Hi, everyone, welcome to my page of poems (nope, none of them ryhme!) and short stories. Basically, whatever came to my mind, I wrote down; so some may be real short, some may be long. I must warn you, some of these will be sad ones, some are angry ones, some may have "bad language", so be prepared (there are some happy ones here too, don't worry)! Please note, I am not an expert by any means - I took no classes or anything, I just wrote how I feel and what I feel (also sometimes called "freewriting"). I just started this page, so more will be coming soon. Any comments would be appreciated. :)
CONFUSED
I feel confused today.
Don't know what I'm doing
Where I'm going?
What's happening to me?
Where am I?
Too many emotions all at once
Why is this happening?
Why am I feeling this way?
What do I want to do with my life?
Where is it going?
I have no clue about anything
I am just there in outerspace
I feel confused today
Is there no end to this feeling?
Why am I being punished?
Why are all these emotions coming at once?
Why, I ask you? Why?
I feel confused today.
© 2001 – By Starr
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FRUSTRATED
I am so angry now I could burst
Things I could have done
Things I should have done
Things I want to do
I am so frustrated
Why can't I be like everyone else?
Why can't I get it together?
I am angry and frustrated
And that's no fun!
© 2001 – By Starr
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Depressed
At times I get depressed
Feels like the world is coming down on me
Seems like no one cares
Seems like the world is passing me by
I feel empty, vacated
I feel tired and fatigued
Don't feel like doing anything
Just there
I don't know what to do anymore
I feel lost
Is there anyone that can help me?
I know someone can
I'll snap out of this, I know I will
It'll take some time, but I have faith
All I have to do is believe
All I need is to believe in myself
© 2001 – By Starr
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ANXIOUS
Scared, confused, paniked, sleeplessness
Can't sleep tonight - can't you tell?
It's late, I am still awake
I want to get to bed, but it's hard
Afraid to go to sleep
What if I have a strange dream?
It's not good feeling this way
ONE MUST STOP
It's okay, I got the TV to keep me calm
Guess what's on the TV? Duran Duran of course! :)
© 2001 – By Starr
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HAPPY
I feel great!
I feel wonderful!
I am so happy!
I am jumping for joy!
The birds are singing
The sun is shining
The weather is fine
And I am fine
I have never felt this happy in a long time
It's a great feeling to have
I FEEL SO HAPPY!
I FEEL GREAT!
I want to dance
I want to sing
My heart is filled with glee
I am energetic
I am excited
I AM SO HAPPY
I feel so alive!
I feel so alive!
I feel so alive!
I feel so alive!
© 2001 – By Starr
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FEELING WONDERFUL
Feeling wonderful is such a great feeling. It's too bad we all don't feel this way 24-7 huh? Why is that? Why is that we don't feel wonderful all the time? That would be too easy wouldn't it? In a "perfect world", though, that can be the case.
But we are not in a "perfect world", so therefore we all will have our ups and downs (some of us have more down days than ups, some of us have more up days than down, some of us fall in the middle - having both up and down days, and then you get some that are all mixed up, stuck in limbo).
So tonight, I am feeling wondeful! I am fabulous. I haven't been feeling this way in a couple of days, so this is fine by me. My one advice for everyone (myself included) - It's not a nice world out there and when life gets you down, there is light at the end of the tunnel. It may not happen overnight, but it will happen.
I AM FEELING WONDERFUL!
© 2001 – By Starr
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THE RAIN POUNDED
The rain pounded heavily.
Against my window.
The rain pounded heavily.
Against the cement ground.
Lightning flashing a silver bright line in the sky.
Through the darken skies, the rain pounded heavily.
The thunder blows out a heavy roar.
The wind howls.
The trees shake.
The leaves fly.
The rain pounded heavily.
I am not afraid.
I am in my room.
I am under the covers.
I am safe.
The rain pounded heavily.
Against my window.
The rain pounded heavily.
Against the cement floor.
I am safe.
Nothing can happen.
I am safe.
I am warm.
The rain pounded heavily....
© 2001 – By Starr
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TIME
Time, where does it all go?
Time, what does it mean?
Time, why do we need it?
Time, why does it take life so?
Time sits still when you watch.
Time flies by when you are not looking.
Suddenly, there is no time left.
Where did it go?
The clock goes tick tock.
We are so oblivious.
The clock goes tick tock.
That's time cutting your life away.
© 2001 – By Starr
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Gloomy Day
It is a gray, gloomy day today.
I am here in my room.
It is a gray, gloomy day today.
There is no sun in the sky.
It is a gray, gloomy day today.
No birds are singing.
It is raining and cold.
Hark! Was that thunder I heard?
I thought it was supposed to be spring?
Where are the flowers?
Where are the green leaves on the trees?
They are so bare.
Depressing isn't it?
It is a gray, gloomy day today.
© 2001 – By Starr
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THE RAINBOW
One day I was looking outside my window and saw the most beautiful site I've ever seen. Bursts of colors - red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indago, and violet. They seemed to shimmer and shine in the sun.
You know, it's funny, they say a rainbow is a sign of bad weather, but not today. No, today a rainbow is a sign of joy and happiness, and not to mention great weather.
The sun is shining a bright orangy-yellow and the rainbow goes right through it like butter. I look at this once in a lifetime sight and a smile comes to my face.
I rarely smile, you know, because of always having something on my mind, but today I am smiling - thanks to the rainbow.
Look at all those colors! It's amazing to say the least. U-oh, I better put on my sunglasses, they are sure bright. Wow! What's that? A new color? Wow! Pink! Now maroon, black- hey, those colors are mixing! This is a fascinating site to see. They seem to dance into one another and blend in - like sands through time.
The next time you see a rainbow, don't think of it as being a sign of something bad. Think of it as something good, and how much fun you can have watching it. Not to mention, it can put you in a good mood, like it did for me. :)
Imagine that, one little rainbow.
© 2001 – By Starr
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HOORAY! HOORAY!
The sun is shining, hooray! Hooray!
No clouds in the sky, hooray! Hooray!
The flowers are blooming, hooray! Hooray!
The leaves are blossoming, hooray! Hooray!
What a glorious day it is today.
The sky is blue, the air is crisp
The grass is green, and there are no weeds.
Tulips! Roses! Lilies! Sunflowers!
They are all out to celebrate!
Celebrate the joy of the sun!
Take a run with me, if you so please
Take off your shoes, jump in the pool
It's a celebration! The kids are off from school.
Have a picnic in the sun today. Hooray! Hooray!
Have a nice tall glass of lemonade. Hooray! Hooray!
And when all the fun of the day is gone,
there is still nightfall and the beautiful stars
Our day is done, hooray, hooray!
We had so much fun, hooray! Hooray!
I hope tomorrow will bring us just
as much happiness as it did today.
Hooray! Hooray!
© 2001 – By Starr
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BOREDOM
I am so bored.
I sit here doing nothing.
I am so bored.
There is nothing to do.
It's no fun being bored.
There's no light at the end of the tunnel.
When you are bored, there's no one to talk to.
No place to go.
No one to see.
I am so bored.
You think it's fun being bored?
It's not!
It's annoying and frustrating to say the least
How would you feel if you had nothing to do?
Nothing to look forward to in life?
How would you feel?
Depressed?
Lonely?
Bored!!!!!
I am so bored today.
© 2001 – By Starr
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MEAN
People can be so mean sometimes.
They don't care about you.
They lash out for no reason.
Leaving you to think "What did I do?"
How dare you be so mean!
Who the hell do yout think you are?
Don't come over here with your attitude!
I have feelings too!
Surprise, you are not the only person on this planet!
Why don't you think of other people's feelings!
Before you start going off for no damn reason.
Idiot! Fool!
Look at you, standing there with your nose in the air!
Look at you, standing there thinking you're all that!
Guess what? You're not!
Get that through your egotistic head!
Jackass! Bitch!
Some people can be so mean sometimes.
But you know what?
If those people want to be that way, Let them.
It is really their problem and not ours.
Why should we let them get to us?
They are the ones with insecurities.
They are the ones who feel,
"well, since I am going through hell,
so will everyone else".
Just ignore them and they will go.
Just ignore them and they will leave.
AND GOOD RIDDANCE!!!!
Some people can be so mean sometimes.
© 2001 – By Starr
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STRANGE FEELING
Ever get this strange feeling people know what you're thinking?
Ever get this strange feeling they're watching you?
Ever get this strange feeling they're talking about you behind your back?
Ever get this strange feeling?
It's scary isn't it?
It's scary feeling this way.
What did I do?
Was it something I did?
Why do they hate me?
Do they really hate me?
It's a strange feeling isn't it?
Well, isn't it?
Think about it.
© 2001 – By Starr
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I AM GOING
I am going!
I am going, dammit!
You can't stop me!
I am going and that's that!
I am not a child anymore!
You can't tell me what to do!
If I say I am going, I am going!
It is not a crime!
It's not like I'm going to
a dangerous place.
It's not like I'm going to
a place where I could get arrested.
I am going to a safe place
to have fun!
I am going, and that's that!
You can't stop me!
You can try.
You can yell.
You can say that
I will never get out.
Say what you want, but I am going!
You can't stop me!
I am going do you hear me?
That's it!
End of discussion!
I am going!
© 2001 – By Starr
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Music / I am black
What is music, exactly?
A bunch of notes?
A simple melody?
A scale?
Music has no color
Music isn’t black, white, blue, or green
It’s funny how people say
“Oh that’s ‘white music’, that’s ‘black music’.”
It’s funny how people say….”Black people don’t follow
N’synch, They listen to PUFF DADDY.”
“White people don’t listen to rap music, they listen
to Backstreet Boys”
There is no such thing
I wish some people would understand that.
So what if I used to listen to WPLJ, or Z-100, or
WPST? (The so called “white stations”)
Does that not make me black?
I didn’t listen to WBLS or HOT 97, or 98.7 Kiss FM.
(The so called “black stations”)
So, I am not black?
I watch VH-1 and used to watch MTV (when it was
decent). [The “white stations”]
I don’t watch BET. (The “black station”)
I watch Nick-At-nite (So called “white station”)
I don’t watch UPN nine (So called “black station”)
Does that mean I’m white?
No, all those things don’t mean anything
I am me and that’s all there is to it.
I know what I am.
I am black and I am beautiful
If you don’t like what I listen to,
If you think me listening to what I do isn’t “black enough”
Fuck you and get a life!
© 2001 – By Starr
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Prejudice
Prejudice isn’t just about black and white
That’s what our society thinks
And maybe that’s the main one
Because we were taken in as slaves
And the whites treated us like dirt
We were called names like “nigger” and “coon”
But there’s more to it than just that.
What about the Jews who were riddiculed?
Back in the days of Hilter?
What about the Hispanics?
They were called “spicks” and other names.
What about people who aren’t “good looking models”?
They get ignored.
What about people who are fat?
They get teased.
What about the eldery?
Who don’t get hired because the person thinks they’re
too old.
What about people who are gay?
What about Bi-racial couples?
What about women who weren’t allowed to vote?
What about the fact that, still, the woman does not
get paid the same as a man?
All of these things are in our society
We need to do something to stop
the insanity of ignorant people.
Anyone who chooses to be nice to someone
And not the other person because he or she
is different, is a real fool.
Anyone who chooses to be prejudiced, period, is a
complete looser.
And that includes reverse discrimination
That’s just the way it is. PERIOD!!!!
© 2001 – By Starr
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