“Why are you always so difficult?” he questioned with a hint of anger in his voice

“I’m being difficult? I think you’re the one with the difficulties, I mean I am always saying no, and then you come back, and then I say no, and then you come back, and then I say no again, and then you STILL come back!” I said

“I’m gonna get going” he said as he stood up

“Yeah, but we all KNOW your going to be coming back sometime” I said as I stood up and walked over to the door

“I don’t even know why I try anymore,” he said as he walked out of the door

“Let me remind you, because you’re in LOVE” I mocked

“You know what, fuck you Beth, fuck you for thinking you are so much better then the rest of the world, and fuck you for not even giving me a chance”

“Oh, fucking, I’m sure you like to do a lot of the JC” I shot back

He let a low laugh escape. “Good bye Beth, for good this time”

“Sure sure” I said as I shut the door.

“Stupid bitch” I mumbled as I walked away from the door and sat down on the couch. He made me think too much and that was bad. To tell you the truth, I don’t even know why I resist. Sometimes I think I’m two different people, one person being the one who gives him a glimmer of hope from time to time, and the other person who just shuts him down and locks him out. I honestly need to pick between one because these games make my head hurt. I think I confuse him so much that he doesn’t know where to go with me next, he doesn’t know if he should make the move or not. I actually like this; men need to be kept on their toes more often.

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-Four days later-

“Ok boys” I said as I pulled out a six manila envelope from my bag. “Here are your proofs” I handed the envelope to the boy that had their name on it and held onto the one entitled group.

“I like these” Joey said as he flipped through all this pictures “How many do we pick?” he asked

“The two you like the best” I answered

When they were finished picking the ones they wanted of themselves, I held up the group envelope and although it took awhile they got it narrowed down to three pictures they liked the best.

“Nice doing business with you Beth” Lance said quickly

“No need to be all professional with me” I said back to him

“Yeah… see you around” he said and walked away

Chris, Joey and Justin left but JC stayed. I didn’t really mind, in fact I had wanted to see what he had to say to me after the episode a few days ago.

“What’s with you and Lance being so friendly?” he asked me

“What?” I asked because I had hardly noticed the bond of friendship he was describing.

“You know… see you around” he said as he mocked Lance

“Listen kid, whatever it is your thinking up there stop because you have all the wrong ideas” I said a little briskly.

“I think I have the right ideas Beth”

I hated it when he said my name. When it came from his mouth it sounded so poetic and loving and it made me feel nauseated for some odd reason.

“Shut up JC”

“Whatever you wish,” he said. He turned and let out a slight chuckle and then left the room.

That was it? No ‘I want to spend the rest of my life with you’? No ‘lets run away from this world so we can be together’? Not even a single mention of his ‘undying love’ for me? I will admit it; I’m confused by his actions. Up to this point I had figured I had him down to a tee. I figured he was going to give up once he found a girl and then flaunt her in front of my face, I didn’t think he was capable of just hitting the off switch on his emotions.

I guess I was in my awe-stricken state for a moment because I hadn’t realized Justin was calling my name and waving his hand in front of my face.

“What do you want?” I snapped because he was interfering with a moment I was having with my emotions.

“JC leave you speechless?” he questioned with a laugh and a cheesy smile

“You could say that” I answered.

“Do you like him?” he asked with a little hesitance

“Jesus… I knew there had to be a catch, I knew he just wouldn’t leave like that… so what are you? His representative of the moment? Don’t you feel honored…”

He rolled his eyes “Why are you being so stupid Beth?”

Chapter 3