Burning Moonlight
By Trixx

Title: Burning Moonlight
Author: Trixx
Email: nefra2@shaw.ca
Pairing: S/X
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Songfic
Authors Notes: This was written for the songfic challenge on the m-mslashaholics list. Song lyrics are preceded and ended by *. Xander’s thoughts preceded and ended by // Spikes thoughts are preceded < and ended by >
Disclaimer: I do not own, I merely play... um... I promise to give em back.

*When moonlight crawls along the street

Chasing away the summer heat*

//I’ve been watching the sunlight creep along the street, leaving darkness in its wake. I know he’ll be here soon. He always comes when the sun goes down. He won’t leave me. I know… I feel his desperation. His need to penetrate me, penetrate the darkness that calls to me. He brings me back time and time again from the brink, brings me back from the abyss I’m trying to lose myself in.//

*Footsteps outside somewhere below

The world revolves I've let it go*

//He’s coming. He’s coming to me, to keep me sane, to keep me here. He makes me real, makes me what I am. Every tender caress, kiss, breath, the look in his eyes when he makes me his, he’s coming now; I don’t have long to wait. Soon, I won’t have to think anymore, I’ll only have to feel, feel him, all of him, as he breathes life into me.//

*We build our church above the street

We practice love between these sheets*

//I can hear him at the door. Standing there, scant minutes that feel like hours. I know what he’s doing; he’s composing himself before he enters to greet me. We both know why he’s here. We both know, we both want it, and yet he fights it, for scant minutes he fights it, and then he gives in, when he opens the door, he caves, my scent overwhelming him. My misery making him want, need, groan with suppressed desire.//

*The candy sweetness scent of you

It bathes my skin I'm stained by you*



*And all I have to do is hold you

There's a racing within my heart

I am barely touching you*



*Turn the lights down low*



*Take it off

Let me show*

//He’s slowly peeling his clothes away from his alabaster skin, revealing his well muscled form, and I can’t help but gasp at the pure beauty of him. Hard angles, and softly glowing whiteness, consume me. He consumes me. He’s almost to the bed when I hear his zip go down. I close my eyes at the bolt of desire, hot and pure, hits the pit of my stomach, making it drop out from beneath me, at that cold column of velvety steel. I want him, at the threat of eternal hellfire, I want him.//

*My love for you

Insatiable*

//He’s sliding on the bed now, and I can’t help but open my arms to him. I need to hold him close. I hiss as his cold flesh comes into contact with my overheated skin. The cold sparking a fire deep within me, it burns brightly, out of control, consuming me, the answering fire burning deep inside his aquiline blue eyes. He wants to devour me whole, make me a part of him. So help me I want it more and more with each passing day.//

*Turn me on

Never stop

Wanna taste every drop*



*My love for you

Insatiable*

//I gently lick the tip of his cock, taking slow leisurely swipes at it, hearing him growl, feeling his hands tunnel into my hair, his fingers kneading my scalp, I slowly open my mouth and devour him.//

*The moonlight plays upon your skin

A kiss that lingers takes me in*



*I fall asleep inside of you

There are no words

There's only truth*

//I know that what he feels for me may not be real. I know, I just don’t care, because when he’s holding me like this, touching me, kissing me, I can fool myself for a little while that he loves me. He needs me, I can feel my climax approaching, feel the truth inside him, his gasping breath, the way he moans my name. He makes my demon sleep, the demon eating away at me, tearing me apart, he makes it sleep, makes me feel like me again, makes me feel… I gasp his name, it’s going to be over to soon.//

*Breathe in Breathe out

There is no sound

We move together up and down

We levitate our body’s soar

Our feet don't even touch the floor

And nobody knows you like I do

'Cos the world they don't understand

But I grow stronger in your hands*



*Turn the lights down low

Take it off

Let me show

My love for you

Insatiable

Turn me on

Never stop

Wanna taste every drop

My love for you

Insatiable*

//Even when I’m dreaming I’m in his arms, wrapped tightly against the tide, the flood of pain that comes from day to day living. He is me, he is everything I know is sane in this world, but he is also the most dangerous part. The part of me I try to hide from, the part he puts to sleep, he embodies all those things, and yet, still he’s more, so much more. I can feel him kissing my ear and my body begins to stir. He nips at my neck and once again I’m painfully hard, erection hard against my stomach. Throbbing painfully.//

*We never sleep we're always holdin' hands

Kissin' for hours talkin' makin' plans

I feel like a better man

Just being in the same room*



*We never sleep there's just so much to do

So much to say

Can't close my eyes when I'm with you

Insatiable the way I'm loving you*

//He’s staring at me again, and I feel like I’m melting into him, drowning in the blue depths of his inscrutable eyes. I feel the love shining in his every touch, his desire to please, and his desire to be loved and pleased in return. He shows me without words how much he loves me, and I just have to hope someday he’ll tell me. He’ll say the words I’m longing to hear, the words I only have the courage to say in my mind for now. I love you.//

“What did you say pet?” Spike looked down into shocked chocolate eyes. Brushing his lips against Xander’s temple. “Say it again.” Spike whispered into Xander’s hair, holding the boy close.

“I… I love you Spike…” Xander broke off uncertainly, closing his eyes against the embarrassment, the rejection he knew to be coming.

“I love you to Xan-pet.” Spike spoke quietly, whispering the words, tightening his arms about the mortal when he felt him stiffen, afraid to let him go. “I love you Xan, I always have…” Spike broke off as Xander mashed their lips together.

“You make me…” Xander broke off, overwhelmed by the tide of emotion sweeping through him. Closing his eyes he began to sing.

”Turn the lights down low

Take it off

Let me show

My love for you

Insatiable

Turn me on

Never stop

Wanna taste every drop

My love for you

Insatiable”

Finally opening his eyes, he saw the same need reflected there. He knew... he knew what he felt, he wasn’t the only one.