REMEMBERING MY MENTOR
Skip (George) O'neill was probably the overall strongest influece
for me to choose serving Jesus back in 1972 when I got saved through
his
ministry back at 128 S. Church St. Like many new Christians,
I did a lot
of goofy and dangerous things. I was headstrong and therefore
in great
need of a shepherd. Skip always happenedto be there when I was
"spacing
off" in one direction or another with a gentle but firm nudge in the
right direction. At the time I didn't like the discipline, but
now I
stand securely in Christ because of it. Skip, as many will testify,
was
the first real shepherd of the F.F. I remember one of his first
"lamb
Bible studies" in which he asked, "who all are lambs?" My youthful
pride
didn't really like being called a lamb, but I grudgingly raised my
hand.
Night after night he would go into these very basic Bible studies with
us. The way he would present things made them fun, interesting,
free,
and exciting. None of us felt intimidated contributing our "spacey
ideas." Skip had a peace and freedom about him that made me say
to
myself, "I want to be like him." God's peace was truly opon him.
Anxiety was far from him. The solidity and depth he had rubbed off
on
many of us. He had a special way of diffusing problems and conflicts
between people so that they would forget about what they were
fighting
about. All qualities of a shepherd and not a hireling.
In the Gospel of
John, chapter 10, Jesus compares the two and their effects upon the
welfare of the sheep.
Many of us stand here today because he was a real shepherd and not a
hireling who cared only for his wages. It was his example of
shepherdship that influenced me and many others to shepherd the flock
in
the same ways. I don't believe that any of us did as well at
it as he
did. Had things turned out right in the fellowship, he would
have been
the lead shepherd or senior pastor over all of us. Would that
he had the
chance! I know he wold have accepted that role and that God would
have
raised him up to perform it well. It is not my purpose here to
go into
why or through whom he was violently kept from that role. I only
testify
that it was not his fault in any way. Bad things happen sometimes
even
in the sheepfold, and we had no power to stop what was happening.
God
still used him as a kind of testimony to grace and peace over performance
oriented goals, cut throat competition, harshness, and anxious works
that
were diseasing the fellowship more and more. When it came to
being harsh
and going with the program, Skip could not play, especially when it
came
to hurting someone in the name of the truth. Others of us learned
better
the art of sheepbeating. Would that his influence and testimony
to
gentleness and peace would have prevailed in the fellowship!
Some say I
live in the past and maybe I do. I was there and my testimony
is true.
I remember the day in Skips new York apartment that he confronted Stewart
for the last time about his wrong behavior and then left for the last
time. The sense of loss and emptyness that I felt at that moment
showed
me that somehow things would never be right again with the "right arm"
gone! As many of us know, things went even more terribly downhill
ever
since.
I cannot help lamenting over the past even as we lament over the
loss of Skip who touched us in so many ways at such a critical time
in
our lives. Like George Baily in "It's a Wonderful Life", George O'neill
was indispensible with regard to our little "town." Mnay of us
have
testimonies of the countless ways God used him for our help.
Sure, there
wasn't much in the way of glory for himself. He knew it belonged
to God.
But, "God is not so unjust as to overlook your help inserving the
saints." I trust his reward will be a special one, despite his
many
fallings. I long to see him honored for his part in the revival
that
touched so many of us. I long to see his vindication at the judgment
bar
of heaven and be able to see him in the place God prepared for him
before
the foundation fo the world. Thank you, Skip, for al you did
that made
it possible for me to serve the Lord in the freedom and peace you
exemplified so well. I hope all of us will be able to share many
good
and victorious things with you that God did through us while you were
separated from us for a little while. I love and miss you my
mentor.