Not Jenny (anymore)

I don't know how
or when
it happened
But somehow
You and me
got way off track
Was it the way
you stopped eating
and started running
Running faster and faster
(What are you running from?)
Was it the way
you stopped calling?
Too busy?
Yeah, sure
Was it the way
you started smoking too much?
Sucking each one like it gave you strength, gave you life, they were your crutch!
Your life started moving faster
Fancy people, tricky ways
Not the simple life you were used to, huh?
Faster, faster, things flew by you
(She was just a little better than you, wasn't she honey?)
Choices, decisions, contracts, dinners, negotiations, deals, offers, parties, galas, charities, images, articles, interviews, conferences, appearances, fittings--- did you even want to do any of that?
Was it all those times
You held loud conversions
on your cell phone
"Just five secs, hon, this is important."
Was it the people staring?
The press? The hounding?
Was it all those nights I sat at home
waiting for you to breeze through the door
and you didn't...?
Way it the way you didn't love me anymore?
Yeah, I figured so
The question is why
What happened to you?
I can no longer hold you
and call you Jenny
Cause you're not Jenny
anymore...

By T.D.