My early evening routine after returning
from work had been set in place. I would
log onto the net and check
alt.conspiracy.area51, then goto UFOMIND.com
and see if there were any new additions to
the mailing list. From there I would goto
Hotmail.com to see if I had any E-mail from
Dreamland 51, and couple of nights a week I
would finish up by checking to see how many
hits Dreamland 51 had. On any given evening
it would take me between 20-120 minutes to
complete this routine.
I had read every book on the subject I
could find (which wasn't very many), taped
every
special on T.V. and printed up every useful
bit of information on the net I could find.
In the end, I was left with a house being
over run with Area 51 crap, which lead to the
greatest contribution to my obsession......
my Area 51 office. Yes, you read right, I now
have a whole room in my home devoted to my
research (and yes, I do realize how sick this
is).
Prior to my sickness this room had been
used for storage, storage of items which I
had no use for anymore, but were to lazy to
sort out. Well, this provided me that
opertunity. What was once a room of nothing
more than old boxes was now the research area
of a full fledged obsessive moron!
Blue Prints, maps, political cartoons and
pictures of Area 51 line the walls. A shelf
constructed of cinder blocks and wooden
planks house a small library of books on
Dreamland, UFO's, underground bases, and just
about anything else that can be loosely tied
in to Area 51. There is a small desk with a
file shelf that holds the topics I am
currently researching, and along side the
desk there is a file cabinet that holds all
that information I printed up off the net.
Yes, it is truely a disturbing sight to
see.
At one point I could be found in there
frequently, sorting through information,
reflecting, theorizing, and on at least one
occasion sleeping. Not so much any more
though. Its not that I have found all
the answers I am looking for (although I am
satisfied that I have answered 90% of my
questions sufficantly), its that the
questions I don't have answers for seem
unanswerable, at least for now. These
questions revolve around the issue of (you
guessed it!) alien craft at the Nevada Test
Site. I am satisfied that IF our government
has recovered extraterrestrial craft, the
test sight would be the logical place to keep
them, but that is a big "if".
Sadly, it seems I am left with two
options, either A) Give up on Area 51
completly, or B) Expand my studies to include
things such as the actual alleged recovery
operations themselves. At this point I refuse
to even consider the infamous "Roswell Case"
There has been so much conjecture and
misinformation in both directions if seems
pointless and impossible to sort through it
all now. Needless to say, there are
interesting arguements in both directions,
and I don't want to get caught up in the
fight.
I have yet to decide which route to take,
and in the grand scheme of things I suppose
it doesn't really matter. Even if I did
manage to convince myself that there were
aliens visiting the earth what would it
matter? And just because I believed it, that
wouldn't make it so. But there is another
side to the coin. Researching the possiblity
of aliens visiting earth provides a great
mystery, and I do love
a good mystery! Looking back, I suppose its
the mystery that attacted me to Area 51 in
the
first place.
