Segment
9
My Story
You know, it is completely amazing to
me how adult people, especially men, can act like twelve year old
children. My psychiatrist finally made
me aware of a Day program that I could attend and it would assist me in working
through some of my issues. I attended
today for the first time. Today is
December 4, 2000 by the way. I
progressed through all the paper work at the expense of a few trees (meaning
many pages of material.) Then I was
introduced to the group. I sat in the
appropriate chair and the meeting began.
Two of the adult men across from me were reaching under the table,
grabbing one another when they thought no one was watching. When the group leader would leave the room,
the paper wads would begin to fly. I can't
deal with this type of garbage. I
attended as an adult, with an adult problem, (wanting to blow my brains out the
back of my head.) I was hoping this
group session would be different than what I have experienced in the past. NOPE!!
It is just the same. Why is
there always some that spoil things for the rest? Is it my fault? Am I to
blame? Is this the triggering system
the nurse was telling me about? I can't
deal with this sort of action from adults.
I will not.
Let me bring you up to date. I told my psychiatrist the problem I was
having with suicidal ideation. She
added more medication. (I am really
getting fed up with this type of medical attention). Every time I say anything to her she prescribes something
more. I want to quit taking the junk
all together. I want no more
medication! Here is a run down of the
medications I am presently taking.
Welbrutin SR 150 mg
2 at breakfast and 1 at lunch
Antidepressant
Neurontin
400 mg 2 at breakfast, 2 at
lunch, and 2 at supper Mood Stabilizer
Depakote 500
mg 1 at breakfast, and 2 at
bedtime Mood Stabilizer
Propranolol
10 mg 1 at breakfast, and 1 at
supper Headache
Duradrin ?
mg 1 every six hours as needed for
Headache
Zyprexa 25
mg at bedtime Sleep
Then I also take
Glucophage 500
mg 1 at breakfast, and 1 at supper Diabetes
Prevacid 15
mg 1 at breakfast Stomach
So, let me ask you.
Do you think I am taking enough junk to cause me to lose weight from
being overfilled at eating time? And
lets not forget, I take vitamins C and E, and Garlic every morning. I rattle when I walk.
I have a question for you. I put this page together about two years ago. From that time approximately 800 people have
seen it. I have asked that everyone
viewing my site please sign the guest book. Out of all those viewers, I have received two signatures on the
book. Does my site really stink that
badly? If not, what is the reason? I look at other sites that post many
signatures. I am presently planning a
redesign on my site and would appreciate any input you may wish to leave about
the site so I can improve the situation.
I have removed the guest book.
Another thing.
If you are going to do a dumb thing like put your plan for suicide on a
web page, never let a friend or foe get the address to your web site. I will never let that happen again unless I
have a real problem. I was having a
real problem but it did not come to fruition as you can see. Thanks again for spending your time reading
my site.
