Title: Wanted: Love

Series: The Wanted Series 5

The previous parts of the series can be found at: www.quebecpop.com/sarah_sofy_swathi or on the UCSL archive.

Author: Soft Princess

E-mail: sofy_slashnuts@hotmail.com

Disclaimer: Spike and Xander are not mine. They belong to the God, Joss Whedon and all the others that have a claim on them… Also, all other characters, places and settings of BtVS are not mine either. Only the plot is mine… if there is one.

Rating: NC-17

Pairing: Spike/Xander

Summary: After a bad scooby meeting, Spike proceeds to show Xander just how much he loves him.

Notes:

(1) This is my entry for the First Edition of the Slashaholics Song Fic Awards, to the song: Insatiable by Darren Hayes.

(2) I think this is it for the Wanted Series. Five ficlets. I know, you'll miss the fluffiness, but don't worry, I have another fluffy saga I started. A/X this time. I'll post the first part later tonight, or tomorrow. Hope you'll like it. If any of you want to write in the Wanted universe, feel free to do so, but please, do tell me. I would be happy to share my universe with you. :-)

Don't be surprise though if Min (my muse) decides one day that she wants to write another Wanted, I'm just saying that this is probably where it'll end. But we never know.

***

"Why?" Xander sobbed, wrapped in Spike's arms. "Why are they being so mean?"

"Dunno Love. Think they just don't understand." Spike whispered gently.

"But they should! They're my friends. Friends are suppose to accept each others choices, but the way Buffy reacted..." Tears were falling freely from Xander's eyes.

"Slayer's just jealous Love. She just doesn't understand why you get to be with me when I turned her down." Spike gently caressed Xander's back up and down. He looked worriedly around. He didn't like being outside at this time of night, especially with Xander. He needed to get inside. "Should get going. The crypt's still a ways away."

"My apartment is nearer. We could... go there." Xander managed between sobs. He hadn't returned there since Anya had left him, except to retrieve clothes and clean a little.

"Yeah. 'S a good idea." Spike said, gently untangling himself from Xander's arms and wrapping his right arm protectively over his lover's waist. "And besides love, you shouldn't talk about the slayer's reaction. Recall you didn't like the Poof that much."

Xander looked at him, stunned. "Don't even go there! There's a whole issue lying in that direction and I don't even want to start explaining. And it's really not the same..."

"Not the same love? I did try to kill all of ya. And I tried to get Buffy to the dark side not so long ago I recall..."

"But..."

"No buts love."

"Buffy tried to stake you! This is worse than I did to Angel! She was willing to kill you right in front of me, just after I had told her how much I love you! And Willow! You saw her face? It was like I had betrayed her or something! The things she said..." The tears started flowing back from his eyes.

"I know Love... Shhh... I'll make it all better. Love you I do."

"I know... I love you too Spike." The vampire leaned in and gently pressed his lips to the human’s warm ones. A shadow in the alley watched them as they left, a wave of red hair catching the light before the shadow disappeared. Neither man saw it, as lost in each other as they were.

"Mind if we get in your apartment now Love? It's not safe around here."

Xander nodded and, drying his tears, quickly led the way to his place. He unlocked his door and entered the apartment, quickly making sure it was clean, before inviting the vampire in.

"Nice place you got love." Spike said impressed.

"Thanks." Xander blushed. "I like it here and it's big enough that I can have my friends over..." //But they probably won't be back for a long time now...// Xander couldn't help it and started crying all over again.

"Shhh." Spike went to Xander's side and gently held him close. "S'ok Love... they'll come back. They'll understand... and even if they don't they love ya enough to accept it... just give 'em time."

"But Buffy... she did say... you or them... but I can't chose."

"You shouldn't have to Xan. It's your life, you can't chose between your friends and the one you love... you do love me don't ya?"

Xander looked up in Spike's eyes and smiled warmly through the tears. "Only for you would I have gone through all this. Only for you." He whispered before leaning in and pressing his lips to Spike's.

*Dring!*

The phone rang, startling them both. Xander looked at it and shrugged. "I have an answering machine. They'll leave a message."

*Dring*

Spike nodded and sat on the couch, pulling Xander down with him and settling him on his lap.

*Dring*

*You have reach Xander's house of fun *voice in background* And Anya!, yes and Anya too, so if you want, just leave us a message after the beep.*

Xander jumped at Anya's voice, but Spike just held him tighter. They'd have to change the message SOON.

*"Xander? I know you're there. It's Giles. This is strange, talking to this wretched machine. Dawn called me. Although it's very early over here, I thought I should call you. I'm not certain what to say. Just, be careful will you? I trust you Xander. I don't understand what happened and how you and Spike ended up... together, but if it's really what you want, then I will trust you. Take care, and call me if you need anything."*

Spike smiled. //Knew the watcher would trust me. Know he didn't say it, really, but it's in there. Subliminal message and all that.//

Xander was surprised, but he felt a tingle of hope sweeping through his heart. Giles trusted him. "Wow. It's like having my dad's blessing."

Spike took his lover head in his hands and their eyes locked. "Feels like that, doesn't it? That bloody wanker of a father you have, he's nothing to you like the watcher is, isn't it? Watched you with him, he's more of a father to you than that prick that fathered you ever could be."

Xander smiled at that and snuggled back in his lover's embrace. He could never have enough of Spike's arms.

*Dring*

"Wow, it's calling night tonight." Xander joked. They waited for the machine to pick up, neither of them wanting to answer.

*"Xander? Look... I'm sorry. I never... never wanted to act that way. I don't understand, but that doesn't mean I should be that harsh with you. I... I saw you... with Spike in the alley. It's like... you guys are so sweet. I... never thought about it really before, but, you never seemed that happy with Cordelia or Anya. You had that look on your face, even with the tears, that I know I have when Tara tells me she loves me. You're my best friend, so... come by tomorrow so I can give the shovel talk to your... boyfriend, I guess.. This is so weird. See you soon. Call me, bye."*

"Hear that?" Xander whispered in awe in his lover's neck. "She called you my boyfriend. You *are* my boyfriend Spike."

The vampire just smiled at his lover's surprise. "Come on love, time to get in bed."

"But I'm not sleepy." Xander whined playfully.

"Who said we'd be sleeping?" Spike smirked.

Xander's breath caught in his throat as it did every time Spike looked at him that way. With lustful heat in his eyes and that smile on his lips.

Spike helped Xander to his feet and let the human lead the way to his bedroom. There, they stood face to face, smiling warmly. The vampire was the first to move. He pressed his lips to Xander in a sweet loving kiss, before withdrawing, his hand gently brushing the brunette's cheek and looking into his lover's eyes.

"I love you Xan. I love you so much it hurts here." He said, his free hand on his chest. "Gonna show your friends how much I love you every day until they understand and believe I won't hurt you."

Xander brought his left hand to Spike's face and gently brushed the back over the vampire's cheek in a similar gesture to the vampire.

"How about you show *me* first?"

Spike's eyes darkened with love and lust at once. "Every moment we are together love, every moment." He whispered lovingly in Xander’s ear.

The sun had set an hour ago, but still some light lingered in the street. As they undressed each other, the darkness slowly took over the streets, bringing a gentle warm summer night breeze. The outer world was lost for both men.

When moonlight crawls along the street
Chasing away the summer heat
Footsteps outside somewhere below
The world revolves I've let it go

Their lips met, tongues dancing with each other, as hands roamed naked bodies. Nothing else existed for them in that moment. Spike gently laid Xander on the bed and proceeded to show him just how much he loved him, his cool hands caressing the soft flesh of his lover.

We build our church above the street
We practice love between these sheets
The candy sweetness scent of you
It bathes my skin I'm stained by you

The vampire kissed and nipped at Xander's flesh, breathing the young man's scent deeply. He wanted to bathe in it, he wanted the scent to impregnate him, to stain him. "Want to have your scent on me all the time love." He whispered hoarsely, as he leaned over his lover, kissing his lips once more.

Xander wrapped his arms around Spike, holding him tightly. He gently roamed his hands on his lover's back, eliciting a deep moan from the vampire. "Love you Spike." He whispered back, nipping his lover's earlobe. The human heart was beating so fast, Spike felt like he was alive again.

And all I have to do is hold you
There's a racing within my heart
I am barely touching you

He reached on the bedside table and turned out the lights. Xander took his lover's wandering hand in his own and brought it to him, leaving it on his chest, while his own hand reached for the lube.

Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable

The young man coated the vampire's fingers before leading them between his legs to his puckered hole. "Love me. Like the first time." He whispered in his lover's ear. "I'll never get enough of you."

Spike looked in his lover's eyes and smiled warmly. He pressed his lips to Xander's, kissing him passionately, while his fingers gently penetrated the tight warmth. The vampire slowly started thrusting in and out, their lips still touching. He opened his eyes and looked directly in his lover's. Xander was writhing in pleasure, lost in the sensations Spike's fingers were bringing him.

Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable

With the lights off, the room was bathed in moonlight, drawing shadow in the room and wrapping Xander in a beautiful, luminous embrace. Spike couldn't tear his eyes away.

The moonlight plays upon your skin
A kiss that lingers takes me in

"Xan.. you don't know what you do to me." He said hoarsely. "So bloody beautiful you are."

Their eyes met and their needs were understood. Xander pulled his knees up to his chest moaning as Spike's fingers left him.

I fall asleep inside of you
There are no words
There's only truth

Spike draped himself over Xander's body, placing his cock at the young man's entrance. He slicked himself and gently pushed inside. Home. They moaned in ecstasy as they were once again, one. Whole.

Together they moved in harmony, up and down, following an unheard rhythm. Everything seemed to fade, no sound, nothing existed apart from them and their bodies. Breathing together, their lips met once more.

Breathe in Breathe out
There is no sound
We move together up and down
We levitate our bodies soar
Our feet don't even touch the floor

Spike was so sweet and gentle, making sure not to hurt his lover. He was moving slowly and lovingly.

//Why don't they understand? I feel so different, so whole with him in my life. Ohh, please, do understand! I won't ever leave him. I'm finally myself, finally strong enough to be myself, to love, to care, to dream. I was worthless, but with him, I'm someone.//

And nobody knows you like I do
'Cos the world they don't understand
But I grow stronger in your hands

For what seemed like hours, they moved, their bodies melting together, as Spike pushed his cock in Xander's tight hole, withdrew and pushed again, sending waves of pleasure through both their bodies.

The vampire kissed the human's jaw, slowly trailing downwards to nip at the nipples, eliciting more and more moans from the young man.

Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable

"Love your taste love." Spike said hoarsely. "Wanna taste all of you."

"Oh Spike!" Xander moaned in pleasure as the vampire bit gently on his tender flesh. The young man had never felt so loved. This was perfect, loving and sweet.

Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable

"I'm close Love." Spike whispered, his voice harsh with pleasure. He brought his face back up and kissed Xander sweetly. The young man could feel his own balls getting tighter and he knew it wouldn't be long for him either.

Faster and harder they moved, their need taking over. Spike wrapped his hand on Xander's erection, the young man adding his own. Together, they stroked and thrust, up and down, up and down. Never losing the rhythm, they drove each other to completion. Waves after waves of pleasure coursed through them as they crushed their lips together, wanting to feel all of each other in that perfect moment.

We never sleep we're always holdin' hands
Kissin' for hours talkin' makin' plans
I feel like a better man
Just being in the same room
We never sleep there's just so much to do
So much to say
Can't close my eyes when I'm with you
Insatiable the way I'm loving you

They collapsed on top of each other, spent. Spike slipped out of Xander, and, not breaking the kiss, he lay on his back, rolling Xander over until he was wrapped around the vampire's chest. "Warm blanket you are."

"That's your post-coital comment? How about, wow, that was the most amazing moment of my young life, can we do it again?"

"Don't you wanna sleep love?" Spike asked, smiling mischievously.

Xander shook his head. "Never when I'm with you, blondie." He said lovingly. "Can never get enough of you."

Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable

Spike hugged Xander tighter to himself. "Not letting you go ever. They can say whatever they want, I love your scent, love your taste and don't wanna stop smelling and tasting you ever. Wanna do it every day, every night for the rest of your life."

Xander sighed in contentment. "That was the best way to show me you loved me."

"Really?" Spike asked smiling.

"Yeah. You're so sweet. I love you."

"Vampires don't do sweet."

"They don't, but you do."

"Ok." Spike said. "Just for you, but don't tell anyone, don't want them to think I'm a poof."

Xander giggled and pressed his lips to Spike's. "Your secret is very safe with me."

"Won't use that for blackmail will you?"

"Nah. I have the puppy eyes for that." Xander answered, showing Spike just what he was talking about.

"Don't do that pet, can't resist you when you do that." Spike said, gesturing as if to protect himself from Xander's eyes.

"Hehe, that's the point baby." Xander giggled.

Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable baby

Their eyes locked. For a long time, they just stayed there, still, not able to tear their eyes away from each other. So many things were said without words in that moment, so many promises exchanged. And they knew without a doubt. Nothing would ever come between them.

When I look in your eyes
Insatiable
The way I'm loving you
Oh what can I do
Insatiable
Insatiable my love for you

Laying his head back on Spike's chest, Xander closed his eyes, feeling at peace and warm, safe. It was the best feeling of all.

"I love you Spike. Will do forever."

"I'll never stop loving you either Xan. Sleep now."

Promises exchanged and love shared, they fell asleep, hoping that morning would bring them understanding and friendship back.

The end...