With much effort my eyes opened. There was a sound of giggling in the room. It hurt to look anywhere to the side, so I kept my vision on one thing.
'Oh look who woke up!' I heard someone shriek, seconds later Liz appeared by my side with a huge grin 'Hello there!'
'What happened?' I managed to ask.
'You drank to much' Someone else replied, I couldn't see who it was though.
'I told you to stay away from the bar!' Liz told me sternly 'Now you're in a hospital!'
'I am?' I rubbed my head 'Sorry'
'Sean found you' A voice told, my head didn't register the sound with the face.
'Lucky you!' Liz poked me in the arm.
'Sean' I mouthed, suddenly Melanie popped up in my view 'He's your hero now'
'Sean...' I chocked on my words, trying to remember what happened 'Sean raped me'
I finished off my breakfast and put the plate aside. No one seemed to be talking much at the table. Everyone except for Amanda was falling asleep. She on the other hand sat there, staring into her cup of coffee.
'I can't be in a video today' J whined 'I need sleep. I look like crap!'
'Chris won't care' Abs told him 'They'll probably put tons of make up on us'
'Maybe if you wouldn't be partying all night long...' Scott looked at them in a motherly fashion.
'Oh please' Ritch waved his hand at him 'What did you do yesterday?'
I looked at Scott amused wondering what kind of an excuse he would come up with. From the corner of my eye I saw Amanda looking at him expectantly.
'I...I' He stuttered 'I watched tv with Autumn, right?'
All sets of eyes turned on me now, now I knew how he felt. I nodded slowly with a strained smile.
'You passed up clubbing to watch TV?!' J spat in disbelief 'That's not like you'
'There was something on TV I wanted him to see' I jumped. Scott gave me a thankful look and nodded to the lads.
'She has him whipped' I heard Abs mumbled. I ignored it, if I had him whipped he wouldn't be going off kissing Amanda. I looked at her, she continued staring down into her cup. I leaned towards her secretly when no one was looking.
'You owe me' I whispered. Her head jolted up, she looked at me frightened then bowed her head slowly.
'You tell him soon...or I will' I told her firmly and rose from the table.
I walked slowly towards the elevator. I must have been really spaced out since I knocked into something on my way.
'I'm so sorry' I apoligized quickly without bothering to look who it was.
'Amanda' I heard someone say 'Are you okay?'
I snapped out of my thoughts and looked up, Scott was standing within few inches of me. He had a worried look on his face that made me wish I would never seen it.
'I'm fine' I told him and brushed past him as quickly as I could. He instead caught up with me within seconds.
'You can't ignore me forever' He said, grabbing onto my hand.
'Why can't you just...just leave me alone! This is wrong Scott!' I cried out. He pushed into a small corner from everyone else's sight.
'Amanda, I know you're confused right now' He whispered, pulling few hairs out of my eyes 'But can you honestly stand here right now and deny what happened?' In my head I kept trying to prove to myself that it was all wrong. But standing there, facing him, his hands holding mine. I couldn't think of anything to prove it was wrong.
'I know that Ritch has strong feelings but...' He stopped suddenly and released my hands 'Do you love him?'
The question was blunt. Maybe I would answer yes within seconds to him but somehow I couldn't. I couldn't tell him Ritch is all I think about, Ritch is first thing and last thing I see when I go to sleep.
'I don't...know' I sobbed 'Scott, everything is so confusing!'
'Its okay' He whispered, drawing me closer, embracing me in his arms. I could hear his heart beating in a rhytmitic motion into my ear. I hugged him tighter, wishing never to be left alone. He pulled away and looked at me with no expression. I tired to figure out what he was thinking but my mind went blank when his lips meet mine.
Liz and I helped Becky get into the cab. She was still to weak to stand on her own but we didn't want to keep her in that hospital.
'Where too?' The driver asked.
'86th St and 11th Ave' Liz told him. Me and Becky looked at her confused.
'We're going to the set?' Becky asked.
'Might as well' Liz shrugged 'They won't be at the hotel'
'But Becky is too weak, we should get her into a bed!' I exclaimed, irritated by Liz's careless behavior.
'She'll sit with Chris, maybe even suck up a bit' Liz shrugged again 'He was quite mad'
'Oh God' Becky mumbled as she slid down in her seat.
'Besides' Liz leaned in closer to me 'You can tell Scott how you feel, the sooner the better'
I looked at her speechless. I knew she was going to make me face him sooner that I thought. I don't even know what to say to him. 'Hi Scott...guess what? I love you!'
I sighed heavily and put my head back 'Maybe I should tell Abs first'
'Tell him what?' Liz looked at me puzzled.
'That this isn't going to work out'
'True' She nodded 'Break away from Abs so you'll be free for Scott'
'Let's just hope Scott will take me back' I whispered to no one in particular.
