I knew nothing of such hate, so much pain, the disgust
I was not prepared to handle anger, jealousy and mistrust
I walked blindly into this world & when my eyes could see
I was bound, I was gagged, I was bleeding mercilessly
I took it upon myself to accept and handle it in stride
I had no self respect, no soul, only broken pride
I believed him every time when he apologized
I slowly learned to bite my tongue, instead I silently cried
I thought that I had somehow failed in my role as wife
I figured I could let it go, this would be my life
The night his hands were firm & hard around my throat
I thought my time was through, my book of life un-wrote
A feeling came alive within; I knew I wanted to live
I wanted freedom and the opportunities it would give
For the first time I put myself in the spot of #1
Imagining a life alone, just me and my sons
I fled the home one desperate night; it’s been a long and lonely ride
And yet I know the future holds all the dreams I keep inside
~Ash~
Confusion
Wonderful thoughts fill my mind
I feel alive and free
Life hits me full force
I crash, I fall, I cry
I live with the confusion
of life
Beautiful days full of fun
Laughing and living for once
Pain seeps back into my heart
I crash, I fall, I cry
Confusion
Sorrow lives in my soul
Forever I am locked within the hurt
I know my past is my future
I am doomed
Forgiveness I ask for my thoughts
I dream of escape, of true freedom
I dream of painfree, sorrowfree life
Of drifting without falling again
Never crashing, never crying
Forgive my confusion
I begin again with my life
A new day brings new hope
I know deep within
It is only time
Till I crash, till I fall, till I cry
with the confusion
Mistaken
You think you know the answers
To the questions life throws your way
You think you have it figured out
And you know just what to say
You're Mistaken
You make so many promises
You share so many dreams
You give of yourself, so much inside
And get nothing back it seems
You're Mistaken
You say that you are sorry
You say it's not your fault
I wish you could just admit
That you knew this all along
You're Mistaken...
You didn't mean to hurt me
And yet you make me cry
You didn't mean to make me feel
Like I am breaking deep inside
You're Mistaken
I believe you are mistaken
You will realize one day, I'm sure
That you have just thrown away
A love so very pure
"Se lo mancate mai, se ritenete mai come comunicare... Sono là"
A lost lonely child. She searches for her mother. Crying, many tears drifting down her tiny face. She wanders back and forth across the miles searching, searching. For someone so tiny, someone so lost and sad it is even more terrifing to help her than to watch her. For helping means admitting there is no little girl;
It is only me inside my soul who I watch from a distance.. knowing she is lost but not being able to help her. I sit and watch her cry.
