No Game
The Key
dedicated to my brother...
Scared? Am I scared?
Hell, yes! That is true
I admit I am afraid
Of your strength but not of you
You look at me with distrust
Cruelness in your eyes, coldness in your heart
You judge me but you don't know me
On the same earth but worlds apart
You hate me without one word said
A look that shows it all
I'm no longer confused by this reaction
Nor does it cause my head to fall
Just because I look different
Doesn't give you any right
To treat me less than human
To always start a fight
Being different doesn't hurt you
Only ignorance is to blame
For being someone's judge
For causing someone pain
You will know your own great sorrow
Feeling scared of an attack
You will be the one to wonder
How to get your freedom back
Then you'll remember what I've told you
Underneath we're all the same
It's my blood that you're now shedding
My life is not your game.
Destruction Of My Soul
I've not lost God
It is I who've left Him
Deep within my pain
Deep within my sin
The darkness forever surrounds me
Forgiveness is my only need
Obsessions, pride, false passions
On them, continually, I feed
I have not yet begun the task
Of picking up my soul
From the many pieces
Lost upon the floor
I have no one to blame
It's I who've caused the fall
I know the truth in shame
Feeling lost within it all
I fear there's nothing I can do
To begin my life again
The destruction of my soul
Will take me to the end.
When his touch is no longer there
His arms are empty and void
He's telling someone else he cares
It's not you he wants to hold
He's dreaming of another woman
But lying next to you in bed
A ring may be on his strong hand
But lost all meaning in his head
Your heart feels broken into pieces
Tangled with your feelings on the floor
Again, you think, please not again
I can not handle anymore
Escape, quick into freedom
Get out while you still can
For if you wait, you'll lose yourself
Giving your heart, soul, love to this man.
So I Cry
Some nights as I lay sleeping
I wake to hear your voice
Whispering on the phone
It's then I make my choice
I ignore all the pain I feel
Ignore my breaking heart
I tell myself "it's nothing"
And let the warm tears start
Silent, down my face they fall
As I lay weeping
And if you happen to walk in
I pretend that I am sleeping
I made my choice to stay
So very long ago
I pretend that nothings wrong
I pretend that I don't know
I could never leave you
I have no where I could go
So I only cry
It's the only way I know
I hold you gently in my arms
I breathe in your sweet scent
I am captured by your charms
This gift that God has sent
Your smile is worth a thousand jewels
With just one you own my heart
You make this grown man into a fool
And I gladly play the part
A secret I have finally learned
One which makes wise men ponder
Now you share it with the world
So we no longer wonder,
People question God above
Saying "Show yourself to me"
But He is within our hearts and love
And God made you the key.
Behold
Before I knew your face so well
Before I'd touched your toes
Before I held you close to me
And kissed away all woes
Before you had heard my voice
Singing to you softly
Before you had gone to sleep
As we were gently rocking
Before you were born I knew
You were a gift adored
Given to us to love
From our precious Lord
And now my child, listen close
This I tell you true
Look around and you will see
These stars are made for you.
A Difference
It came to me this morning
That I'd missed out on something great
Yesterday when I met you
Buying coffee, out so late
I wondered why you were crying
As I held the door for you
Maybe you'd lost a job, a friend?
Possibly a divorce to go through?
I had handed you a tissue
And asked "Are you ok?"
All you did was nod your head
Yet I walked away
Afterwards I cried myself
Thinking of your pain
I wondered if it was for sorrow
Or possibly for shame
And now I do realize
A great mistake I have made
I should have stayed there with you
And made sure you were ok
We would have had each other
Maybe your heart would mend
Instead of crying all alone
You could've cried with a friend
The Color of Rage
Lord, I feel so angry
I'm filled with sorrow, it's so deep
I feel as though I'm dying
Drowning in my sleep
I know that you are listening
I can feel Your love is near
But my heart has hardened deeply
It's tough to feel You there
Oh, why is this happening?
Why do I feel this way?
Each day I face a question
What's the color of my rage?
Is it neon RED for my anger
Royal BLUE for my pain
Pale YELLOW for my sorrow
CLEAR tears that fall like rain
If only it were ending
Give up and just let go
The world is my paintbrush
Colors of rage paint my soul
PINK for deep old hurts
That never go away
ORANGE for insults and crushed feelings
Chisled in my heart to stay
PURPLE for frustration
It builds up so very fast
Dark GREEN for jealousy
That one rarely lasts
BURGUNDY for my anguish
A rich deep color of my pain
Midnight BLACK for depression
A deep void to lose myself in
I'm sunk inside the hurt
All I feel is shame and sorrow
I only want to be free
Begin a new tomorrow
These colors are what I feel
At this time in my life
I pray it won't always be this way
None of it feels right
Red, Pink, Green, and Purple
Beautiful colors, very bright
They bring you Hope, Peace and Love
When you see them in the light
