TITLE: Please
AUTHOR: Nishia
DISCLAIMER: Joss owns everything
PAIRING: S/X sort of
SPOILERS: None
SUMMARY: Spikes pov. Unrequited love is a painful thing
RATING: R for language
DISTRIBUTION: Please take it. Just let me know where it goes
FEEDBACK: Please

Please!

Please, turn round.

Please, let me look at you.

Please, Look at me.

Please, just this once, look at me and actually see me.

Please, say something, anything, I need to hear your voice.

Please, talk to me. Insult me. Call me an arrogant Prick. Tell me to get the hell away from you. I don’t care just talk to me.

Please, let me be near you, just for a few seconds. Don’t walk away, please!

Please, need something on the shelf behind me so I can ‘accidentally’ brush against you when you reach out to get it.

Please, touch me. It doesn’t have to be gentle, you can even hit me if you want, I just want to know what your hands would feel like on my skin.

Please!

You don’t know what it’s like for me. Every second of every minute of every hour of every day, you’re all I can think about. I love you, more than I’ve ever loved anyone in my whole entire miserable existence. So many times I’ve wanted to tell you but I couldn’t. I was too scared. Scared you’d laugh.

Please, don’t laugh at me. I couldn’t stand that.

Please, let me love you. Let me worship you, body and soul. I won’t ask you for anything in return I swear. Just to be allowed is more than enough for me.

Please, let me give myself to you. I don’t have a soul; you already have my heart, let me give you my body too. Please!

Please, take me. I’m yours. I always will be, even when you’ve long since ceased to exist.

Please, do anything you want to me. Hurt me, use me, punish me. I’ll happily suffer whatever torture you deem fit and beg for more if that‘s what you want. If you want me to cry or scream I’ll do it. If you want me to keep completely silent, I’ll do that too. I’ll do anything for you. Please believe that.

Please, let me bleed for you. Let me die for you. Let me show the whole world how much I love you.

Please, if you can’t do anything else, then at least put me out of this misery that is my unlife.

Please, kill me. Put a stake through my heart and then piss on my ashes.

Oh Gods Xander! I don’t care what you do to me, just don’t ignore me anymore.

Please!