I walked in circles in Ritch's room. Impatient with him and his behavior.
'Stop walking!' He ordered fiercely from behind his shoulder. I stopped at his command and watched him as his hands moved about on the small coffee table.
'I can't do this' I admitted it after some thinking 'Ritch, we can't do this'
Ritch's head turned slowly to face me, his eyebrow was slightly arched and his lips pressed together.
'Don't lie' He said sternly 'Don't lie to yourself. He used you, you'll use him'
I paced over to the window and sighed. The bare trees seen from above were swaying slightly from the wind. My mind relaxed a bit as I sighed.
'I'm a bad liar' I told him, hoping he wouldn't make me do this.
I heard him move his chair from the table and stand up. Seconds later he was standing beside me, looking out onto the Manhattan skyline.
'You have potential Autumn' Ritch said quietly 'I saw you do everything to stop Mel from Scott. Don't tell me you can't lie. You can do so many things.'
'Have you thought of the circumstances?!' I cried out, turning to him. 'You're in the same band, you everywhere together. I don't want to be the one who breaks that up'
His face was calm. 'You won't be the one. He is, he's the one who breaks that group apart'
I sighed heavily again, he wouldn't let this go, even against my will. 'What do I have to do?'
Ritch smiled, he got his way now. He walked back to the table and picked up a small piece of paper.
'I checked everything, and it all works out perfectly' He nodded to himself 'Two months ago you met him, 2 months ago you fell pregnant to his child'
'Its all a lie' I told myself.
'Believe it or not, he has to act like a father'
'1..2..3 STEP...1...2...3 Clap!' I showed off my newest dance routine to Liz. She looked at me with half closed eyes and yawned.
'I need new friends' I muttered to myself and continued dancing.
There was a knock on the door, seeing that Liz wouldn't bother to get it, I gracefully slid towards it.
'Hi Becky' Sean's shy voice greeted me.
'What do you want?' I mumbled, clearing the way for him.
'I just need to talk to you' He told me, gesturing for me to walk outside the room. I looked back at where Liz was laying. She has fallen asleep quickly. I wished secretly she hasn't.
'Fine' I gave in and followed him out onto the hall.
'How are you feeling?' He asked once few feet away from the room.
'Good' I admitted 'Better then this morning'
'Look, I'm sorry'
'You should be' I told him with a nod 'You supplied my drinks!'
'Right' He nodded slightly, I knew there was something else he wanted to tell me. 'I don't know if you remember anything from last night'
'I remember the drinks' I laughed slightly 'And more drinks...oooh AND more drinks'
'Do you remember anything before you passed out?'
I pondered momentarily then smiled weakly 'I remember you being there.'
'Yes!' He clapped his hands 'We were close to...doing it'
'We were?' I rubbed my forehead 'I thought we did it'
'No!' He cried out 'We didn't!'
'Oh'
'I just wanted to straighten this out' He explained and began walking away.
'Thats it?' I called after him. He nodded and continued walking. I stood there watching him, feeling as if I was losing something.
'Sean!' I called out 'Wait up'
He stopped and turned to me.
'Would you like to learn some of my dance steps?'
He broke into laughter and nodded 'Might as well'
I looked up into Scott's eyes that were dazing at me. I realized how comforting they were.
'What are you thinking about?' He asked softly.
'Just how good it feels to be with you' I told him and rested my head on his chest.
'What's going to happen when we return to England?'
He sighed, my head went up and down motional with his chest. 'Many things, I guess' He replied 'But we'll get through this'
I rose and looked at him. 'Do you promise?'
'Of course' He put his hand on my cheek 'We'll be there for each other'
'I don't know Scott' I sat up 'There are so many people out there right now that don't understand what happened with us'
'Why do you care what they think?' He asked me 'Isn't your opinion the most important one. What is your opinion?'
'I would be confused too' I admitted 'I think am... it's just, everything happened so quickly'
'It was love at second sight' Scott whispered in my ear and kissed me so softly I didn't know if it was just my dream or true reality.
I walked slowly through the hallway, stopping at one door. It was Scott's room. No noise was coming from it. He must have gone out. With Amanda? I sighed heavily yet didn't move. I wanted so badly to go in and lie down in his bed, maybe he would come in and see me there, lie down next to me. Oh what I would give to feel his body next to me. My hand dropped to the side, making everything I was holding to fall down. I groaned inwardly and got on the floor to pick up my belongings.
Once again my mind began to wonder. This time though I vision Abs. He was holding me closely to his body then it all went blank. I snapped back with a weird feeling. At the other end of the hall I notice someone come out of the room. It was the girl I saw. Abs came out too. Their talking was faint but I could see he was apologizing to her. She nodded understandingly, finally kissing him on the cheek and walking away. I wasn't gone so long, they couldn't have possibly done it. So what happened? I realized she was coming into my direction. Picking up the last of my things, I dashed to the elevator and closed the door before she could reach it.
