns...
It falls so hard, it runs down my chest
disappearing into that dark ragged crevace called a heart.
All I wanted was to cover you in my body
feel your skin pressed againt mine, my pores breathing in your sweat
but what I get now are your icicles
grinding into my heart
with the points bearing harsh words.



Life..part1
fear of falling deeper into that so called kaleidoscope
what may be impression can not be truly realistic
i hold on that smooth, slippery rope
why cant i tug?
is it to be for others to climb
why should one sit here alone?
looking into that two sided cesspool
is it merely a mirage?

Life..part2
Energy converted into a continual stream of guilt
time pushes and pulls at those innocent spirits
disappointment may embrace me and smile
the little man whispers...
breaths of sighs barely reach my lips
but in the vast darkness, Hope struggles to inhale
listen....can you hear it?


To You
someday i hope to have a life of my own!
with all my troubles in the backdrop of a stage
when the future comes to mind now,
thoughts of a scary monster, under my bed, appear
if i had a crystal ball and could see all
things would be all the more vivid, no more lurking shadows
sometimes i pretend all is imaginative...
so that i can be on a leaf of a tree
or below a great tulip
and all fades away into the sunset..



~Rape~
you have raped my soul but not my mind
my knees are scuffed from crawling up your ass
dont stare at me!
i did as you said
i am me yet i am not
im an empty shell....moving slowly as the world spins
and breaths are counted
my skin crawling looking for higher ground
with my head thrown back...i laugh
letting every sound crawl out of my mouth
expending the last bit i had to give
i lay deflated on the floor..knowing thats how you want me
defenseless

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