Hallmarks of an Orphan Spirit

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One time, in the mid 1970's, my mother told me she wished I'd never been born. I have to admit that still hurts, even though I know the problem lay within her own psyche, not mine. She was the psychopath, not me. But, maybe like me, she couldn't help her own actions either.

Whatever the reason, parental rejection, such as what mother did to me, can cause the following personality defects and lack of life skills that have been very evident in my life. It's a shame that I didn't learn all of this until it was too late to correct any of it.

Einstein said it perfectly, I guess - Because I really did try to make right decisions. However, I never did get those "different results". Instead, I carried on with my "learned behavior" and kept repeating the same self-defeating actions. I just didn't know how to do it any differently.

Hallmarks of an Orphan Spirit Inability to have lasting relationships Hatred of authority, general distrust for leaders General lack of direction in one's life Inability to make key, strategic decisions Drawing near, then backing away from intimacy A sense that they're just going to reject you anyway A gnawing sense of failure, never quite good enough An inexplicable drive to succeed, win, prove oneself Then along comes that self-destructive behavior which proves one can't succeed - to prove oneself really is worthless

Note: The list to the left came to me in an email. Author unknown

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But all of that doesn't matter in the long run, because there is somebody who will adopt us into His family and right all those wrongs. Who? Why, God, of course. Becoming a Child of God ... We are ORPHANS NO MORE!

God bestows upon us the righteousness that makes us "perfect" in his sight. Then we don't have to worry about stupid things any more and can throw away all of our useless baggage. That's something else I wish I had TRULY understood in my youth. Thinking you understand in your head what that says is a whole different story from understanding in your heart. Trust me on that!

We also have the Blessed Assurance of being with our PERFECTED loved ones again in Heaven where there will be no more junk like what happened to us on this earth.

Thank You, Jesus, for Saving my Soul!
Thank you that I don't have to be "perfect" - you'll do it FOR me
And please let the Circle of my family in Heaven be unbroken.
Amen