left

im strugleing for some middle ground,
but to no avail.
on one side, 
what i know in my mind to be right,
what i know i would want done for me,
what i know would keep the peace.
on the other,
what might just make me happy,
what might just open me up,
what might be just what im looking for.
god damnit,
which way do i go?