Title : Heated Confessions

Series : Bodyheat 4

Author : Soft Princess (Sofy)

E-mail : princesse_20_@hotmail.com

Disclaimer : Angel, Spike and Xander are not mine. They belong to Joss Whedon and all the others. I'm just borrowing them to have some fun. I'll give them back, promise!

Pairing : S/X/A

Rating : NC-17

Spoilers : "Tomorrow" for AtS and "Grave" for BtVS

Summary : Xander and Angel want Spike back. A confession (and make up sex) ensues.

Notes : Ok, I can't believe just how big this has gotten!!! 19 pages for this part!!! Lol. Enjoy!!!

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Angel and Xander dressed hurriedly and rushed downstairs into the lobby. They really needed to hurry.

"Angel?" They stopped running and turned around and found Fred and Buffy staring at them with sleepy eyes.

"Hi Buffy, Fred. You just woke up?" He tried to act calmly, but he knew he wasn't really good at that. Also, concern was filling his voice.

"Yeah. We're having coffee. You ok? Xander?"

"Have you seen Spike?" Xander asked, not really answering the question.

"Yeah, he went to the sewers about five minutes ago. I saw him when I was coming downstairs, he looked weird, sad..."

"Thanks, Fred." Angel interrupted. "We're leaving. Xander?" they both hurried towards the sewers entrance.

"That was weird." Buffy said as the two girls watched the men leave.

"Yeah."



"Angel? It's really dark in here. You sure you know where you're going?" Xander sounded worried.

"Don't worry, I know those sewers by heart Xan." Angel answered looking right and left, trying to decided which way to go. "I can smell him. He went this way." He said, pointing to his right. He started to run, Xander on his heels.

The vampire was fast but Xander followed him without any problem. Just paying attention not to fall. They reached another junction and Angel stopped abruptly.

"What is it?" Xander asked, concerned.

"Shh. I think he's just there." He said pointing to the left. "We can't go rushing in there." He looked at Xander. "I don't know what to do Xan. What are we gonna say?"

"That we want him back. The truth Angel. That's what we're gonna tell him." Xander took Angel's face in his hands. "I don't know what happened to me this last month. But I think..." He shook his head, he couldn't say that just now. He needed to find out just what it was he was feeling before telling anyone. "I just know I want him and you in my life. And I'm going to tell him that." Angel nodded and kissed Xander tenderly.

"Xander, I..." Xander looked at Angel's eyes. God he could learn to love these eyes. Angel looked so sad.

"Don't worry Angel. Just tell him what you feel. How you feel. That's all there is to say." He smiled lightly. Then looked a bit worried. "You like him don't you?"

"I don't like him Xander." He said seriously. Xander looked scared. "I love him." Xander looked puzzled now. "I love him so much. And I don't want him anywhere but with me. And you." He added.

Xander smiled. "We understand each other now. Don't we Deadboy?" He said with a hint of laughter in his voice. Angel smiled back at him and gave him a quick kiss.

"We need to do it now, before he leaves again."

Angel turned around and started walking slowly down the left tunnel. Xander waited a moment, still dazed by Angel's kiss. Every time they kissed he felt like his heart would stop. He followed Angel silently.

"Look around you, he shouldn't be too far. I can smell him. Everywhere around us." They both walked slowly, looking around.

"Spike?" Xander asked tenderly. "Spike are you here?" No answer.

"Spike? Please talk to us." Angel asked carefully. "We wanna talk to you. Please Spike. Don't leave us."

Xander looked at Angel and saw that the vampire was on the verge of breaking down into tears. The last few days had been hard on him and he really didn't want to be alone.

"You don't need me." Came the quiet reply. They couldn't quite place where it came from, but at least they knew he was there and not dust.

"Yes we do. Spike, we need you. We want you in our lives. Please, come back." Xander took Angel in his arms and hugged him tight, knowing by the tone of his voice that he needed it.

"You see, you’re already together. Don't need me, you have each other."

Angel seemed scared as he looked into Xander's eyes. "You mean you'd prefer it if we weren't touching?"

"No, s'not that."

"Then what is it Spike? We want you. I want you in my life, in my bed. I can't go on without you. No matter how much I like Angel."

"You..." Xander placed a finger on Angel's lips. It wasn't the time for question, they needed to get to Spike. Xander felt the urge to take the blond vampire in his arms and he knew Angel felt the same.

"Where are you Spike?"

"You mean you like me?" Spike said, a little surprised.

"Would I have trusted you otherwise Spike? Would I have given all of myself to you?"

Spike walked towards them. They could see him, a figure in the shadows before them. Before they even saw his face, they rushed to his side and took him in their arms. Xander grabbed him and pulled him close, while Angel moved behind him and rested his head on his shoulder.

"Don't ever do that again Spike! You scared us." Xander whispered in Spike's ear. Spike took Xander's head in his hands and lifted it until their eyes locked.

"You really mean it luv? You like me?"

"Yes, Spike! I do. I like you so much." Xander closed his eyes. Now was the time. "I think I've fallen in love with you."

Spike's eyes widened in surprise, he’d really never thought about that. "Oh Xan, I..."

"Shhh, don't say anything. Just, please, say you won't leave again? At least not now."

Angel was as surprised as Spike. He tightened his arms around Spike and whispered. "I love you Spike. I'm never letting you go again. I'm not going to leave you. I'm never going to leave you alone. You'll always have me, forever." Angel was crying. "I'm so sorry William. I should've..."

"Stop with the 'should've' Sire. You're not a bloody saint." Spike said with tears in his eyes and voice. Angel chuckled.

"You really love me Sire?"

"Yes, I always have William, I was just too proud to tell you."

"Will you come back now. We need to make it up to you for earlier. We're really sorry to have left you out of it."

Spike hugged Xander tightly to his chest. He was sandwiched between their two bodies and he had never felt so safe in his life. He was surrounded by warmth and caring. He didn't want to ever leave these arms.

"It's all right Xan Luv. I understand. You and the Poof there needed some time alone." Spike looked knowingly at Xander. "I guess we'll have to learn to live together. There's three of us and..."

"We can't afford for anyone to be left out." Angel continued, kissing Spike's neck.

Xander looked at Angel and smiled. "No we can't. We're three, not two." Spike looked at him.

"I know luv. But we need to be with each other alone sometimes. You and the Poof, me and you, the Poof and me. It's like we're three couples in one. You need to feel Angel's attention all on you, just like I do and he needs us both to take care of him separately."

"Spike?" Angel asked. "Where did you become so mature?"

"Don't know. Think it comes with the soul. What do you think?"

"Maybe. We really need to talk about that you know?"

"Yeah, I know. But we'll have time later. We have eternity, don't we Poof?"

"Maybe the two of you do, but I don't so can we go back to our room now?"

The two vampires laughed out loud and looked at their mortal lover. "What will we do without you?"

"What?"

"When you’re all old and wrinkly and then die. What are we gonna do?"

"You'll live both your unlives, remembering all my funny jokes, looking like crazy old vamps." He answered smiling. "Can we not think about the future and just about now. How are we gonna get in the hotel without any of the others walking in on us?"

Angel and Spike looked at each other. "Don't know Xander." Angel answered.

"Maybe you could distract them. I know you're hungry love." Spike continued. Xander growled and at the same time, so did his stomach. They all burst into laughter, breaking the last bit of tension that was still in the air.

"I see your point. So, Angel, you take Spike upstairs and..." He trailed off then continued. "In the meantime, I will take care of the others, talk and eat." He smiled.

Spike smiled back at him and brought their faces closer. He slowly licked Xander's bottom lips. "You know luv, you're beautiful when you smile."

Xander's smile widened and Spike kissed him passionately. "The Poof's right, your mouth is..." He was stopped by Xander's lips on his, kissing madly. Spike could feel something very hard growing behind him, against his buttocks. He broke the kiss, both of them panting.

"You like that Poof?" He said reaching behind him to caress Angel's head with his hand. "Yeah." Angel said hoarsely. "You two are really hot." Xander blushed and buried his face in Spike's shoulder.

"You're embarrassing the whelp luv." Spike said laughing lightly.

"M'not embarrassed." said a muffled voice.

"Then why are you hiding luv?"

"M'not hiding. M'smelling you." Xander said, his face still hidden. Angel laughed and reached for him. He turned his head and looked into his eyes.

"You are hot, Xander." He said seriously. " You two are driving me crazy." His voice was hoarse with lust.

Spike looked behind him. "So Sire, we should get back. Don't wanna do that here. Do you?"

"Surely not! This place is so dirty!" They laughed and untangled themselves. Angel and Xander stood at each side of Spike, holding his hands.

They began to walk back to the hotel, just loving the feeling of being together. They walked slowly, because they knew they would have to let go of each other when they got back.

"Spike? Angel? How are we gonna do this?" The two vampires looked at Xander, puzzled. The boy looked a bit scared.

"Do what luv?"

"Us. I mean, being together." He locked eyes with Angel. "With us living with you, they'll ask questions and it's likely that Fred or whoever will walk in on us. We had a difficult enough time hiding from Buffy and the others for the last month, Spike and I. And they weren't living with us."

Angel looked pensive. "I don't know Xander. I think we should have a good long talk about what exactly it is we want, and then, we should tell them." Spike's eyes widened in fear.

"You crazy Poof?? They'll kill me, us. They'll think I want to hurt Xan and you too. And what about..."

"Spike..." Xander tried to calm the frightened vampire. He was as shocked as Spike with what Angel had said, but he knew it was the truth, they needed to tell the others, or they would find out anyway and be very angry that they haven't told them. That's when the vampires were most likely to become dust.

"I'll tell them." Xander continued. "I’ll begin by telling them of my 'change of orientation today..."

"Xander, you're not..."

"Look Angel, they'll feel betrayed if I don't tell them. And with the way I reacted to Willow when she told us, they'll kill me. I really need to do that." He looked pleadingly into Angel's eyes, then into Spike's. "Then we'll have our little conversation. I have so many questions and I know you do too. But for now..." He looked in front of him and realised they were already at the Hyperion door. "You two go have your 'talk' and I’ll have mine with the others." He smiled wickedly at Spike. "Later tonight, I'll beg for you." Spike's eyes widened with lust and he bent his head to kiss Xander passionately.

Angel watched them and felt his heart fill with warmth. "We should go in now." He said, when Spike and Xander let go of each other. He quickly kissed Xander, then took hold of Spike's shoulders and led him inside.

"There you are, we were worried, with the way you left and everything." Buffy, Fred, Dawn, Giles and Gunn were in the lobby, looking worriedly at the incoming trio.

"It's all right Buffy. Spike and I just need to have a little Sire to Childe conversation."

Spike smiled and looked at Angel.

"Yeah, two vamps with a soul and one needs to learn to trust the other." Angel smiled back and looked at all of them.

"Where's Connor?" He asked, worried that he had escaped.

"Downstairs. He can't get out, don't worry. Go upstairs and talk to your childe. We'll take care of him." Buffy said smiling gently.

'She has no idea what she just agreed to!' Xander thought, laughing inside. 'God if she only knew.'

Spike and Angel smiled warmly at Xander then moved off up the stairs. Xander sighed and turned around to realise all his friends, old and new, were looking at him.

"Hmmm, all right. I'm hungry." He said clapping his hands together.

"What was that?" Buffy asked curious.

"What was what?" Xander asked, looking down.

"That sigh Xander." Giles said, finishing Buffy's idea.

"Ummm that, it's nothing."

Buffy and Giles looked at each other and raised their eyebrows.

"All right, you can eat and tell us later, but Xan, something's wrong with you. You've been acting really bizarre this last month."

Dawn interrupted. "I told you Buffy, he's..."

"Dawn, please. Don't say that." Xander looked confused at Giles, then at Dawn.

"Say what??" He asked, with a questioning look.

"I..."

Buffy interrupted. "Not now, we'll go eat and then talk, all right?" Everyone nodded, except for Fred and Gunn, who looked at each other and then at the rest of them.

"We'll leave you alone for that. We'll go look after Connor."

"All right. Just be careful."

"Don't worry, we know him."

"Yeah, I know, but still..." Buffy looked really worried. Fred and Gunn smiled reassuringly and her and left.

*****

Spike and Angel were now in the bedroom and gazing at each other. Finally, Angel leaned down to Spike and kissed him tenderly. It was the most amazing kiss Spike had ever experienced coming from his Sire. They moaned into each other's mouth and began to tear at the other's clothes.

Finally, they were both naked and hard. Angel, still kissing Spike madly, gently pushed him until he was laying on the bed, his legs slightly apart and his cock standing proudly.

*****

Xander, Dawn, Giles and Buffy settled in the kitchen.

"Where's Willow?"

"She's upstairs. She doesn't wanna come down." Dawn said shyly. Willow was still a sore subject when she wasn't there with them. They tried not to talk about her too much.

"I..." 'God, I want to tell her now too. Don't want to have to do it twice... even if I will have to anyway, need to tell Cordy and the others...'

*****

Angel leaned on Spike like a cat and slowly kissed his way up from Spike's navel to his lips, stopping only to briefly suck at Spike's nipples. He stopped right on top of Spike lips and teased them. Slowly licking them, he drove Spike crazy. The blonde wanted to bring their lips closer, but every attempt failed, as Angel had him pinned down under him.

*****

"Dawn? Do you know if she'll be coming down soon?" Xander asked, trying to not sound like it was a matter of life and death. Well, it wasn't really, but Xander felt like it was. 'How are they gonna take it?' He kept asking himself.

"Don't know. Why?" Xander looked up and locked eyes with the young brunette. They looked into each other's eyes for a while and Dawn smiled encouragingly.

"Oh, it's nothing, I just need to talk to all of you is all." Dawn nodded. 'God, that girl understands fast!'

*****

Finally, Angel crushed Spike's mouth under his and kissed him frantically. Their tongues duelled for dominance as they rubbed against each other. Both moaned against the other's mouth as their groins touched. Angel let go of Spike's hands and let his own wander over the other's vampire's chest, while Spike's hands clutched at his back, trying to bring him closer.

They broke the kiss suddenly, panting unnecessarily.

"Angel." Spike moaned, pleading. "Can't get enough of you."

Angel smiled and sat back on his heels, straddling the other vampire. "And I can't get enough of you either." He looked at Spike warmly. "How do you want to do this?" He asked.

"What?" Spike was confused.

"You want me to take you, or you..." Angel trailed off, not able to say what he wanted to.

"Want you on me, Angel."

"On you? Isn't that in you?"

*****

"What do you need to talk to us about?" Giles asked, comfortingly. It must be hard for him if he's getting this worked up about it.

Xander looked up and smiled sheepishly at Giles. "It's not... well, it's important, but... I guess it can wait..."

"What can wait?" Willow asked from the doorway. Xander got scared suddenly.

"Noth..."

Dawn interrupted him. "Xander was going to tell us all something, but he wanted to wait for you."

*****

Spike looked at Angel and smiled. "No, not in me luv. ON me." Angel looked even more confused.

"I really don't understand."

Spike laughed lightly and reached up for his Sire's face, he brought him closer and kissed him.

"Me, under you. But me in you. I want you to ride me, luv."

*****

"Dawn!" Xander said.

"Look Xander, you’re better saying it now. This way, we'll stop bothering you."

"What is it about Xan?" Willow asked, sitting next to him.

"Does it have to do with your strange behaviour this last month?" Buffy joined in the questioning.

"Please stop asking questions and let me..." Xander looked at all of them.

"All right. We shall let you tell us." Giles smiled encouragingly.

*****

"Oh Spike! I..." Angel blushed. He had never thought about that, but he felt himself getting even harder at the thought of Spike's cock in him and...

"You never did that luv, I know. Need new experiences, don't we?" Not waiting for an answer, he continued, smiling wickedly. "B'sides, you said it was my choice. I want to be under you, and in you luv." He leaned up on his elbow and captured Angel's mouth again. Angel gave into the kiss and sucked on Spike's tongue in earnest. He gently pushed the other vampire down again and caressed his chest.

"You'll have to stretch me though Will. I'm still..." Spike smiled at his Sire's shyness.

"You still have a virgin tight hole luv. No matter how many times you’re taken, it'll stay the same. Bless vampire healing!" He smiled warmly at Angel.

*****

They all settled around the table and looked at him. Xander suddenly felt really nervous.

"Dawn, what were you talking about, when Buffy and Giles interrupted you?" He asked looking at the brunette.

"It's just, I've been telling them something has changed in your life and they don't wanna listen to me." Xander smiled.

"S'one of your big problems isn't it? Nobody listening to you?" Dawn smiled back. He understood.

"Yeah, it is." Dawn answered. "Anyway... you...?" She let the question trailed off, trying to get Xander to talk.

"You're right. Something really important changed."

"I KNEW it!" Dawn said loudly. "You're gay aren't you??"

*****

Angel smiled back at Spike and kissed him again. "Yeah bless vampire healing!" He said wickedly. He reached over to his nightstand and took the tube of lube he had used with Xander what felt like a lifetime ago. He gave it to Spike and waited for him to make his move.

Spike looked up at his sire and gently pushed him up.

"On your hands and knees love, it’ll be easier for both of us."

Angel complied. His head pillowed on his arms, he knelt there, in the middle of the bed, his ass in the air, like an offering. Spike began panting unnecessarily.

"God you're beautiful." He said his voice hoarse with desire. He reached for Angel's ass cheeks and started to caress them lightly, each stroke opening them, showing that beautiful puckered hole.

*****

Xander looked shocked then smiled.

"Dawn, you're an idiot. He can't..."

"Buffy!" Xander shouted. "Please, let me talk." Willow was shaking her head in denial, while Giles was looking at Xander puzzled.

"Are you?" He asked him gently.

"Yeah." They all stared at him as if he was an alien. "Hey don't look at me like that! I'm still Xander!"

"But Xander..."

"Willow, I'm sorry, but… I think I'm not the only one here!" Willow looked at her best friend disbelievingly. Buffy's mouth was open in shock and Dawn was waving her hand in her sister's face, trying to get a reaction. The young brunette seemed happy with herself. Yup, she'd be a really good detective!

*****

"Spike, stop teasing me already!" Angel moaned as Spike was kissing his lower back, his hands still on his buttocks. Spike smiled and slowly trailed a wet path towards Angel's hole. He kissed the object of his desire and began licking it.

"Oh Spike!!"

"Please, Angel." Spike stopped licking and looked up. "Sire, Call me William, please."

Angel smiled. "All right Will, but please, don't stop." Spike returned to his task and trailed his hands up and down Angel's hard muscled thighs.

*****

Buffy blinked and looked at Xander as if she was seeing him with new eyes.

"You're... You are..."

"Yes, Buffy. I'm gay. I like men."

"But... and Anya?" Willow couldn't believe what Xander was saying.

"Well... but and Oz?"

"So not the same thing." Willow said defensively.

"Well, it's not so different." Giles said. "But still..."

"You're right. Both of you. It's different but not really."

*****

Spike pressed his tongue inside and stroked Angel's silky inner walls. Angel had never been so aroused in his life. Spike's tongue was making him feel things he had never thought he could feel.

"Oh William! Please, more!" Spike withdrew his tongue and smiled. His Sire really was begging for him!

"Sure love." He took the tube of lube and coated his fingers. He slowly entered one finger in Angel's tight hole, eliciting a deep moan from the brown eyed vampire.

"Ohhhhhhh, Will!"

*****

"Wills, I know it's a shock" Xander continued, looking at Willow. "and I know I have absolutely no reason to be mad at you because you're mad at me... mmm, that didn't make sense but anyway." He smiled shyly. "I know I didn’t react well when you told us you... were gay. But please understand. You should understand Wills."

Willow looked at her best friend's pleading eyes. She brushed his cheek and smiled. "It's a shock. It really is." She looked into his eyes. "I mean, there was Cordelia and Anya... you almost married her Xan."

"I know." He looked down.

"What would've happened if you had gotten married?"

*****

Spike thrust a third finger in his lover's hole, scissoring them to stretch him even more, and trying to hit his prostate. He knew Angel loved to feel the stars that spot give him. Finally, he reached it and Angel arched his back and cried out in pleasure. "Oh WILL! More, please, more." Spike loved to have his Sire begging and writhing underneath his touch, but he couldn't wait anymore, and Angel was ready enough. He slowly took his fingers out and lay on his back, putting more lube on his hand and coating his erection.

"Will? What...?"

"You're ready love, come here." Spike said with a smile. God he loved it when Angel blushed.

*****

"I don't know Willow. I think..." He took his head in his hands. He had thought about this a lot in the last month. "I probably would've gotten a divorce, which would have made her even more pissed. I don't know. The important thing is, I'm not married."

Giles looked at him. "Maybe that's why you left her at the altar, Xander. You knew you weren't being true to yourself, so you left. You didn't want to hurt her more, by denying yourself something that would lead to you hurting her."

Xander looked at Giles surprised. "G-man, you should be a psychiatrist!" Everyone burst into laughter. "You're right. I felt like something was wrong and I knew I would have hurt her more by marrying her. I just didn't know what..."

Buffy looked at him. "So you're gay. That means we can talk about men with you and bring you shopping with us." Dawn laughed out loud and Xander smiled at Buffy's attempt to understand and be a good friend, which she was, just by trying. "But what's with the look and the sigh?"

*****

Angel turned around and looked at Spike, He was sprawled on the bed, his knees bent and his cock standing proud on his stomach. His arms were behind his head and he was smiling at Angel. The older vampire crawled towards him, smiling like a cat stalking his prey.

"You're ready Will?"

"Oh yeah! I am love." Angel kissed him lightly and straddled his chest. He looked a little scared, but he trusted Spike and the idea of being taken like this aroused him to no end.

Spike looked up at him and gently caressed his cheek. "It's all right luv." He whispered soothingly. "going to be good it is."

Angel smiled and kissed him passionately again. "I know William. I know." He reach behind him and took hold of Spike's cock, then he placed himself on top of it, the tip touching his now stretched hole.

"Oh, Angel! Now!" Spike screamed, his head thrown back, eyes closed in pleasure.

"Look at me Will."

*****

Xander blushed and look down. Dawn suddenly placed her hand on her mouth, as realisation kicked in, but still trying not to say anything. She had talked too much already.

"What Dawn? What is it?" Dawn looked at Buffy and shook her head.

"Nothing. Really it's nothing." Xander looked up at her and his eyes reflected a bit of fear.

"You know?" Dawn looked back into his eyes and realised she was right.

"Know what???" Buffy asked exasperated. Then realisation sunk in. "You and... oh God no. You and... no. Can't be. Xander!"

Xander was truly afraid now. He was only suppose to tell them he was gay, not that he was with not one, but two vampires. He looked at Buffy pleadingly.

"You! How can you?"

"How can he what Buffy? Please calm down." Giles tried to calm her by putting his arm around her shoulders.

"Him and .... God, I can't believe this."

"Buffy please, let me..."

"Let you what Xander?? Screw Spike? I did it myself and look where it got me. You found me after he..." Xander felt tears in his eyes. Yes he had found her, yes he felt guilty, but he couldn't go against what his heart told him.

"He's not the same Buffy. He's..." He couldn't continue.

*****

Spike opened his eyes and looked at Angel as the older vampire slowly lowered himself on his cock. Angel's head was thrown back and his eyes were closed tight in pleasure. It felt so good to have Spike in him. They both moaned as Spike was slowly encased in Angel's virgin tight hole.

"God Will, you feel so good in me!"

"You're bloody gorgeous like that you are." Angel gripped Spike's knees and bent backward, trying to take as much of Spike's cock inside him as he could. He kept moaning and moaning. Finally Spike was completely embedded in Angel's tight hole and both men stilled.

*****

Buffy got up and stormed out of the kitchen screaming. "I'm going to kill him and no one will stand in my way."

"BUFFY!! NO!" Xander screamed going after her. Luckily for him, she wasn't running. He got by her side and gripped her left arm. "Buffy please. Listen to me." He pleaded.

She turned towards him and looked into his pleading eyes. "What happened to you Xander? You're so different from your normal self. You're the one who kept telling me I shouldn’t have been with Angel, you’re the one who always said I was stupid…"

"I know, Buffy, I'm sorry." He said looking in her eyes. He felt so bad.

"What?"

*****

"Angel." Spike moaned. "Move. Now. Please." Angel opened his eyes and looked into Spike's desire filled eyes. They were dark from lust and Angel knew his own were just as dark. Fuck it felt so good.

Angel slowly raised his body letting Spike's hard member out of him until only the tip remained inside. Spike whimpered. Angel moaned and chuckled at the same time, making Spike laugh. Angel laughed loudly too, and soon the hard cock inside him slipped out completely as he leaned on Spike, his head on the other vampire's shoulder and both of them were laughing out loud. Finally, they both calmed down and Spike hugged Angel tightly to his chest.

"What was that for luv?"

Angel smiled in his lover's embrace. "You whimpered! I never thought you'd do that!"

Spike chuckled and smiled in Angel's hair. "Well, you bloody well should get back on me, or I'll do it again!"

"But I want you to do it again." Angel said wickedly.

*****

"I'm sorry Buffy. I know I've been a pain with you and Angel and I know about everything Spike did to you. I just…" He looked down, trying to find what to say to calm the slayer down. "He's… different. He has a soul, and he feels guilty about what he did. He's not really Spike anymore. He's William. And I KNOW he'll never hurt me."

"How can you be sure of that Xander?" Buffy asked still not believing.

"I've… We've been together for a month Buffy. When he came back from Africa. I took him in my apartment, cause I wanted to keep an eye on him, but he…"

"We should sit down. Xander, Buffy. You two need to talk and we need to hear. Just sit down." Xander turned around and realised Giles, Willow and Dawn had followed them in the lobby. He took Buffy's hand and led her to the couch. They both sat down.

"Continue Xander." Giles said encouragingly. Xander had never thought the watcher would take it so calmly.

"Thanks Giles." He smiled at him. "As I was saying. Spike did need to be watched, but not for our protection."

*****

"Get back on already." Spike said, he couldn't wait anymore, he needed Angel around him.

Angel complied and knelt again, his hands gripping Spike's knees. He positioned himself at a good angle and then lowered himself on Spike's cock again, teasingly slow.

"Fuck Angel! Faster!"

"Sure love." And he took him all the way in one swift movement. "Will!" They moaned loudly and began a fast pace. They were so worked up now. They really needed to go faster.

*****

"What do you mean?" Willow was looking at Xander with questioning eyes.

"The first night, he cried all night long. I tried to ignore him, but I couldn't. Finally, he stopped crying and I thought he had fallen asleep, but I wasn't sure. I… was worried. I mean, when what used to be a master vampire is crying his heart out, something must be seriously wrong. So I got up and went to look in on him. He was on the couch, curled up like a frightened child his arms around his legs. His face was completely soaked with tears and he was moaning in his sleep. At first, I didn't understand what he was saying, but finally I understood. His mind kept playing all the images of every time he hurt any of us." He looked at Buffy. "He kept apologizing to you in sleep for what he did to you and I could hear him telling himself not to do it, not to hurt you. And he was still crying. He was asleep and crying. I had never felt so helpless in my life. I… I took him in my arms and started to rock him like I would a scared child. He relaxed and soon, the dreams stopped. But every time I let him go, they would come back. So I ended up sleeping with him, just to calm him. That's where it started."

*****

Angel kept thrusting down faster and harder on Spike's aching cock. He didn't even touch himself. His own member was so hard, the tip touching his navel with every thrust. He was leaking precum. Angel could feel Spike's member starting to pulse with his oncoming climax. He took him deep in one swift motion and stopped there.

"Fuck, Angel!! Don't stop!" Spike screamed, then pushed up on his elbows and looked at his Sire with frustration and lust.

"M'not, Sp… Will. Want to feel you in me. You feel so good." Angel said, moaning deeply, he could feel his demon near the surface and he knew Spike was feeling the same way.

Spike noticed the slip of the name, but he didn't mind. It was hard for him anyway. "And you feel bloody good on me, cocktease, but I NEED to cum!"

*****

"That's where WHAT started?" Dawn asked curious.

"He started having other sorts of dreams. About me." They all looked at him in shock. He blushed, realising what he had just said. "Oh, NO. Not like that. He would just talk about me in his sleep. About how much he…" He stopped looking for the right word. "didn't wanna hurt me. Never wanted to, and how he knew he would never be good enough for me, that I would never forgive him what he did." He looked down, the memories overwhelming by how much they reminded him of earlier. God he should've know it would happen. "Once, he even said that he had never felt safer in his life than when he was in my arms. My heart just melted. I mean…" He said looking back up at his friends. "he was there, telling me how much I made him feel safe and he looked so frightened, so needy. I…"

"You fell in love with him." Buffy said very calmly as if stating an obvious fact.

"I didn't know I had. I just realised today. When he was awake, he wouldn't say anything, just tease me, like his old self. But at night…" He looked at each one of them, in the eyes. "Yes, I'm in love with him. And I won't let anyone hurt him."

Buffy looked at him. "I know." She smiled. "I won't touch him Xander. I won't dust him. If he really is like you say he is, he needs you."

*****

"I need to cum, Angel, please, don't stop!" Spike repeated. Angel wasn't moving, just staring at him with lust filled eyes. Then, he realised something. "Oh, I see what you want. He tried to reach for Angel's cock, but the angle made it difficult, so instead he looked into Angel's eyes. "Touch yourself for me, please." Angel felt his cock twitched in anticipation. He took one of his hands off Spike's knee and began slowly stroking himself. Spike had never seen anything so sexy in all his unlife. Finally, 'fucking finally', Angel started moving again, the pace becoming rapidly fast and hard. Angel stroke himself in time with his thrusting. Up and down, up and down. Spike gripped Angel's hips and thrust up in Angel's hole.

"Oh, Will!!"

"Angel! You're so tight, so good. Can't get enough of you, never." Spike was moaning incoherently, all thoughts driven out of his mind. Angel took his other hand off of Spike's knee, letting Spike control the pace, and began squeezing his sac.

Spike looked at his sire. His back was arched, his head thrown back and his eyes tightly shut by the overwhelming pleasure. One of his hand on his cock, the other on his balls, while Spike was fucking his virgin-tight hole. Spike had never seen anything so beautiful.

*****

"Buffy, I… don't know what to say." Xander said looking at her, surprised.

"Just…" She gently touched his cheek and smiled warmly. "Take care of him." She said tenderly. "But I assure you, if he ever, ever hurts you, I'll dust him and there will be no arguments. Hear me?" She added in her best slayer-knows-best voice.

"Buffy." Xander took the slayer in his arms and hugged her tight. "Thank you. Thank you so much. You don't know what it means to me." 'God, how am I gonna tell her about Angel?'

Dawn smiled at him and blew him a kiss. He laughed and sent her a kiss back. Willow came beside him. She still looked a bit annoyed, but she was happy for him. Just as long as Spike never hurt him, she was fine with it. Giles took off his glasses and proceeded to clean them thoroughly.

"What is it G-man?"

*****

"Oh. So beautiful, Sire." Spike could feel his release approaching. He looked at Angel and drank in the sight. His true features struggled to emerge. He thrust deep into Angel's hole one last time and came with a scream.

"ANGEL! Ahhhhhh." Angel felt like thunder was coursing through him as Spike's cock hit his nub hard one last time.

"WILLIAM!!! Ohhh, so good!" He came with force in his hands, all over Spike's chest. They both stilled with the force of their orgasms. Spike resumed thrusting, shallowly, as he felt his orgasm slowly subside. Angel collapsed on Spike, drained. Angel could smell Spike's borrowed blood just under his skin and his stomach growled. His demon features emerged and he bit down his childe's neck, bending his own, in silent invitation.

Spike felt Angel's teeth biting into his throat and he looked up to see his Sire's offering. Never had Angel let Spike bite him, not even when he was Angelus. He kept his neck to himself. Or Darla. But now… it was time for new beginning, so Spike felt himself change to game face and he bit his Sire's throat gently, drawing blood in his mouth.

*****

"What?" Giles looked up at Xander.

"You're cleaning your glasses, hence you're upset."

Giles looked at Xander. "I'm… I'm just a bit worried… for you, but also for him. Mostly for you."

"Why?" Everyone's eyes were on Giles.

"Well, Spike is still a vampire, even with his soul, he won’t be able to let go of some vampire feelings. Like possessiveness." He looked in Xander's eyes. "You're his. He won't let anyone else ever touch you. And if he… falls in love with you too, then he won't be able to let you go. He won't want you to grow old and die on him. He might just turn you out of grief."

"He would never…" Xander started to protest.

"I know, Xander, he said he would never hurt you and I trust him. At least now I do. It's just that, we know so little things about vampires with souls. Angel and Spike being the only ones that ever existed to my knowledge. I just hope I'm wrong." Giles put his glasses back on. They were his children. The four of them. He needed to protect them. "And if he doesn't end up killing you… he might just end up killing himself, because he doesn't want to be alone."

Xander looked down and thought about Spike and Angel. They would have each other for eternity. But Xander would only stay a lifetime. Now he understood their earlier fear. He didn't wanna leave them either.

"I have a question G-man." He said looking up.

"Yes, Xander, ask."

"If… he ever did it… you know, turned me." Giles shook his head and tried to speak. "Don't speak, let me finish." Giles nodded. "So, if he ever turned me, is there a way to give me my soul back? I know Angel's curse was specifically for him, but…"

"I believe it can be changed to fit you Xander, but…"

"I know, you don't want it to happen, but it's just a what if…" They all looked at each other, the tension almost unbearable.

"All right. Lets not talk about this now, shall we?" They all nodded and got up.

Willow hugged Xander tight. "Don't go dying on me, k?"

"I promise I won't Wills." He hugged her back.

"They're awfully long with this Sire/Childe talk don't you think? Maybe you should be jealous!" Dawn teased him. Xander blushed and looked up the stairs. I should go and see what they're doing.

"Yeah. You go up there and make sure he's not cheating on you. It'll give us some time to think about all this." Buffy said.

"Yeah." Xander quickly ran up the stairs, wanting to get away before he told them Spike was actually kinda cheating on him, but not really. 'God, that is complicated. But it went much better than I thought it would.'

He quickly reached Angel's room and knocked lightly. He opened the door slowly and entered, closing it right after him. The sight that welcomed him made his heart melt. They were both sleeping, snuggled against each other and completely naked. Angel was half on top of Spike and had the younger vampire in a protective hug. Spike had his arms around Angel's chest and looked like he was trying to blend with him.

Xander smiled at his lovers and slowly walked to bed. He sat down on the edge and gently stroked Angel's back, his other hand caressing Spike's cheek. He noticed the rapidly healing scars on their neck and he knew it was something he would never be a part of and he was ok with it, unless of course one day they did turn him. He lowered his head and tenderly kissed their lips. Then he settled himself on Spike's other side, and wrapped his arms around him, one of his hands resting on Angel's shoulder.

"I love you." He said looking at them both and he knew it was true. He loved them. Both of them.

The END… finally!!!… for now