Everclear Lyrics
World Of Noise-
Your Genius Hands
- I have seen you shake
- And I know what it cost you
- I have heard your words
- Now I am big on your noise
- My eyes aren't big enough
- Because I can't see your hands
- I can't see what you hold
- I am growing now
- As I watch you fade
- Now I know what you know
- And I'll break the chains that you have made
- These chains you've made for me
- I will pull you down
- I know I'll fail in style
- I long to touch your genius hands
Sick & Tired
- I break everyday
- Stressed out in every kind of way
- I am sick and tired of being sick and tired
- All I need and crave
- Is a loud life with a power to fade
- I am living because I keep it all inside
- Love wont work for me
- I want women who are outta my reach
- All I need for sure
- Is a big love with a power to make more
- I am living because I keep it all inside
- I know I'm close to the fall
- I know I'm dangerous
- I'm afraid I'm going down
- I blame my family
- Their damage is living in me
- I am sick inside and tired of my life
- All I need I swear
- Is to go out the power of a nightmare
- I am living because I keep it all inside
- I know I'm close to the fall
- I know I'm dangerous
- I know I'm not going down alone
The Laughing World
- Right now
- Day one
- I fall hard when i fall
- I always fall on your face
- First head down eyes close arms out to break my fall
- We fall down
- Like a world of noise we get lost in the lenght of our own time
- And the laughing world will never forget
- That it's when you Jam that I Jet
- I Jet
- I see
- I want
- I reach
- I fail to hold the things that I need
- I turn I reach for you
- I wanna touch our life before it fades
- Like a burnin car in the sun
- We flame for the all in plain view
- And the laughing world will never forget
- That it's when you Jam that I Jet
Fire Maple Song
- Turn away from the pain you don't want
- Turning down to avoid them when they call
- Strange words I heard
- A long long time ago
- I wish I could go back to a summertime
- I knew more than twenty years ago
- Cant lay between the sheets
- We lie underneath the maple tree
- Now I can't smile
- Lying down in the grass with the wind around us as we smile and talk
- Listen to your grandma sing those country songs
- She'd tell us how the mapple turns to fire
- Every four years
- We'd lay in the grass all summer just ot watch the autumn come around
- I cant smile
- Now I live alone
- And you're so far away
- I call you every year
- Just around the holidays
- I still see you in the night
- Lying above me in the grass
- I can't smile
- Turn away from the pain you dont want
- Turnin down to avoid them when they call
- I cant believe this letter says you died
- I think I'm gonna go back to the house in North Carolina
- Just lay in the backyard
- Get druk and let the leaves just bury me
- Bury me
- I can't smile
Pennsylvania Is...
- Jackson met a girl
- In a valley town
- They fell into a teenage love she'd grow to hate
- He's in prison now
- Since he beat her down
- He got her pregnant and she made it go away
- Hey
- Hey
- Hey
- Hey
- Pennsylvania
- I got a card today
- From a girl I know
- She used to live alone in Philadelphia
- She had to leave the state
- For a choice she made
- She said she feels just like a hostage in her home
- Hey
- Hey
- Hey
- Hey
- Pennsylvania
- You can close your eyes
- You can fall and die
- You can hope your laws will make it go away
- You can close your eyes
- But you cant make it go away
- You cant make it go away
- I just go a call
- From my uncle Mike
- He said he left his wife and he's not going back
- Said she changed her mind
- About a desire child
- I asked him if he wants a placement or a wife
- Hey
- Hey
- Hey
- Hey
- Pennsylvania is wrong!!!
Nervous & Weird
- You knwo I want to be
- The way you want me to
- Big hearted and tall enough to cover you
- I would break in half
- If you said it loud
- Splinter out of myself
- Just like Mercury
- I think it's better now
- Than how it used to be
- You were lying in bed
- And I would levitate
- I think it's better here
- Than where we used to be
- I wish I could go out into the Oregon Sun
- To be alive in the day
- I would smile at everyone
- I remember you
- Back in '83
- You were dressing insane
- You were my everything
- You were so different
- From all those other girls
- A blind electra in drag
- So cool and casually lame
- I think I'm better now
- Than how I used to be
- Always nervous and weird
- Scared most of the time
- I think it's better now
- Than how it used to be
- Alwasy up in the night
- Afraid to live in the day
- Afraid of being afraid
- Now I sit alone
- When you're not around
- I read aloud just to hear a friendly noise
- I see your scary dolls
- They all look at me
- From the corner of my eyes I see them shake their heads
- You know I want to be
- The way you want me to
- Big hearted and tall enough to cover you
- I wish I could go out and be alive in the day
Sparkle
- I remember when you
- Seemed real shiny with the sweat of your voice
- Shaky hands
- Super loud and teenage mouth
- We were all charmed and taken with your talk
- Now I shudder when I hear the rhythm of your walk
- Now I've got no place to go
- I've got no place to go
- I've got no one
- Nowhere
- No one
- I have given up on the sparkle that I saw in your eyes
- Yes I have sinned the sin of wanting more
- The belly fire pulls the spirit from the corporate
whore
- I'm embarassed by the plaid you wear
- If I were you I'd hide behind that stupid bleach blonde hair
- Now I've got no place to go
- I've got no one
- Nowhere
- No one
- I have given up on the sparkle that I saw in you
- Yeah that simple minded sparkle that I thought I saw
- Yes I have wondered why you've changed
- I like it when you were super loud
- I wonder if you're giving in
- Tell me why you're giving in
Trust Fund
- I know a couple who are in love living in the best of times
- A truer blue love you will never know
- Right next to pain they'll never realize
- Sheltered from it in a loving glow
- Young and happy and oh so politically correct
- Just get it if you need it now
- Just go buy it if you need it in your life
- Dont you worry if it all runs out
- Dont worry cuz it never will
- I know a young girl living in the shadow of
- The kind of life that she could never make
- She takes it all and gives it back in love
- To handsome artists in her native state
- She is the angel of the loser and the disenchanted soul
- Just get it if you need it now
- Just buy it if it makes you happy
- Dont worry if it all runs out
- Dont worry cuz it never will
Loser Makes Good
- I hate waking up
- Means I have to die again tonight
- 35 years old
- And I'm still sleeping outside
- Yeah I think I know your face
- I dont wanna know your name
- I won't give in
- I'm not like that
- I won't give in
- You say it's Christmas Eve
- That don't mean nothing to me
- Just another fucked up day
- Just another waste of time
- You wonder why I live like this man
- You just wont understand
- I wont give in
- I'm not like that
- I wont give in
- (sing song chorus)
- You smart ass college fuck
- Act like you think you're tall
- I was just like you
- More pride than you could know
- You think you pity me
- Hey I'll kick your ass if you pity me
- I wont give in
- I'm not like that
- No I wont give in to you
- (sing song chorus)
- You college boy
- Act like you think you're tall
- I wont give in
- I'm not liek that
- No I wont give in
Invisible
- I will live
- I will live
- Maybe for a year or two
- Maybe for a year
- I will die
- I will die
- i can rest secure in that
- I am goddamn sure that this thing aint no accident
- And I just cant believe that aids is just some act of god
- I will reach for you
- I will reach my hand
- No one will reach for me
- No one will touch my skin
- Yes I will accept
- I will accept my pain
- I dont deserve to die like this
- No one deserves to die like this
- Sometimes I get so mad that I just wanna break the world
- I will not be denied
- I will not be ignored
- I am not invisible anymore
- I will not be denied
- I will not be ignored
- I am real I wont go away
- I am not invisible anymore
- Sometimes I get so mad that I just wanna break the world
Evergleam
- Evergleam and I know why
- God is good and Jesus loves me
- Heaven lives and I know where
- Sounds to me a not so easy chair
- Falling free and living down
- Stringing out and over happy
- Evergleam and I know why
- It isnt real and I'm not going to break
- Dont die dont give into it
- No way
- No way
- Dont die
- Please dont leave me
- Evergleam and I know how
- Pulling hair and breaking voices
- Giving in wont stop the noise
- Spinning wills dont give you choices
- Give away the spark inside
- Give away the shining prize
- Evergleam and I know how
- It isnt real and I'm not going to break
- No I'm not going to break
- Evergleam
- Everywhere
- Ever weird
- Everyone
- I wont see you there
- I'm not going away
- No way
Sparkle And Fade
Electra Made Me Blind
- I shake the dust from this small town
- I turn and follow the western wind down
- I go and pack up my shiny things
- And go yeah just go
- I'll find a new life in old L.A.
- Yeah stupid happy with everything
- I pulled myself down so easily
- I know I know I know
- I met Electra when living down
- Saw her spinning around and around
- I never knew much about her past
- I knew enough that i didnt ask
- living isnt a simple thing
- I know
- No one said its supposed to be
- I know
- July she lied...
- Living isnt a simple thing for me
- I know ways to make it easier
Heroin Girl
- I used to know a girl
- She had two pierced nipples and a black tatoo
- We'd drink that Mexican beer
- We'd live on Mexican food
- Yes I widsh I could go back
- Yes back in time
- Esther used to be
- The kind of girl that you would never leave
- She'd do anything
- To give me what I need for my desease
- She'd do antyhing
- I can hear them talking in the real world
- But they dont understand
- That I'm happy in hell
- With my heroin girl
- I am losing myself in a white trash hell
- Lost inside a heroin girl
- They found her out in the field
- About a mile from home
- Her face was warm from the sun
- But her body was cold
- I heard a police man say
- Just another overdose...JUST ANOTHER OVERDOSE!!!
- Esther used to be
- The kind of lover you would never leave
- She'd do anything
- To give me what i need for my desease
- She would do anything
You Make Me Feel Like A Whore
- I take the world like it was gospel
- I'm so eager to please
- You I like it when
- You talk to me
- It feels so good inside your shadow
- (It's the place I need to be)
- Yeah I know I need to climb you
- Like a tree
- There is this place inside
- Where all the good things die
- Sometimes I feel like a whore
- (Sometimes I feel like a whore)
- I hate the way I am around
- (I'm so nervous and weird)
- Sometimes I feel like I'm
- Breathing under water
- You treat me like I am on fire
- Like I'm something to eat
- You make me hate what I see
- When I see me
- Yeah I dream of the day
- When I learn how to make you pay
- Someday I'll teach you to beg
- Someday, someday
- Yes I live for the day
- When I can hear you say
- You make me feel like a whore
- Yes I dream of the time
- When I can make you mine
- (Maybe then I'll feel half alive, more alive, so alive)
- There is this place inside
- Where all the good things die
- You make me feel like a whore
Santa Monica
- I am still living with your ghost
- Lonely and dreaming of the West Coast
- I don't wanna be your down time
- I don't wanna be your stupid game
- With my big black boots and an old suitcase
- I do believe I'll find myself a new place
- I don't wanna be the bad guys
- I don't wanna do your sleepwalk dance anymore
- I just wanna see some
- Palm trees
- Go and try and shake away this disease
- We can live beside the ocean
- Leave the fire behind
- Swin out past the breakers
- Watch the world die
- I am still dreaming of your face
- Hungry and hollow for all the things you took away
- I don't wanna be your good time
- I don't wanna be your fall-back crutch anymore
- I'll walk right up into a brand new day
- Insane and rising in my own weird way
- I dont wanna be the bad guy
- I dont wanna do your sleepwalk dance anymore
- I just wanna feel some
- Sunshine
- I just wanna find some place to be alone
- (chorus)
Summerland
- Let's just drive your car
- We could drive all day
- Let's just get the hell away from here
- For I am sick again
- Just plain sick to death
- Of the sound of my own voice
- We could leave behind another wasted year
- Get some cheap red wine and just go flying
- We could do the things,
- All the things you wanted to
- No one cares about us anyway
- I think I lost my smile
- I think you lost yours too
- We have lost the power to make each other laugh
- Let's just leave this place
- And go to Summerland
- Just a name on the map
- Sounds like heaven to me
- We could find a town
- Be just how we want to be
- No one here really cares about us anyway
- We could find a place
- Make it what we want it to be
- No one really gives a fuck about us anyway
- We could live just like we want to live
- No one here really cares about us anyway
- We could be everything we want to be
- We could get lost in the Fall
- Glimmer Sparkle and Fade
- The Sparkle and Fade
- Fall Glimmer Sparkle and Fade
- Forget about our jobs at the record store
- Forget about all the losers that we know
- Forget about all the memories that keep you down
- Forget about them
- We could lose them in the Sparkle and Fade
- We could leave them behind in the Sparkle and Fade
- Yeah Sparkle and Fade
- Fall Glimmer Sparkle and Fade
Strawberry
- Never been here, never coming back
- Never want to think about the things
- That happened today
- Want to lay down on the warm ground
- I think I'm going to need a little time to myself
- Don't fall down now
- You will never get up
- Don't fall down now
- I ask you for a slow ride
- Going nowhere
- You look like Satan
- You ask me if I want to get high
- Couple of bags down in old town
- You tie your arm and
- Ask me if I wanted to drive
- Don't fall down now
- You will never get up
- Don't fall down now
- Last thing I recall
- I was in the air
- I woke up on the street
- Crawling with my strawberry burns
- Ten long years in a straight line
- They fall like water
- Yes, I guess I fucked up again
- Don't fall down now
- You will never get up
- Don't fall down now
Heartspark Dollarsign
- Time stops when the whispers blare
- The voices drop hard, but the eyes still stare
- The world resolves into a death's head grin
- Because I walk with pride with a black girlfriend
- My mom said not to bring her around
- 'Cause she's black my family would put her down
- I'll break the white-trash ties that bind
- Trade a love so pure for a hate so blind
- She said, she said
- Forget the fact that I don't look like you
- She said, she said
- You're possessed with a power
- Bigger than the pain
- Time stops when we lie so close
- In my room where we share what no one knows
- From the day that we start
- Until the day that we end
- I know I know I know now
- We will never find a place where we can just fit in
- Me and my black girlfriend
- She said, she said
- Fend for yourself, you're alone
- She said, she said
- You are possessed with a power
- Bigger than the pain
- A power bigger than the pain
- Heartspark Dollarsign
The Twistinside
- We have been sleeping with the lights on
- Just about every night
- Because we are afraid of what the dark might bring
- I know, I know it's just a childish fear
- That grows and grows wild in the middle of me
- I'm gonna get a new tattoo
- Black and stretching around my arm
- Like a life that is visible and real
- I know, I know it's stupid and immature
- I just want to give shape to the face
- That twists inside both you and me
- Breathing fire doesn't look good on a resume
- Neither does anything else we do
- We got to get ready for the real world
- Yeah yeah we got to grow up
- You know I like to die for awhile
- Everyday in the afternoon
- I like to let the arms of a bar wrap around me tight
- I'mjust going to sprawl in the front booth
- Big drink above my head
- Cross eyed and smiling as I watch the world go twisting by
- I don't want to die with you,
- Or live in the same dark room
- I don't want to see your bloodshot eyes no more,
- No more
- I just want to take this girl
- All curls and big brown eyes
- Man I can't take the pain of wanting her, needing her
- I know the secret of your soul
- And I just don't want to know
- Yeah, man we got to grow up
Her Brand New Skin
- She is everywhere I am
- Yeah when I don't want her to be there
- I kinda want to leave in a hurry
- She's walking on the city
- Heavy in her monster boots
- I hear her calling my name
- I hide behind the people that I want to be
- I hear her calling my name
- I can see the future when she tells me how it's
- going to be
- She is perpetual Kathy
- All shake and happy in her brand new skin
- She is perpetual Kathy
- She is always the same
- She is everything that I'm not
- Strong and happy with the sound of the rhythm inside
- I do not want to be a broken record,
- But I don't want to live in the shadow of a twelve-step
- I hear her calling my name
- Next thing you know I think I'll want to be a better man
- I hear her calling my name
- Yeah, I used to be a devil but they never seemed to give a damn
- chorus
Nehalem
- There is this rumor about
- They say you're leaving Nehalem
- Ever since our baby died
- You've been seen with another guy
- The whole damn town is talking now
- They say you're leaving Nehalem
- Hey don't you want me to go?
- Hey don't you want me?
- They say you're losing your mind
- They say you're leaving Nehalem
- You know how the bad words get around
- Big noise in a hard small town
- Tell me if you want me to go
- Just tell me if you want me
- They say you're leaving Nehalem
- They say you're leaving me
- Yeah, I know you need to break away
- I don't give a fuck about what those people say
- I hope you find everywhere you go
- All the good things that you need to know
- They say you're losing your mind
- They say you're leaving Nehalem
- There is this rumor out
- They say you're leaving Nehalem
- They say you're leaving me
- They say you're leaving Nehalem
- I know you're leaving me
- I know you're leaving Nehalem
- I know you're leaving me
Queen Of The Air
- There is a dream I used to have
- My dream swallowed me whole
- There is a bridge where I hate to go
- That is where I first saw her
- High on the bridge I seen her red hair shining
- There is a girl I never knew
- She was my Aunt Virginia
- They said that she, she just disappeared
- They said I look just like her
- High on the bridge I seen her dancing, waving to me there
- She smiled and raised her head
- Then she took to the Air
- There is a dream I can't escape
- My memories come back to me
- There is a hell I can't escape
- My memories come back to me
- I heard the truth about it
- Pictures and headlines hidden away
- I heard the truth about my real mom
- Jumping from the bridge that day
- Now I know why ever since I was 3 years old
- Been having the same nightmare
- Now I know the truth about Virginia
- Why she took to the air
Pale Green Stars
- Amanda is in love with the sight of the moon
- She's got pale green stars in her room
- Right above her bed
- Put them on the ceiling
- Leave on the light
- When the sun goes down then the stars might shine
- Shining in the dark
- Skinny little girl in her room alone
- She's got hell to spare in her home
- If you can call it a home
- Doesn't want to be like anybody else
- When no one is around she talks to herself
- I can hear her in the night
- Hey, hey yeah
- It's hard on a girl
- When the blood won't come when it ought to come
- It's hard on a girl
- When you try to walk around on the shaky ground
- Hey, hey
- Daddy's going away
- Scared little girl watching Aladdin on TV
- Amanda always cries when you yell at me
- Yeah, please don't yell at me
- Climb up all the stairs
- Close the door
- Doesn't want to hear us fighting anymore
- Yeah, better call it a day
- Hey, hey yeah
- It's hard on a young girl
- She thinks it's all her fault when it all goes wrong
- It's hard on a grown man too
- To see my baby crying at the window calling out my name
- Hey hey
- Daddy's going away
- She's got pale green stars in her room
Chemical Smile
- She lost her focus yesterday
- She lost her focus in the sun
- She sits and stares at it for hours
- She says she likes to go outside
- She gets hung up on the wind
- She gets lost inside the happy noise
- times I don't understand her
- imes I don't want to understand her
- She says no, no, no, no, no, no
- She don't want no double life
- She says I should know why
- She seems happier at night
- Her color TV and her chemical smile
- I don't wanna know the reason
- I don't wanna know the reason
- I don't wanna know the reason why
- She says, she says, she says, she says, she says
- Jesus owes her money
- She says, she says, she says, she says, she says
- The angels are her friends
- What the hell does that mean?
- She's got the chemical smile
- Yeah she's got a chemical smile
- Yeah she's got the chemical smile
- Baby's got a chemical smile
- She says, she says...
My Sexual Life
- People you know try to tell you things
- Bad things that you don't want to know about
- Tell you tomorrow what you did today
- Just remember, it's a small town
- It's a real small town
- She gets tired of all the stupid boys
- She can't wait until they're done
- She wants a man who can take his time
- She wants someone who can make her come
- Yeah, can you make me come
- You always say you want a simple life
- You and me both know that you are a liar
- You always say you want a simple life
- Hearing you talk just makes me tired
- Swim in the heavy water
- Buried in the sand
- Happy hearts fall from my shaky hands
- I can't hide my sexual life
- He always says he wants to find a special one
- But you watch his head go spinning around
- He really wants anyone who'll give it up
- He seems to forget he's in a small town
- You always say you never fuck around
- You say this town is just plain full of liars
- Yeah you always say you never fuck around
- Hey, hearing you talk just makes me tired
- Swimming in the heavy water
- Buried in the sand
- Happy hearts fall from my stupid hands
- I can't hide my sexual life
- My Sexual Life
So Much For The Afterglow
So Much For The Afterglow
- This is a song about Susan
- This is a song about the girl next door
- This is a song abou tthe everyday occurences
- That make me feel like letting go
- Yes I think we got a problem
- So much fr the afterglow
- This is a song about Susan
- This is a song about the way things are
- This is a song about the scary things
- You see from the corner of your eyes
- Dont you wonder why?
- We never talk about the future
- We never takl about the past anymore
- We never ask ourselves the questions
- To the answers that nobody
- Even wants to know
- I guess the honeymoon is over
- So much for the afterglow
- I remember we could talk about anything
- I remember when we used to want to hang out
- I remember we could talk about anything
- I remember when we used to wanna hang out
- I remember we could talk about anything
- I remember when we used to wanna hang out
- I remember when we used to wanna hang out
- I remember we could talk about anything
- I remember I remember I remember
- We never talk about the future
- We never talk abou thte past anymore
- We never ask ourselves the questions
- To the answers that nobody even wants to know
- Oh well oh well oh well
- So much for the afterglow
- Oh well oh well oh well
- So much for the afterglow
- Oh well oh well oh well oh well
- Yes I guess we need the drama
- (So much for the afterglow)
Everything To Everyone
- You put yourself in stupid places
- Yes I think you know it's true
- Situations where it's easy to look down on you
- I think you like to be the victim
- I think you like o be in pain
- I think you make yourself a victim almost every single day
- You do what you do
- You say what you say
- You try to be everything to everyone
- You know all the right people
- You play all the right games
- You always try to be everything to everyone
- Yeah you do it again
- You always do it again
- You say they taught you to read and write
- Yeah they taught you how to count
- I say they tought you how to buy and sell your own
- body by the pound
- I think you like to be their simple toy
- I think you love to play the clown
- I think you are blind to the fact that the hand you
- hold is the hand that holds you down
- chorus
- Spin around and fall down
- Do it again
- You stumble and fall
- Yeah why don't you ever learn
- Spin around and fall down
- Do it again
- You stumble and you fall
- I wonder if you will ever learn
- Yeah why won't you ever learn
- Come on now
- Do that stupid dance for me
- You do what you do
- You say what you say
- You try to be everything to everyone
- You jump through the big hoop
- You play all the right games
- You try to be everything to everyone
- Spin around and fall down
- Do it again
- You stumble and you fall
- Yeah you do it again
- Spin around and fall down
- Do it again
- You stumble and you fall
Normal Like You
- Yeah they said you called me maybe yesterday
- I don't even have the strength to pick up the phone
- You wouldn't even know me since you went away
- The Prozac doesn't do it for me anymore
- Yeah you ought to take your medication every day
- Be a good dog, live life in a wonderful way
- Tell me why you want to be blind
- I don't want to be normal like you
- I know now every day
- I get closer to the place inside
- Where I can be normal too
- I heard those stupid people talk about you again
- I just have to laugh to keep from hurting bad
- Their simple minds just cannot seem to understand
- You are neurotic and depressed
- It doesn't mean that you're sad
- You walk around oblivious to everything
- You wear that party dress, black mascara
- Like you're queen for the day
- chorus
- I will never be normal like you
- You walk around oblivious to everyone
- I see you walking slow and simple underneath the big black sun
- Tell me why you want to be blind
- I don't want to be normal like you
- I know now every day
- I get closer to the place inside
- Where I can be complacent
- I get closer to the place inside
- Where I can be sedated
- Yes I get closer to the place inside
- Where I can be normal too, I can be normal too
- I can be normal like you
I Will Buy You A New Life
- Here is the money that I owe you
- So you can pay the bills
- I will give you more when I get paid again
- I hate those people who love to tell you
- Money is the root of all that kills
- They have never been poor
- They have never had the joy of a welfare Christmas
- I know we will never look back
- You say you wake up crying
- Yes and you don't know why
- You get up and you go lay down inside my baby's room
- I guess i'm doing ok
- I moved in with the strangest guy
- Can you believe he actually thinks that I am really alive
- I will buy you a garden where your flowers can bloom
- I will buy you a new car, perfect shiny and new
- I will buy you that big house way up in the west hills
- I will buy you a new life
- Yes I will
- I know all about that other guy
- The handsome man with athletic thighs
- I know about all the times before
- With that obsessive little rich boy
- They might think you're happy
- Yeah maybe for a minute or two
- They can't make you laugh
- No they can't make you feel the way that I do
- chorus
- I know we can never look back
- Will you please let me stay the night
- No one will ever know
- chorus
Father Of Mine
- Father of mine
- Tell me where have you been
- You know I just closed my eyes
- My whole world disappeared
- Father of mine
- Take me back to the day
- When I was still your golden boy
- Back before you went away
- I remember the blue skies, walking the block
- I loved it when you held me high
- I loved to hear you talk
- You would take me to the movie
- You would tke me to the beach
- Take me to a place inside that is so hard to reach
- Father of mine
- Tell me where did you go
- You had the world inside your hand
- But you did not seem to know
- Father of mine
- Tell me what do you see
- When you look back at your wasted life and you don't see me
- I was ten years old
- Doing all that i could
- It wasn't easy for me to be a scared white boy in a black neighborhood
- Sometimes you would send me a birthday card
- With a five dollar bill
- I never understood you then and I guess I never will
- Daddy gave me a name
- My dad he gave me a name
- Then he walked away
- Daddy gave me a name
- Then he walked away
- My dad he gave me a name
- Father of mine
- Tell me where have you been
- I just closed my eyes
- And the world disappeared
- Father of mine
- Tell me how do you sleep
- With the children you abandoned
- And the wife I saw you beat
- I will never be safe
- I will never be sane
- I will always be weird inside
- I will always be lame
- Now I am a grown man
- With a child of my own
- And I swear I'm not going to let her know
- All the pain I have known
- Then he walked away
- Daddy gave me a name
- Then he walked away
- My dad he gave me a name
- Then he walked away
One Hit Wonder
- Loopy says he likes it up on top
- Yes he knows if he ever lets go
- The pretty machine will swallow him whole
- He has no fear
- He has no sense of shame
- He will not stop until everybody everywhere wants to know his name
- The one hit wonder
- He likes the big time
- He says he wants to live the kind of life
- That will make the folks back home all bitch and whine
- He knows if he ever even gets the chance
- He'd sell his soul to make the monster dance
- They can't hurt you unless you let them
- Loopy says he sure does like the good life
- Yes he knows all those women who scheme
- Are just pretty pictures in the pretty machine
- He knows if he ever even gets to try
- He will bite down hard to make the monster cry
- He knows if he ever even gets a chance
- He'd sell his soul to make the monster dance
- They can't hurt you unless you let them
- I will say it again
- They cannot hurt you unless you let them
- Loopy says he likes it up on top
- He prays to god and he hopes like hell
- That the pretty machiene
- They will never fail
- He has no fear
- He doesn't really even have the time
- He knows that the world is in love
- With the pretty machine
- The one hit wonder
- He likes the big time
- He wants to live the kind of life
- That will make the folks back home scream, bitch, and whine
- He knows if he ever even gets to try
- He will bite down hard to make the monster cry
- He knows if he ever even gets a chance
- He'd sell his soul to make the monster dance
- He knows if he ever even gets to play
- He will stomp like god to make the monster say
- They can't hurt you unless you let them
- They cannot hurt you unless you let them
Amphetamine
- She came out west to find the sun
- She lost her name but found a new one
- Amy goes to school all day
- But at night in the neighborhood they call her Amphetamine
- She is perfect in that fucked up way
- That all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days
- She looks like a teenage anthem
- She looks like she used to be happy with the girl inside
- She looks so bored sometimes
- And she has that super pale skin and those soft green eyes
- She looks like she could have been happy in a better life
- She came out west just to break away clean
- From her family and her friends and a little girl's dream
- All she wants to do every night
- Is to sit beside my window and listen to the sirens
- She is perfect in that fucked up way
- That all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days
- She looks like a teenage anthem
- And she looks like she should have been happy in another life
- In another life
- She came out west just to break the spell
- After three long years in a marriage from hell
- Six months clean living sober and right
- Her doctors tell her everything will be alright
- Yeah, you just take your pill
- And everything will be alright
- She looks like a teenage anthem
- She looks like a magazine girl
- She looks like a teenage anthem
- Like she used to be happy in another world
- She looks like a teenage anthem
- She is happy with the girl inside
- She looks like a teenage anthem
- And looks like she could have been happy in another life
- In another life
- Happy in another life
- Met her at a party and I took her home
- She is the saddest girl that I have ever known
- She wakes up in the middle of the night
- Just to tell me everything will be alright
- Amy smiles at me and tells me everything will be alright
- I tell myself the same damn thing
- Everyday
- Everything will be alright
White Men In Black Suits
- I am just a boy working in a record store
- Yes I moved to San Francisco just to see what I could be
- I am a loser geek, crazy with an evil streak
- Yes I do believe there is a violent thing inside of me
- She is just a girl, she is doing what she can
- She dances topless
- When she's not playing in her band
- Such a pretty girl, happy in an ugly place
- Watching all the pretty people do lots of ugly things
- I think it's getting better for the two of us
- Yes I think it's getting better almost everyday
- I could give a damn for what those people say
- All I want to do is lose myself in your room
- All you want is just a slow fuck in the afternoon
- I still see those scary guys when I am all alone at night
- I kiss the ring you gave me then I swing with all my might
- I think it's getting better for the two of us
- I think it's getting easier for you and me to agree
- That the white men in black suits
- They are diminishing
- Yes I think they are diminishing
- Yes I think that they diminish you, and they diminish me
- I think they are diminishing
- You know sometimes I hear those people say
- Yeah she takes a bus
- Over to the north side of the city
- She goes to work stripping for the rich white men
- All the words they give her
- Make her feel so soft and pretty
- She wears them but they never seem to fit
- Yes I think it's getting better for the two of us
- Yes I think it's getting better in the worst way
- I refuse to be afraid of almost anyone
- Afraid of all the things they do, all the words that they say
- Let's live the way we want to live and hope they go away
- I really hope they go away
- I really hope they find a nice place
- I hope they find it somewhere
- I hope they go away
- I can still hear all those people say
Sunflowers
- I know where you go when you want to fall
- Why do you want to be broken?
- I know where you go when you want to fall
- Yes your friends they tell me everything
- Yes I know where you go
- Yes I know what you do
- Yes I know the awful things you say and who you say them to
- Yes I know where you go
- Yes I know what you do
- I know how you feel, you get crazy inside
- They say it runs in the family
- I know just how you feel when you get crazy inside
- Your mom she said that you are just like me
- I can see it in your eyes
- I can see your shaky hands
- Yes I think you think i'm stupid
- You don't think I understand
- Yes I see you and I see myself when I was a younger man
- When you were a child
- You were happy and free
- You were my reason to live
- I would die when you smiled at me
- I can still see you
- I remember you painting
- Sunflowers in your room
- I know where you go when you want to fall
- Hey don't you want to be happy?
- I know where you go when you want to fall
- Your useless friends, they tell me everything
- Everything
- I see you run around in circles
- I see you digging your own hole
- I see you fight the fights you just can't win
- I see you losing self control
- What it does to me deep down inside I hope you will never know
- When you were a child
- You were happy and free
- You were my reason to live
- I would die when you smiled at me
- I can still see you
- Painting flowers on the wall
- I remember you happy
- I remember it all
- chorus
- All I want to remember
- Pretty pictures on the wall
- I remember you happy
- I remember it all
- All I want to remember
- Sunflowers in your room
Why I Don't Believe In God
- I heard the truth about you
- And it really doesn't read at all
- Like the whipping stick you raised me with
- A scared woman in a private hell
- Hushed voice like electric bell
- Strange talk about Edgar Cayce and the long lame walk of the dark 70's
- Strange talk about Edgar Cayce and the long lame walk of the dark 70's
- I heard the truth about you
- Yeah you
- Mama they woke me up
- I was deep in an idiot sleep
- I was just eight years old
- Heard big words with a horrible sound
- Why'd they have to call my school
- Tell me my mother had a nervous breakdown
- I wish I believed like you do
- Yeah you
- In the myth of a merciful god
- In the myth of a heaven and hell
- I hear the voices you hear sometimes
- Sometimes it gets so much I feel like letting go
- Sometimes it gets so hard I feel like letting go
- Sometimes it gets so goddamn hard I feel like letting it all go
- Letting it all go
- I ran away, went looking for you
- Back to Culver City and the old neighborhood
- Need to know if you were really gone
- Need to know if you were gone for good
- I ran through the projects at night
- Hide in the dark from my friends in the light
- Hide from my brother-in-law
- Hide from the things he'd say
- Said you weren't losing your mind
- He said you just needed a rest
- He said you'd be coming home soon
- He said the doctors there would know what's best
- Said that maybe I could go live with them for a while
- I know the truth about you
- I know the truth
- Mama they woke me up
- I was just eight years old
- Sometimes it gets so hard I feel like letting it go
- Sometimes it gets so hard I feel like letting it go
- Letting it all go
Like A California King
- I see you have made yourself a brand new life
- Such a cool blue star with a bright new shine
- I see you wear your checkered past just like a shining suit of gold
- I know you think you look so special
- I am told you have found yourself a brand new time
- Watch the world stand still as the years go by
- I know you think you are so new and different
- But it makes no sense to me
- There is nothing new about you
- Just another self-made man
- There is nothing new that I can see
- Enjoy it while you can
- I know you think you look so special
- What makes you think you are so special?
- What makes you think you are unique?
- I see you smile and I get angry
- As i watch you go collosal
- Like a California King
- (All these Californians, coming up here and changing everything; they're just a bunch of carpetbaggers and I wish they'd all just go--)
- Go!
- I hear you gave the world a brand new voice
- Such a happy melody with a new wave whine
- Yeah I see you hide behind your own noise
- I think I've seen enough
- I will find you in the crowded room
- I will knock you off your feet
- I will burn you just like teenage love
- I will eat you just like meat
- I will break you into pieces
- Hold you up for all the world to see
- What makes you think you're better than me?
- What makes you think you're better?
- What makes you think you are complete?
- What makes you think you are the only one immune to falling down
- Why can't you see
- I see you fall and I get happy
- I will watch you burn like fire
- I will watch you burn like a California King
I will Be Hating You For Christmas(hidden song)
- Thanks for the Christmas card
- I don't want to hear about your new job now
- I don't want to hear about your new boyfriend
- I don't want to hear about it all working out for you
- No, I don't want to hear it now
- I don't want to hear about your swinging new place
- I don't want to hear how everyone thinks it's great
- I just want to sit in our apartment and hate you
- Yes, I will be hating you for Christmas
- You can have the Christmas tree
- Remember when we bought it at the store down the street?
- Remember when I found that cheesy color wheel?
- I don't want to think about the lights on your white skin
- No, I don't want to think about it
- I don't want to think about last year at your dad's
- You said it was the best sex that we both ever had
- I don't want to think about my face in your soft hair
- I will be hating you for Christmas...
- I must be losing my mind
- There's gotta be a better way to deal with the pain
- There's gotta be a better way to deal with the hate
- Wish that I could find some way to make you go away
- Wish that I could have a drink and make you fade
- I wish that I could have myself a drink and make you fade
- I wish that I could have a drink and make you go away
- Yeah make you go away
- Wish that I could make you go away
- I will be hatng you for Christmas
- Yeah I will be hating you for Christmas...
- Thanks for the Christmas card