Title : Heart Ache

Series : Body Heat 3
Author : Soft Princess (Sofy)
E-mail : princesse_20_@hotmail.com
Disclaimer : Angel, Spike and Xander are not mine, nor are all the places and settings and characters of both BtVS and Angel. They belong to Joss Whedon and all the others. I'm just borrowing them to have some fun. I'll give them back, promise! The plot is mine though.

Pairing : S/X/A
Rating : NC-17
Spoilers : "Tomorrow" for AtS and "Grave" for BtVS
Summary : The guys wake up and Spike feels left out.
Notes : The morning after… lol… And the saga continues! ;p

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When Angel woke up, he could feel the warm bodies of his lovers. His back was burning from Xander's heat and he could feel and hear his steady heartbeat slowly beating in time with his breathing.  Spike was cuddled tightly in Angel's arms, like a frightened child.

 'God how scared he must be. But at least he isn't alone like I was. I still can't believe Xander's gay... and in a relationship, or whatever it is they have, with Spike. And they've been together for a month. All the time I was at the bottom of the ocean, trying to free myself of that coffin-like prison.  At first I was really angry at Connor and at the world in general. I wasn't fair. But Connor... he... he didn't think before he acted. He thought I had killed his... the man he considered to be his father and... I really don't know how he could think that. The only thing I can guess, and it's only a guess, is that Justine...'

"Stop brooding Deadboy." Xander whispered in Angel's ear, his voice still hoarse with sleep. He used the old nickname, but with so much caring that Angel didn't mind, he liked it.

"Why should I?" Angel grinned.

"There are better things to be doing than brooding in the morning." Xander answered, rubbing himself against Angel's back, letting the vampire feel his hardness.

Angel moaned. "Yeah, I see your point." he turned his head, trying not to wake Spike, who was still sound asleep wrapped in Angel's arms. Slowly he locked eyes with Xander and smiled. Xander smiled back. 'God, he's so beautiful when he smiles.'

They were both drawn into each other's eyes. Breaking the contact, Xander closed his eyes and captured Angel's lips with his. Their lips met and it was like the world didn't exist except for just this. Xander slowly licked Angel's bottom lip, while the vampire was doing the same with his upper lip. They opened their mouths at the same time both seeking the other's tongue.

Angel sought the warmth and wetness of Xander's mouth. He sucked on the boy's tongue then went on to map out every curve and hollow of his mouth. 'God he feels so good.'

Xander couldn't believe it. Angel's lips on his were soft and hard at the same time. His tongue was making him feel like a puddle of goo. He moaned and tried to get closer to the vampire. Finally, Angel allowed him entrance to his own mouth. The warm coolness of his mouth felt so good on Xander's burning tongue.  Their tongues battled for a moment, they were both hungry and not only for food.

Both of them were now moaning loudly in the other's mouth. Xander needed air, but he didn't want the kiss to end. Angel withdrew a little and looked at him, dazed. "You really need to breathe you know."

Xander was still so wrapped up in the kiss that he was still holding up his breath. "Oh yeah..." He cough a little and took a deep breath. "I..."

Angel took his right hand away from Spike and slowly caressed Xander’s cheek. "That was wonderful... but I don't want you to die from a kiss."

Xander laughed lightly and smiled. "And I don't want to die, cause I want more of those kisses."

Angel felt his heart melt. "You really do?" He was so scared that Xander was just messing with him. He felt so whole there, with them in his bed and... yes, in his heart too. He didn't know if it was love, but it was close.

"I really do. I..." Xander couldn't believe it was happening. He really didn't know how it had happened, but he didn't want to leave and he knew he wouldn't. 'Please, just make it so Spike will stay too!' "I don't want to leave, Angel."

Angel felt his heart melt again. 'He doesn't want to leave, he doesn't want to leave. God. He wants to stay! With me.' "Oh Xander. I..." He didn't know what to say and

Xander could see so much emotions playing on his face. Fear, shock, happiness, and he even caught a glimpse of love somewhere...

"You don't have to say anything Angel. I'll stay. As long as you want me to."

Angel closed his eyes, the emotion becoming almost unbearable. He turned back towards Spike and looked at the sleeping vampire in his arms. "He looks so frightened. You think he'll stay too?"

Xander looked over Angel's shoulder and his eyes warmed on sight. "He will. He needs you right now. I did what I could, but I... don't understand what he going through." He locked eyes with Angel. "You do."

"Yeah..." Angel lowered his eyes back on Spike's sleeping form. "but at least he had you, whereas I had no one."

"You have us now. And all your friends."

"Yeah. I know."

"Ponce, you brooding again?" Xander and Angel burst in laughter at Spike's sleepy comment.

"You're awake, finally." Xander said feigning exasperation. "We were waiting for you."

"Yeah?" Spike answered, opening his eyes. "Waiting for me to do what?"

Angel rubbed himself against Spike's thigh. "To help with that."

"Oh, I see. Bloody good way to wake up!"

"Yeah." Angel smiled while Spike stretched. Xander was slowly caressing Angel's back and kissing the back of his neck, making him shiver. "Mmm, yeah, Xander." Angel moaned.

"Hey! You said you were waiting for me! Don't start already." They laughed.

"Then hurry up already!"

Spike settled in front of Angel and kissed his stomach.  Angel was now sandwiched between his lovers, but it wasn’t what he wanted no matter how good they made him feel. He turned his head around and looked at Xander, a silent question in his eyes. Xander swallowed hard and nodded. 'Oh God, oh God.' Angel turned back to Spike, who was still laying kisses on his stomach, his hands roaming his body. He lifted the other vampire's head and kissed him hard.

When the kiss ended, he took Spike's hands and held them tightly in his own. Spike looked questioningly at his Sire and raised his eyebrows. "What?"

Angel looked into his eyes. "Can I?"

"Can you what Poof, need to be a little more specific in your choice of questions?"

Angel swallowed. "Can I take Xander?"

Spike's eyes widened in surprise and he closed his eyes. 'Boy's mine! No... don't own him. Can't own him. He's his own man. It's not because I...' He opened his eyes again and looked at Xander. The boy's eyes were wide with lust.

"You want that luv?"

Xander looked at him and swallowed. "I..." He closed his eyes and nodded.

'God. I can't believe this.' Spike turned to Angel. "He wants it, you want it. Don't have anything to say..." Spike's eyes reflected a little fear. "Just… be nice. He's..." He didn't know what to say.

Angel nodded and kissed Spike again. He whispered for Spike's ears only "Thanks."

Angel untangled himself from his childe’s embrace and turned to face Xander. "You sure about it?"

Xander couldn't speak. Thinking about Angel in him was enough to make him lose his ability to speak. He nodded. "Yeah."

Angel pushed him a little until he was lying on his back. "You're beautiful Xan."

Xander's breath caught in his throat. Only Spike had ever told him that and only when they were having sex.

Angel leaned over Xander and kissed him lightly. "Love kissing you." He said, moaning. Their bodies were touching from head to toes and they were shivering.

Xander moaned as Angel's hands slowly caressed his chest. The vampire took one nipple in his mouth and began sucking on it. Xander gasped and arched his back. 'He's a nipple man, who would've thought!' He let go of the now hardened nipple and gave the same treatment to the other one. Once both nipples were peaked, Angel moved down to Xander's navel, stopping along the way to kiss every ticklish spot.

Spike watched them, feeling left out. They were both so drawn into each other. 'They don't even remember I'm here.'

Angel tongued Xander's navel making the boy gasp and moan incoherently. He loved to drive his lovers crazy. "Oh Angel!!" He finally reached the boy's aching cook and took it in his mouth in one swift motion. Xander moaned loudly.

Spike had never felt so alone. Wasn't he good enough for them? He had never seen Xander so driven by lust. Had never had him squirm under his touch like that. And now, Angel was doing these things to him and Spike could only watch.

Angel reached for the hand cream he kept in the nightstand. He really didn't want to hurt the boy.  With Xander's cock still in his mouth, he coated his fingers and pressed the boy's legs wider. He reached for his puckered hole and began drawing circles around it. "Oh Angel! Stop teasing!"

'That's it. Angel is so much better than I'll ever be. He's driving Xander wild, I never saw him like that before.' Spike sat on the edge of the bed and looked at the two men. Angel was slowly entering a finger in Xander's tight hole. 'And he's so tight, I can still feel him around me.' Xander screamed his pleasure. "Oh Yes Angel! More!"

Xander felt Angel's finger burning him inside and he wanted more, so much more. "More. Please more." Angel smiled around Xander’s cock and slowly eased a second finger inside, and soon a third. He kept on sucking in time with the thrusting of his fingers.

'He begged. He never begged for me.' Spike felt a tear slide down his face. He angrily swiped at it and continued watching the two men. 'Angel is so beautiful like this. He used to take me too. But never with so much care. It was hard and fast, didn't even bother with lube.'

"Oh God Angel, I can't wait anymore. Please!" Angel looked up into Xander’s eyes and sucked harder. He thrust his fingers deeper, harder, and finally hit THE spot. Xander screamed arching his back high and came with force. Angel looked at the boy in awe. 'He's so beautiful when he's lost in pleasure.' Finally Xander calmed down and looked at Angel. "Oh. God." Angel laughed and leaned up to kiss him.

Spike was now crying lightly and silently. Angel had given Xander so much pleasure just by hitting his prostate. 'I could never do that. They look so happy. The two of them. Maybe I'm nothing more than a third wheel here.'

Still kissing Xander, Angel reached for the hand cream again and coated his cock. He positioned himself at Xander's entrance. He felt the boy tense and broke the kiss to look into his eyes. "You ok?"

"Yeah. Do it. I want you in me."

Angel kissed him again and slowly entered his tight hole. "Oh God Xander. You're so tight!"

Xander moaned in return at the feeling of Angel's thick cock entering him, filling him. "And God you're big!" They both laughed lightly and kissed.

Spike looked at them one last time and dried his tears. 'I won't stand in the way. Love them too much. They belong with each other and I don't want to come between them. Well, I do, but not this way... Argh, gonna leave. They don't need me anymore. Got each other they do.' He turned around and got up. He dressed silently, not wanting them to notice him. Finally, he moved to the door and opened it, not looking back, he left the room and closed the door quietly behind him.

He went downstairs into the office. No one was there. They were probably still all sleeping or out. He took a piece of paper and wrote a note. They he went back upstairs. He kissed the note and slipped it under the door. He could hear their cries of pleasure coming from inside.

He whispered "Love you. Be happy." And then he turned around, crying, and left.

Angel started thrusting deeper and harder in his lover. 'God he feels so good!'

Xander was hard again and he was completely lost in the sensations Angel was giving him. 'I can't believe this. This feels so good!' "Oh Angel! Harder!"

Angel complied and thrust harder, hitting Xander's prostate with every thrust. "Oh Xander, I'm gonna cum! You feel so good!" He reached between their bodies, not wanting to leave Xander behind and stroke the boy's cock hard. Once, twice, and Xander came, shooting his seed between their bodies.

"Oh ANGEL!" Xander's hole clenched around Angel cock and both that feeling and Xander's scream brought him over the edge.

"XANDER!" He came hard into Xander's hole, while the boy was arching up to take him deeper. Finally, they were both spent and they collapsed against each other. 

"Spike? Come here." Angel said wanting to hug the other vampire. He wanted them both in his arms then.

Xander looked around the room. "Spike?"

Angel got up and looked around. "He's gone." He stated in shock.  The vampire looked around frantically, then at Xander, who was now sitting up in the middle of the bed. "Where did he go?" Angel asked, confused. He sat on the edge of the bed.

"I don't know." Xander stated, still under the post sex haze. "He couldn't..."

Angel looked at Xander and they gasped. Xander got up and went to the door, intending to open it and look outside. But a small piece of paper caught his eye.  He bent over to pick it up off the floor and looked at it.

"It's from him." Angel said, now standing behind Xander and looking at the letter in the boy's hands. "It's his handwriting."

Xander looked behind him and smiled uneasily. "Maybe he was just hungry and he went downstairs to eat." He said, not really believing himself. He unfolded the paper and began to read.

Xan, Poof.

Have to go. I love you both too much to come between you and make you two feel bad. I saw the way you made each other feel and I know I'll never be as good as that. You know Xan, you never begged for me... Hope you two are happy together. You look like you love each other so much.  Take care of the whelp for me Poof.

Love always

Spike

Xander felt tears in his eyes and he looked at Angel. "He's right you know. I never..." The tears flooded down his face and he closed his eyes.

"Shhh. It's not your fault Xan." Angel said taking the boy in his arms. "He feels rejected. He feels like he's not good enough. It's part of having his soul. He's easily broken. I should've known..."

Xander looked up. "It's not your fault either."

"Maybe not, but still. I should've have known he'd feel like this and tried to include him. Somehow."

Xander raised his hand and brushed Angel's cheek. "We were so wrapped up in each other that we didn't even hear him leave."

"Xander, I..." Xander placed a finger on Angel's lips. "We'll talk later. We need to find him before he's too far away." Xander smiled. "I'm going to beg for him to come back."

Angel smiled and kissed Xander. "And I'm going to do the same." He knew the vampire lore forbade a Sire to beg to his Childe, but he really didn't care. He wanted Spike back and he would have him.  One way or another.

The End…for now