Today we are following Patient 9605-223. We have given him a new form of medication called SR-Three-thirteen that slows down the brain, and allows all the thoughts to be spoken. All the information is sent, so eventually all of the thoughts arrive. However, as the medication wears off, the brain is hit with millions of “should-have-thought” messages at once, and the subject either lapses into a coma, or dies. We hope to achieve, in this process, a better understanding of writers, and their version of the role they play in society. Be aware that these thoughts are straight from the subject, as we have not had time to organize them. We found this to be the easiest format for displaying the order in which they think.
Day One, 18:27:43:
“I write when it feels natural. Eventually, during a seven-day week, inspiration comes or thought is provoked. If there is none, then it is not the easiest time to write. Not only do I suffer through the words, but the reader also suffers through a painfully forced read. Even as we speak my eyes lack the glow of inspiration, and my hand is moved only because my nudging elbow pushes it on. This is not how it should be.”
“I want the reader to see things as they enter a scene, as if they entered a room. Something as quick and as blunt as a murder might happen in a matter of seconds, but the person who just entered will still have a feeling of the room, and enough detail to maneuver around the room and discover more details as they move about. There are so many things that are not thought or even described to ones self.”
“Right now I can’t see anything. I cannot see in my mind, and I cannot see through my eyes. Light refracts, objects are present, but they have no use for me. If I were to describe them to you, they would lack the soul even a prototype would. My body calls for the rest and my eyes starve. This is forced writing. Expect no description. Expect no characters, expect nothing. Nothing will come of this, ranting is for practice.”
Day 2- Patient pulled into coma-like state.
Day 3- 29:20:12:
“I like to use colors in writing. A color not only provokes an image, but also memories and emotions. Though there are common reactions to colors, they can each easily mean something else for someone.”
“I tend not to use overly common spoken language for a few reasons. For one, no one likes to hear these sorts of words in this order. If a poet spoke like a poet all day, he would have annoyed his audience too far away for them to appreciate him. The difference of art in writing, rather than conversational art, would be blurred. Another reason is because I am not nearly as articulate in speaking. I tend not to talk to strangers, so when I speak I know my audience will have patience and listen deeper, or be willing not to listen deeply. During writing, I imagine people that I will not only have to impress, but also these people do not know me. I feel that our inner dialogue is on a much higher level, so character speech should definitely be flowing and natural, but narration should try to cover the scene as feelings and senses provide.”
“I used to think conscious writing was a mistake, and over-thinking is for afterwards. I recently realized that ideas are not meant to be over-thought, but the words are. Words are disposable. You can use an array of different words to say the same thing, but the concept is pure. Writing is a service industry because words are for the society that uses these words, but the idea is from the writer. I keep this in mind for rewrites, and am constantly rewriting in order to achieve what I want. Complex writing is complex because of the huge array of moods put into a single paragraph. I wonder how my ideas be best expressed. Decisions in anger are equally as both valid and invalid as any other emotion. What if I were to write a boring scene, but felt impassioned with energy during writing? Or if I wished to write a beautiful scene that I am writing while I am aching? I say throw up, and sort through the meat and chunks of bread to make a sandwich later. Sure it’s gross, but what is more pure and tasty than the very idea in the writers mind. Not to say the sandwich is worth what little a regurgitation-built sandwich is worth. The sandwich created could be something beautiful enough to the reader that they feel the same glow the writer would when he first encountered his idea. If the writer doesn’t like the foods given to him, he can always serve them to the reader as is, and lack any soul or voice or bile in the description. I cannot write this way. I simply will not write this way, as I proved yesterday [confused about lapse in time from coma]. It may come out reading well, but it is not the voice I wish to portray, or words from my heart. Rather than cooking the food I am waiting tables.”
Day 4, 44:32:12:
“I cannot believe how much time I wasted on such a disgusting metaphor such as throwing up. I may as well insult every reader in the world. This brings me to speaking about metaphors and analogies. Is there a better way? You do not understand something? Think of it this way! No? Not that way either? Well then try this one on! Analogies bring together everyone. Ultimately writing is one giant analogy. You are using a form of word sound combination, and every other literary method, to let the reader understand the sounds dancing in your mind. With this in mind, you are always using analogies, in every form of communication. Audience interferes and forces you to bend the analogies to their understanding.”
“If you were to write without a goal, then you would not reach the paper”
“Rather than finding an inspiration in one word. I find that a sentence has entered my mind. I quickly jot down this sentence, and begin to write from there. Granted, in time this will leave me with similar stories, but it allows writing to come from nearly nothing. Well from ink, if I ever have to write a full page in pencil, then I will chop off my fingers to stop the tiny shakes that happen between the sharp rock and paper. Pencil is cowardice. Stick with what you write, make corrections so you know you corrected it.”
Day 5, 28:12:55:
“I have trouble speaking in present tense. I tend to go back to past tense, and eventually go back and make the necessary corrections. If a trained reader read through it, I fear that the would be stuck on a few grammar errors and miss the concept. I do not think words can damage a concept. They can only help the reader. They can, however, not allow the reader to understand it, so they can fail a concept. I will sometimes write where the concept is so clear in my mind, not a word can lose the effect for me. That is another reason to rewrite when a different emotion is contained in me. What is this? he’ll say, and I will fix it.”
Day 6, 43:55:98: -Patient is back in coma, after having a dramatic night of speaking to himself. Restraints were needed, and he was easily controlled, as we could hear out loud every move he planned to make ahead of time, no doubt the military will want part in this project.
Day 7, 11:11:12:
“No doubt my brain will burst this after.”
“I will also look towards God for writing material, as the entire New Testament’s concepts were best explained in stories. Jesus very much understood the spoken concept analogy.”
Day 8, 33:90:00: -As Patient himself foresaw, he is deceased. We have only learned what the individual thought, and judging from his thoughts compared to the others, it is not much different from the core of all writers. Except this one is dead. Haha.
